LOGIN#Dorothy’s POV# #Two Years Later#The sea is loud tonight, louder than usual. Waves keep rolling and breaking against the sand in heavy rhythm. The air smells like salt and driftwood, and I can taste the brine when I lick my lips. The wind keeps sweeping my hair across my face, tickling, reminding me I’m here, I’m alive. Two years. It feels like both forever and yesterday.Cass sits on a chair set up on the beach, barefoot, her hair pinned loosely but already fighting to come free. She’s holding a folded piece of paper in her hands, her voice steady but trembling at the edges. Everyone from the retreat is gathered around her. Survivors, writers, friends, the odd stranger who wandered in and never left. Joel’s somewhere behind me with the twins, but my eyes stay fixed on Cass. She clears her throat and looks at me, and for the briefest second she’s just my best friend, the same Cass who used to chat with me overnight and vent about Turkish male drama leads. But tonight she’s more than
#Joel’s POV#Evening in New York has a way of pressing against the windows like a gentle hand. The city is alive outside but in here, in this brownstone apartment I’ve rented for her, it feels sealed, like I’ve built her a cocoon. A safe place. A place that belongs to us, even if it’s temporary. I’ve been trying for weeks to think of something that might help her feel steady again, something that might bring back the spark in her eyes, and this—this writing retreat—is the closest I’ve gotten. I don’t know if it’s perfect. I don’t know if it’s enough. But watching her now, walking around the space, fingertips brushing the bookshelves, her soft voice saying “wow” under her breath as though she doesn’t want me to hear… God, it feels like I did at least one thing right.The place is nothing extravagant, not like the properties my father used to throw money at. It’s warm, almost old-fashioned. Wooden beams across the ceiling. A long table in the middle of the open room where half a dozen n
#Dorothy’s POV#The moment I walk into the conference lounge of the publishing house, it feels like my body is floating and heavy at the same time. Floating because the last few days have felt like I’ve been suspended in something I can’t fully name, feeling relief, exhaustion and disbelief that I’m still standing after everything that’s happened. Heavy because every muscle in me still aches from carrying all the secrets and betrayals, and even though the papers are signed and the lawyers are out of the way, my heart hasn’t quite caught up with what “resolved” is supposed to feel like.I’m perched on the edge of one of the couches in the staff lounge, legs crossed, tapping my fingers restlessly on my phone screen. I’ve been trying to distract myself with work, or at least with busywork—re-reading the itinerary for the launch tour, scrolling through all the notes the marketing team emailed me this morning—but my brain keeps sliding off the words. There’s something too still in me, like
#Dorothy’s POV#It’s been a week. Only a week. But in that small stretch of time, I feel like my whole world has been rearranged in a way I don’t even know how to properly describe. And I’m not saying everything is perfect, God knows I don’t believe in perfect anymore, but it feels like… like the curse I always thought was stitched into my life has loosened. Like it’s letting me breathe.I’m standing in the middle of this publishing house in Manhattan, sunlight bouncing off glass walls, this sweet smell of ink and new pages floating in the air, and I don’t even know what to do with myself. Because that’s my name up there. My real name. “Dorothy Rain” stamped bold across a hardcover.I blink hard, because I keep thinking my eyes are lying to me. The Fathers of My Child? in gold-embossed letters. My words, my voice, my truth. All those nights typing away with shaking fingers, all those times I thought no one would care, all those times I was sure I was wasting my breath, suddenly it’s s
#Dorothy’s POV#The morning light filters into the sitting room, the way it always does here by the ocean. The curtains sway a little because Joel left the window cracked last night to let the sea breeze through, and the air smells of salt, wood polish, and fresh flowers in the vase on the coffee table. I sit there on the edge of the couch, my hands restless in my lap, my knees bouncing slightly, unable to keep still. I feel like my body is betraying me again, and yet my mind is working double time, replaying every single detail of what happened yesterday, what’s been happening lately, how everything has gotten to this insane point in my life.Joel is there, of course. He’s in one of his plain white shirts, the collar open, sleeves rolled up, and his hair is slightly damp from his morning shower. He hasn’t taken his eyes off me since I woke up with nausea again. He hasn’t stopped watching me as though the minute he looks away, I’ll collapse, I’ll vanish, I’ll slip into that dark tunne
#Dorothy’s POV#I don’t think I’ve stopped smiling since this morning. And honestly, I don’t think I will. My cheeks actually hurt, and Joel keeps teasing me that I look like someone who just discovered her favorite dessert after years of pretending to be on a diet. But it’s not just the wedding, not just the ceremony or the applause or the kisses and the rings. It’s deeper than all that. It’s this lightness in my chest that feels new and raw and terrifying, but in the best way. I keep telling myself, This is it. This is what it should have always been. This is what I wanted all along but didn’t even know how to ask for.I sit on the edge of the couch, still in the afterglow of the evening, dress changed into something simple, just a soft cream lounge dress a maid ironed for me earlier, but the memory of the white lace gown brushing against my ankles lingers like a dream. I can still feel the weight of the veil when I blink. My hand keeps brushing my ring finger like I’m checking if i







