~AkaraThe air in the cabin of the carriage is ice cold and tense as we head into the Jade Province.After last night, I haven't felt very much like talking. Tai sits beside me, a manoeuvre he made when getting in that made me want to jab him the ribs with my elbow, but I've kept quiet, not wanting anyone to ask questions.Although, it's painfully obvious something happened last night in our room. Marek has been watching me carefully ever since I got into the carriage this morning.“Everything okay?” he eventually asks.“I’m fine," I murmur, looking out the window.“You don’t look fine," Zavian notes. I turn to look at my friend, annoyed that he is so good at reading me now, that he can see that something is plaguing my mind. Zavian knows what it is like to have something weigh on you.I shrug, letting out a breath I didn't realise I had been holding. “I just didn’t sleep very well.”That's an understatement. Despite being tired, I couldn't stop thinking about the kiss with Tai, and w
~AkaraThe weight of the room bears heavily on me, to the point I can't stand it anymore, and rush out of the room.Both Marek and Tai follow me, but none of them know what to say. They could either allow me to live, and turn into an irredeemable monster and completely lose my sense or self, or they could be merciful and let me die."You have to kill me," I demand. If they won't do it, I'll do it to myself.Marek steps forward, looking like he wants to reach out and touch me, but I don't think I could handle it right now. "Akara, don't...""It needs to be done." I'm pacing back and forth, long grass rubbing against my legs. Nothing is relevant in my mind anymore. All that matters is my impending doom, and how inevitable it is. "Tai, you will do it."Tai's eyes widen and he looks disgusted. "You're asking me to kill you?""Do you want to see me become a monster?" I ask. It's like I can already feel the foreignness in my veins. I'm losing control, the feeling of it slipping away from me
~AkaraI stumble from the shop, not bothering to hold back and explain to the woman that I'm not a threat to her.I'm a Summoner.Wasting no time wondering how this is possible, I sprint from the village and into the forest. Looking down, I could scream at the sight of hands that don't belong to me, and yet won't go away."No...No," I panic, rubbing them over my clothes, shaking me, doing anything to try get rid of them. I just took her appearance as my own, without thinking twice about it, and now, it seems I'm stuck with it.I don't stop running, even as my lungs burn and my eyes start streaming with tears. By the time Clea's mother's cabin comes into view, I could collapse into the grass with how exhausted I am. I can't possibly be relieved that I'm not turning into a Snow Demon because this fate may not be that much better.I've killed a Summoner.Marek comes into view, stalking back and forth across the front lawn. He's wondering where I am, where I've gone that has taken me so l
~AkaraOne month LaterMy fingers dig deeper into the dirt, scattering it about.Time has been moving blissfully fast since moving here. Each day is almost the same, Marek and I having established our home here. I've come to truly love the Emerald Pack, and it's balmy weather and friendly people. I could see myself here forever, away from everything in my past.Physically, my past may be behind me, but each night I close my eyes, and flashes of Tai and Vaia come to mind. What are they doing now? What are they plotting next?Marek has soothed me some nights, running into my room when nightmares plague me.He tells me to move on. But it's harder than that, even as more time passes.We haven’t kissed again since that night over a month ago. There have been moments when I’ve been tempted, but Marek hasn’t pushed me, knowing I need time after Tai."What a nice garden,” someone says, drawing my gaze up from where it was focused on the flowers I’m planting.I lean upwards wiping my sweaty fo
*Mature Content Warning*~AkaraMarek returns within twenty minutes.Most of that time I've sat by the window, gazing out into our front lawn, into the street, waiting for something terrible to happen. For the most part, I expected the entire town to band together and come knocking on our door to either kill me, or demand I leave.When they look at Marek, they see a Summoner who is doing their best to avoid using their powers. But if they hear about me, they will know I have no control over mine.I'm chewing on my fingernail as Marek walks in.He pulls his hood back. "It's done.""You didn't kill him, did you?" I ask, eyes roving over his body, looking for evidence of blood, or anything else incriminating. He looks the same as he did when he left, not even a little bit frazzled."No, of course not," he shakes his head, shrugging his coat off. "I just made it clear I would, if he decided to say anything."I sigh. "Marek..."I knew he was going to intimidate someone, and had he come to
~AkaraIt's been two weeks since Marek and I slept together. And there hasn't been a single day since that he hasn't ravished me."This is bad," I say one morning over my tea, watching him wander around the kitchen shirtless, preparing breakfast.He leans up against the countertop, examining me. "Doesn't feel bad."No, it doesn't. In fact, it's the best I've felt in a long time. I haven't worried about anything, or anyone. I haven't thought about my life as a Summoner, or whether our neighbours know...I mean, I've been quite content being locked inside these past couple weeks, consistently entertained by the beautiful Summoner.I've only started to think about what we are doing today, due to a horrid dream I had last night about Tai. Now the guilt has seeped in, the harsh reality of the outside world slowly seeping back into the paradise we have made within this small cabin."I know, but anything could happen these days, anything could go wrong," I murmur uncomfortably, blowing at my
~AkaraI stare up at the manor, wishing the ground would swallow me up.It feels wrong, being back here. My last memory of this place was me and Tai fleeing when Vaia and the rebels had taken control of it. Now Tai is King again, and my reason for being here is even more ominous than the first time, when Marek and I arrived in that carriage, having no idea what was ahead of us.What remains the same, is the unpredictable King we are going to be forced to face. All I know is my goal is for both Marek and I to leave this property alive, and with no intention to ever return again."I can't believe I'm back," I whisper, exhaling slowly."Neither can I. I hoped I would never see this place again, after I betrayed Vaia," Marek mutters. I sometimes forget that my last time here was not the last time for Marek. He spent more time here, pretending to side with Vaia, pretending to hate me.I shiver. I hate thinking about it."Remember when we first came here?" I ask, looking back at him. He's d
~AkaraI stare out the window, fuming.Tai hasn't explicitly said I cannot leave, but as I came up to my old room, I noticed the guards tailing me, now standing at the door. So much anger is rolling through me, desperate to come out somehow. My hatred for Tai is overwhelming, and yet I can't act on it. Not yet. Not until I have a plan.I begin pacing across the room. It's not exactly like how it was a year ago, Vaia having changed it while she was reigning, and now Tai has tried to change it back. He missed some details, understandably, but it's eerie, how alike it is.As if he is trying to recreate our past.I shiver, looking toward the bed.There's not much chance for me to get any sleep tonight. Marek is in the prisons, possibly already murdered, or about to be. And I'm stuck in this room, staring out at a forest I once adored. I fell in love in this manor.But not to Tai. No matter how much he wants to force me into new situations expecting old results.A knock on the door has me