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Chapter 43: When Does Wanting Become Desperate?

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last update publish date: 2026-03-10 04:51:07

Seraphina's POV

The second attempt happens on a Tuesday.

Not because it's ovulation day, though it is but because Aurelius comes home at 3 PM, walks past his home office where a video call with Tokyo investors is waiting, and finds me crying over a negative pregnancy test from a friend's Facebook announcement.

"Another one," I say, showing him the ultrasound photo. "That's the fourth person this month who just... happened to get pregnant. Meanwhile, we're over here charting cycles like it's a m
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