Chapter 1

CHAPTER 1

Lucinda’s POV

The room was almost silent except for the muffled sobs which escaped my lips.

Memories of my mate calling me a pathetic wolf, echoed through my head, causing me to tremble.

My wolf howled painfully in my head, and I clutched my chest, I felt my heart beat painfully in my chest.

Trembling on the single bed, barely enough for one person, my hands pressed against my lips, trying their hardest to prevent my sobs from escaping.

My mate was just outside the room of this rundown motel that he reserved just for tonight.

This morning, he told me to make time for our date tonight and I was ecstatic and eagerly counted the hours till we had to meet, I never could have imagined my heart would be completely shattered before me like this.

I was used to the Ill-treatment from the pack for being an omega, a very low-ranking wolf but I never expected this sort of cruelty from Alpha Killian, the Alpha of Crescent Moon pack, and my mate.

Honestly, I knew he wasn't particularly happy when he found out I was his fated mate but I thought he had accepted that fact and he had come to love me despite my rank but I guess you could say I was willfully being delusional.

On this day, I got off work early and got all dolled up, expecting a wonderful evening with the love of my life. My stomach was filled with butterflies and my heart was filled with excitement and hopes for the future especially because he was the one who contacted me first and asked for a date, something he's never done before.

I took solace in the fact that he was busy since he was the Alpha and had many responsibilities.

He made me wait for him for three hours before picking me up from our agreed meetup but I didn't mind, I was happy to be able to meet him again after months.

My wolf stirred excitedly in my head, and I eagerly looked out the window for his car.

Sitting in his car, I bounced on the seat, grinning like a fool as he drove to our date.

Alpha Killian drove for more than an hour, almost close to the border of the pack. My foolish brain thought there was a fancy new restaurant that opened recently and I was grinning from ear to ear even regardless of the awkward silence in the car, but my smile dropped when I realized that the only establishment in the area was a motel, a rundown one at best.

I looked at him in confusion, as if to say, what we were doing here, but his next words made me freeze.

“I'm sure you know what has to be done if we go inside so what would it be?” He asked as he licked his lips, his eyes wandering around my body, “After all, we're mates, it shouldn't be a problem.”

My breath got in my throat and for a second I forgot how to breathe.

Was he talking about … sex? He wanted to have sex with me in a motel? Looking at the motel, I furrowed my brows.

Having sex with my mate wasn't a bad idea, but I wanted to keep my virginity till he claimed me.

I bit my lips, my eyes wandering back to the building.

This place was a strip club or as some would call…a whore house.

I stared back at his face for a moment, deciding to dismiss the thought.

He wanted to be with me so the place didn't matter as long as we were together. That was my last idiotic thought before he took my virginity and immediately rejected me as his mate afterward. Confused, I tried to reason with him to the best of my ability, reminding him of the deed we had just done but instead, he threatened to ruin my family's life in the pack if I didn't accept the rejection and leave him alone.

From the look of his bloodshot red eyes, I knew he wasn't bluffing. Scared for my family, I accepted his rejection, trembling in fear.

Satisfied with my reaction, he gave me a final kiss on the lips and then said, “A repulsive leech like you should have never dreamed of becoming the Luna, you dug your own grave. Wake up to reality, I'm not a tool to boost your rank. Dress up and meet me outside so we can return to the pack.” With that, he left.

As soon as the door closed behind him, tears streamed down my cheeks and I almost yelled in anguish but I quickly clasped my mouth and muffled my scream. He's a werewolf so he probably heard or not, I hope he didn't. He had humiliated me too much already, I didn't want to give him the satisfaction of knowing how much what he did hurt me.

That smirk he gave me, suddenly remembering it gave me chills down my spine, whenever images of the time we spent intimate together came into my mind, I would gag. All the feelings I had for that horrible werewolf were gone just like our mating bond.

He was a walking red flag from the moment we realized we were mates. I was the one who made excuses for him, something he never asked for, he wasn't even trying to hide it. He ignored me ever since then but I lied to myself that it was because he was busy. I messaged him every day on I*******m even though he rarely replied.

Even today, he didn't even hide the fact that he didn't like me and made me wait for him for three hours at a park and only came when no one would be around to see us together. He took me almost to the border of the pack where no one would see or recognize us, he thought everything through since I refused to let him go and I cannot say this was entirely his fault since I was the one who went along with it.

A tear slipped past my eye as I watched his retreating figure.

I felt my wolf howl in pain, my heart clenching with regret.

This was a mistake, One I could never undo.