What the fuck is wrong with me? I’m so mad at myself right now because of what I let happen in the bathroom. How foolish can I be? I know Jason hates me and is using his charms against me to make things worse for me.
But what I did, aside from stopping him, was let him go on, losing my sanity and indulging him. Darn, you, Kiera?
“Keira controls yourself and never repeats the same mistake twice,” I repeated the words in my head, staring at my reflection in the mirror.
I took deep breaths, trying to calm my senses. I’m mad not only because I allowed Jason to kiss me but also because I cherished every moment of us being like that, being kissed passionately and adroitly by him. With Jason’s arms draped around my waist, his chest pressed upon my body, with our hearts synchronizing together in rhythm, humming a song of their own.
‘It was just a kiss, just a kiss, and nothing else.’ I chanted the words in my head, hoping that it would help me forget the events earlier. Splashing cold water on my face, I stared at my reflection in the mirror, my lips which are crimson and swollen from the profound attention it received earlier. My cheeks blush with a deep shade of pink. Even when I think about it, I can’t stop myself from blushing at the scene that plays in my mind. I still don't know why I allowed it or why I cherished every moment while it lasted, but one thing I’m sure about is that I don’t regret it.
I double-checked the room before entering, making sure that Jason was nowhere near, and made my way out of the bathroom towards the bedroom, not wanting to stay any longer in a place that reminded me of my love-hate moment. I then opened my suitcase, looking for some clothes and changing into them as quickly as possible before leaving.
Going downstairs, I see the living room in utter chaos, with Jason holding his daughter in his arms as his daughter crying her heart out, and even with Jason being so close to her, holding her in his arms couldn’t stop the tears streaming from her eyes.
“What happened?” The chaos stunned me, and I couldn’t help myself from asking.
All faces turned at me on hearing my voice, staring at me. “Kiera,” said Mrs. Clinton, breaking the silence.
“What are you doing here?” Jason demanded, with his face raging from anger, watching me here with others.
“Let me remind you that if you have forgotten, I live here,” I responded sarcastically.
“Leave, I’m not in the mood to argue with you right now,” Jason fumed, caressing his daughter in his arms, trying to calm her down.
“Fine,” I mumbled more to myself than to him. Although I don’t want to do it after seeing Jason’s daughter weeping so hard, and as a stranger in this house, I don’t think I’ll be able to do anything but disturb others in their work.
I turned around to leave, but before I could make a move, little hands held my arms, preventing me from leaving.
It was no surprise to me, given the size of his hands, to whom these belonged. But what surprises me is the question that crossed my mind at the moment when the tiny hands held me. And that is ‘Why?’
I turned my head and was not surprised, but bewildered, if I do say so, to see Jason’s daughter holding my hand, trying to grab my attention.
My mind became utterly empty, not knowing what to do then. So I turned my face around to Jason, thinking he might know something about_ how to handle a situation like that because he’s his father. Where else but me I'm just a stranger. But given his stern face and puzzled grimace, I don’t think he knows anything about it either.
However, even with his grimacing expression, Jason did something that surprised me most about this entire situation: he placed his daughter in my arms by giving it to me. Well, how many more surprises am I going to get on my first day with Jason?
“Help me calm her, please…...” Wait, did Jason Gray say please, seeking my help? Shut up, Kiera. What are you thinking? A person asking for my help to calm his crying child, and I’m thinking about such nonsense; Shame on me.
I’ve never held a child in my arms, so how am I going to soothe a child? I feel like the mediocre cook we asked to prepare a gourmet dinner. But whatever it is, I have to do my best to calm her down, no matter how.
I don’t know why or how, but just as I glanced at the little girl Jason settled in my arms, a memory long lost and mostly forgotten appeared in my mind, something that I never wanted to recall in my mind ever. The memory was the most depressing moment I ever had as a child. I don’t know why it appeared here and now. But with the sorrowful memory also comes the beautiful moment of life that I shared with my father. At the time, I was so disturbed, but my father’s arms wrapped around my body like a protective blanket made me feel that no harm could hurt me while my father was with me. His favorite lullaby, which he used to sing to me, always helps me to calm my mind and relax in my life’s most distressing moments.
