"I'm physically unable to be an Alpha to my pack. I am still too weak to make a decision since the rejection. You'd say it's almost a year, but still, the effect of losing my Luna took a toll on me. My Beta had to take over for me until I could resume my position again," he paused for a moment and continued. "You can help me with that. We can help each other and become normal again. Or maybe become happy if we tried enough."This time I was finally able to speak. I still had questions poking at my mind. And I needed answers from Erix."We were friends. Is that why you befriended me because you knew I was Killian's mate?""Yes. Knowing Killian, he will keep Isabelle no matter what happens. I used to be his best friend back in our Alpha Training. Isabelle was our Trainer's daughter. He met her first, but I was her mate. He rejected me the night I found out that Isabelle was my mate. I knew that Killian would not make you his official Luna. He intended you to be his mistress, just like t
Zander understands my decision. Kaila didn't interfere, either. Both of them knew my situation and that it would be good for me to start a new life away from this pack. "Alpha Erix told me to help you, so I agree with this, Rain," Zander told me when Kaila left us alone to prepare our lunch. "I thought I had lost you when I saw you unconscious at the hospital. I would choose you far from me rather than not seeing you forever. You scared the hell out of me, sis." "I'm sorry," I apologize. "I was too selfish, and I didn't consider the feelings of those around me. I'm sorry, brother. I was lost."Zander smiled. I can see that he is happy seeing me connected to them again. "So when are you going to leave?" he asked me. "Tonight, brother," I replied. "That soon?""The earlier, the better.""Food is ready!" Kaila's voice boomed from the dining area. Zander and I stood up and went to where Kaila was. "I cooked all your favorite food, Rain," she said, smiling. "Thank you," I replied.
Ever since the rejection, I have doubted myself. There are a lot of questions flooding my mind. Was I not good enough? Am I not fit to be Luna? I continued packing up the dresser until I could no longer bear it. I fell onto my bed and slumped. Kaila jerked her head towards me before walking to the end I sat on and took the clean spot next to me. "What's wrong with me, Kai?" She wrapped her slender hands around my shoulders in an act of comfort and sighed wearily. "There's nothing with you, Rain. You just lost your mate. It's a completely natural reaction to that," she said. I shook my head. "No, not that. I mean my whole life. Why am I so different from all of the other female wolves?"Sympathy crossed over her features as she stared back at me. "There's nothing wrong with you like I said, Rain. You are your own person. You are special. It reminds me of a book I read about Princess Letisha in Middle Eastern countries. She was adventurous and outspoken. She followed what her heart
"I come here to talk," Killian said. "I won't come any further if you would prefer it."I didn't speak. I was afraid even to dare to speak. My voice couldn't hold up talking to Killian. Everything I buried deep inside would come spilling out with my words. Instead of answering, I nodded at him, and he understood. He dropped his hands and sat facing me on the edge of my bed. Even in my wolf's weak state, she tried to listen. "I had to see you before you left. I need to explain myself before you hate me forever."His words seem sincere, and I have difficulty believing in him. But my wolf believes in him. "I want you to know I never intended to reject you," he began. "The day I discovered you was the happiest moment in my life. Maybe if you had stayed in the pack, I would have met you before Isabelle. I had my eye on you when I first saw you during your graduation. I thought to myself, maybe if you were mateless, I would have courted you. But after that, you disappear. And hardly join
Killian's eyes become apologetic. "You're right. I'm sorry. I just want to feel it again one last time.""You can't just reject me, then waltz into my house like you own this place, fill me with hurtful stories and then kiss me. It doesn't work like that. I understand your wolf might have pushed you to come over, but that's not an excuse. Isabelle is your mate now, not me," I said, making my voice a little louder. I was surprised that it didn't hurt me to be so blunt about it. There was a twinge of sadness in me, but I was hollow once more with my wolf gone again. He looked away from me in shame. He was staring at the fully open suitcase on my bed. "So, I guess you are going then," he said. "Yes, tonight."His head snapped at me. "So soon?""There is no reason to prolong my stay here, is there? I need to pick up the pieces and move on with my life, and getting out of this town is the only way to do that.""I think it is," he admitted. "But where will you go?" It took a moment fo
Erix and I took turns fiddling with his radio inside his truck. The radio picked up many radio stations, but none of the songs they currently play suited our taste. Although Erix has some burned CDs, he told me that the truck wasn't his and belonged to his father. So, I should expect some old songs. "We should play just one. The old songs are gold. I still like to hear some of them rather than the new-aged music. I don't quite like it," I told him as I flipped the cd holder. "Well, you probably won't like it. But be my guess," Erix replied, concentrating his eyes on the road. I found some eighties to early nineties songs such as Bolton's, Shaina, and Bon Jovi. "Are you kidding me? These are all my favorites!" I told him before removing one of BJ's CDs and feeding it to the cd player. When the song started to play, my mood suddenly changed. I'm a sucker for old songs. My dad used to have many of them, and he would play songs while I watched him fix his car. Or sometimes I see
When Erix stopped in front of me with his hand extended, I broke from my thought. I stared at his palm, facing upward, waiting for me to take it."Unity," he said, answering an unspoken question. "It's important to the pack and me." "Right," I answered dumbly. I placed my hand in his large one, the heat enveloping it. While he seemed comfortable holding on to me, I was stiff. This thing between us was something new. He gave it a light squeeze and smiled teasingly."Loosen up. We both have to get used to this eventually."Though it was mostly forced, I smiled back and tried to take his advice. I loosened up. I heave a sigh and let my shoulders fall to relax. I was never a fan of the crowd, even though I used to work in a diner. But he is right, and the restaurant and pack are different. I know I can do this.I gripped his hand a little tighter and nodded to him. "Okay, I'm ready."Erix seemed satisfied and pulled me beside him, away from the garage. The large house came back into vi
I tensed at Erix's words. The next full moon? We still needed to discuss our mating date. Wasn't I supposed to be part of the decision?I shot him a disgruntled look. I'll wait until after this is over before I ask him about that. "I hope you will all give her a warm welcome to our pack. I want her to feel at home here," he finished. He shot me a breathtaking smile that would have melted me like butter if I wasn't still hurting due to recent events.There were murmurs of kind words and delighted looks on the faces of the pack. Almost immediately, people were lining up to greet me. They had obeyed Erix's request without issue. None of them seems forced to be polite. It honestly felt like they wanted to because I meant something to Erix."It's nice to meet you, Rain," an older woman said, shaking my hand. "I'm Sophia, Erix's Aunt. It's nice to put a face with the name finally.""It's a pleasure to meet you too. And I was sorry for the scene a few minutes ago," I replied. Sophia smile