I know nothing about child care or child-rearing, but who knows what helped me calm my senses as a child could help the girl in the arms? Darn, I don’t even know her name. Stop wasting time; it is better to try than to waste time on conclusions that make no sense.
Therefore, do not waste time and stop the crying of the girl weeping in my arms. I did what my dad usually did, imitating it step by step, how he wiped off my tears, looking at me with a sweet smile on his face, how he used to kiss my forehead, making me feel so important in his life. I cannot describe the importance of these memories to me in life, and I do not want to do so because it’s something I cherish wholeheartedly in my life.
I felt a head resting over my left shoulder, and that simple act of compassion brought a smile to my face as I moved my hands, caressing the hair of the little angel in my arms, rocking her, and crooning her with my father and my favorite lullaby.
I am hoping that it will have the same effects on her as it does on me.
‘Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There’s a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream.
Really do come true.
Someday I’ll wish upon a star.
And wake up where the clouds are far,
Behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That’s where you’ll find me.’
I never thought that Kiera would be so kind and caring to Aria and watch her concern for Aria. The way she cradles Aria in her arms, singing for her and caressing her with loving warmth in her appearance, is truly heartwarming. Because, once I thought that Kiera’s kindness made me forget that she’s the same daughter that I hate and that I married, only to see her father suffer. And Aria, whom I couldn’t soothe or prevent the tears from streaming from her eyes, Kiera did in a few minutes. Aria is the only family I have left, and my heart bleeds to see Aria in pain. Not because the sight of suffering makes me suffer, but because I couldn’t do anything to make her pain go away. The same old question continues in my mind: whenever I see Aria like this, thinking how cruel a human can be? For hurting someone so small and charming, someone who couldn’t even describe the pain she feels in words, someone so young as Aria. And I’m so ashamed that the reason for her suffering is none other t
Days passed of me living here in Jason’s house as his wife, and nothing changed. Jason hates me and ignores me as much as he can. The one time I can see him is when I’m Aria or when we run into each other in our own way by default. The thing is, even after living with each other under the same roof for so many days, we are still strangers. Jason doesn’t come or sleep in his bedroom because of me. Jason even moved his things into the bedrooms across from Aria, and his, only to stay away from me. Why does he hate me so much that he can’t even stay near to me? And if staying away is what he wanted, then why does he marry me? All this question is giving me a headache only by thinking about it. Darn you, Jason Gray, I hate you. Aria is the only person who makes me feel alive here, even though she can only say a word, that’s ‘Daddy.’ But if I want to chat or share my thoughts with someone, I have Mrs. Clinton, who is the most cheerful person in this household, with whom I can share my tho
It’s been a day since the accident happened in the kitchen. My hand still hurts, but things could have been worse if Jason hadn’t acted fast at that time. Jason's quick thinking and immediate response saved me from a potentially more severe injury. But Jason, lingering on his true self, returned to his same attitude as before and continued ignoring me. Despite his heroic actions during the accident, Jason's behavior towards me remained unchanged. It was disheartening to see that his selflessness didn't extend beyond that moment, leaving me feeling neglected and unimportant once again. It’s not like care, but his change in attitude from time to time irritates the hell out of me. In my life, there is only one person who genuinely loves and cares for me, My dad. There’s only one person in my life who genuinely loves me and cares for me, my dad. In my life, there is only one person who genuinely loves and cares for me, my dad. All my life, I have lived with my dad. We had a relationship
“I’ll take you,” he said, holding my hand, helping me. I nodded my head at Jason’s words. I really want to see my dad, and creating an uproar will only make things worse. Now my dad is more important than anything else. I gave Jason the address as he drove us to the hospital. Within minutes, he parked in the hospital parking lot. We hurriedly made our way inside, the urgency of the situation weighing heavily on us. As we entered the hospital, I couldn't help but feel a mix of anxiety and uneasiness, wanting to know his condition as soon as possible. The sterile smell of the hospital and the sight of people rushing around added to my growing apprehension. I clenched my fists, hoping for good news about my dad's health. Standing in the hospital foyer, unaware of what to do as my mind went blank, I stared at the lobby, where people were coming and going, unaware of my situation. It felt like all my senses suddenly stopped working altogether as I was consumed by worry. The silence aroun
I wake up feeling somebody caressing my hair. As I opened my eyes, I saw Jason with his eyes closed, his arm wrapped around my body, and my head over his shoulder. I see we’re both stretched out in Jason’s bed in his room. How do we end up here? If I remember right, I was at the hospital. So how did we end up in Jason’s bed? I tried to remove myself from Jason’s grasp. The movement caused him to sway his body and open his eyes. He blinks a few times, his expression changing from confusion to recognition. "Oh, hey," he mumbled sleepily. "I guess we fell asleep here last night," said Jason, rubbing one another’s eyes with the back of his right hand and yawning. I just looked at him, disturbed by his sudden shift in behavior. I couldn't help but feel a sense of unease as I observed Jason's nonchalant response. It was as if he was trying to brush off the situation, leaving me with even more questions about how we ended up in his bed. Jason never shared a bed with me before; then why no
Jason and I are both seated in his car while he drives us to his home. My heart pounds in my chest just by thinking about how everything changes so fast, and my life took a drastic turn, changing everything. Dad had an accident and is now in a coma. And every time I think of him lying lifeless with his eyes closed, it breaks my heart, and my eyes get wet with tears. The man who used to be so full of life is now lifeless. He can’t even breathe without the aid of machines attached to him. My mind deviates from my thoughts when I feel like Jason puts his hand on top of my hand, squeezing lightly and giving me a small smile before continuing to drive. I smiled back at him for his compassion. Things change quickly. Jason, who once couldn’t even bother speaking to me, is now cheering me up in bad times. In only a couple of days, the person who couldn’t even stand the sight of me is now helping me and supporting me in my most vulnerable period of life. Things transform fast, but I am too
"Kiera." I heard somebody call my name with a hand on my shoulder, waking me up from my sleep. I moaned with distress as I felt the hands of someone on my shoulder, gently shaking my body. "What?" I replied, groaning loudly and clearly. As I opened my eyes, I saw Jason looking out the window of the car with his hands on the wheel, and the car was parked somewhere in an area I didn’t know about. “We’re here,” Jason said, looking out the car window with his eyes focused somewhere on the horizon. Jason sighed profoundly, his face serious. Jason sighed profoundly, and within moments, he got out of the car, walked beside me, and opened my door as he proposed to me in his “come.” I nodded my head at his words, placing my hands in his hand as he took us both inside the house that had mostly looked abandoned for many years. On entering, I scanned the structure of the house, which seemed mostly destructive. Thick layers of dirt line the floor of the house; the wall is all covered with spi
“Sorry, is that Mrs. Gray I’m talking to?" Someone on the phone asked Jason’s mother. “Yes, but who is speaking? “ Jason’s mother responded, urging a question of her own. The person on the phone, who is a police officer, introduced himself to her on the phone before telling her, “We are sorry to inform you; we are sorry to inform you, but your husband had a car accident.” Hearing this news made Jason’s mother’s legs jelly, her eyes streaming like a river, and her heart pounding rapidly into her chest. All her senses felt numb as she tried to talk. “How is he? “ She spoke, trying her best to deliver her words as clearly as she could. “It would be great if you could come here and see him for yourself,” the officer replied, giving her the address of the accident site. Jason’s mother, wasting a second of her time, held her son in her arms and went to the address given by the officer on the phone. Little Jason, who was sitting on the couch, watched his mother closely when she was talk