CLARAI went to the chapel as usual, trying to keep to the act of being a true Christian person. Initially, my reason was to check on Lucaa, we haven’t spoken for days now. If not mistaken, we last spoke the day she slapped Dominic.After our brief conversation which didn’t last long as usual, I headed back to the mansion. By the time I got there, Lily was seated in the living room, but not alone. Her wounds were treated by a doctor whom I guess was called by Mateo.Lily on her own wouldn’t dare involve a doctor like she refused to have one on the night of the attack. Mateo was the least I noticed because he had his eyes and attention on something else.He would only pay attention to Lily when she screamed or groaned too loudly. He didn’t say anything, though he looked like he wanted to.Lily’s breath was so rough that it looked like she had run a million-meter race. Her face was already stained red, and I could tell from the reddish colour of her eyes that it hurt so badly, and how m
CLARAWhy do I feel like there was more reason to why he had rushed his way into the bathroom? The long pause, and the way he was staring at me spoke so much I couldn’t explain. It felt like it was just our first time meeting, and he was trying every means to access me.I felt my cheeks hot as I smiled at the thought.However, Mateo left in a hurry, and he didn’t say anything else after our conversation. I went to check on Lily who was still asleep, then I had to pay a visit to the green garden. When everything began to bore me, I returned back to the room.For some reason, life here was silently becoming boring to me. It’s always the same routine all the time. Wake up, go to the chapel, phone Lucaa, have breakfast, do anything outside sleeping.Even though life outside was a bit... painful, at least there was more fun to it than being here. The only thing I get to enjoy is the rich dishes Christopher makes, which is something I’ll never regret. Ever!Lily and I weren’t the best girly
CLARAIt started with a long, awkward silence that almost ripped off my heart. I had no idea how this would go, but I was physically and mentally ready for whatever question she’d throw at me.Then, she started, breaking the long silence. “How have things been with you and my son?” My heart skipped a bit. Even though I expected that question, I never thought it’d come this sooner.“Well, like I said earlier, all has been well between us.” I tried my best to sound real so she wouldn’t have to think I was lying.She nodded, “Has he mentioned marriage yet? Or are you two still in the fantasy of engagement?”I stared at her for the briefest moment, mentally thinking on how to shape the words. “Honestly, Mateo and I haven’t discussed anything related to that for the meantime.”She frowned. “What?” She questioned. “Why the sudden delay?”“Mateo has been handling a lot lately, and he rarely had time for himself, not to talk about anyone else.”“Even at that, you’re his wife-to-be, he should
CLARAI was shocked. Don’t blame me, I didn’t see that coming.I had initially wanted to check on her and leave. But as soon as I saw her, and how pale she looked, I felt she needed my attention. What I didn’t expect was feeling her in my arms. Believe me, I still haven’t gotten over that yet.A part of me wanted to believe this was a new beginning for the both of us, the other part of me kept reminding me she had only done what she did because of her condition. All the same, it felt surreal.I could see the embarrassment on her face as soon as her stomach grumbled. I did want to laugh, but I held myself not to let her feel more embarrassed than she already was.“We need to get you something to eat. You don’t have to pretend like everything is alright.” I said, standing to my feet. “I’ll talk to Chris while you wait here.”I turned to leave but she grabbed my hand, stopping me on my track. “Wait. I’ll come with you.”That even surprised me the most. I had to pinch myself to be sure th
MATEOThe man knelt before Renzetti, shaking like a leaf. His hands were pressed together as he begged for his life, tears rolling down his face like streams, but Renzetti felt nothing. No sympathy. No pity. “I swear, I’ll return the money in two days! Just give me 48 hours!” he pleaded. Renzetti smiled, tilting his head slightly. “Two days?” He repeated, pretending to consider it. “Fine. You have 48 hours.” He looked relieved, and it was obvious in the way he sighed. Fool. “But,” Renzetti added, his voice suddenly turned cold, “if you even think about running or going to the cops, I promise you’ll regret ever crossing me.” He nodded quickly, swearing with his life. “I promise, I won’t. I swear on my life.”“I’ll have my men watch you,” he continued. “One wrong move, and you won’t live to regret it.” “Thank you! Thank you!” he stammered, scrambling to his feet. Renzetti waved his hand dismissively. “Go.” He stood up, dusting his knees before attempting to leave. That was his f
MATEOI was so vexed that I left without saying a word to anyone. I didn’t care to notice Isaac De Mante even when I could clearly hear him calling my name.“Get me out of here!” I ordered, and without questioning, my driver drove me off. “Damn!” I yelled, slamming my fist at the passenger seat. “Bruno!”“Is everything alright?” My driver asked, staring at me from the rearview mirror.“Just drive me home and quit asking.”As soon as we arrived home, I didn’t wait for him to open the door, I did it myself, slamming it behind me. I stormed into the mansion, only to meet the three women engrossed in a conversation. My appearance caused them to stop, and I stopped abruptly, staring at their faces.“Mateo, is everything alright?” Mom asked, giving me a questioning look. “You look... angry.” She gasped, pointing at my face. “Please don’t tell me you got into a fight with someone.”My gaze shifted from her to Lily, who looked concerned, and then to Clara who had a confused look on her face,
CLARAMs. Antonia still looked worried. At first, I didn’t want to ask, but I had no choice. “You don’t look good, Ms. Antonia. Why not check on him and ask what the problem is. You’re his mother, I’m sure he’ll definitely talk to you.”She shook her head. “I tried, Clara, but he prefers to lock himself in there like I don’t mean a thing to him. I don’t want to believe he can handle it all by himself, but... he won’t give me a chance to understand his pain.”I felt sad for her. I wasn’t bold enough to take the step to ask him what the problem was. He couldn’t even give his mother a chance, would he give me?She held my hands. “What about you ask him yourself, I’m pretty sure he’ll listen to you better.”My eyes flew open, she was joking, right? How am I supposed to approach him with his current condition? I’m certainly sure he wouldn’t even listen to a single word out of my mouth.“Ms. Antonia...”She didn’t let me talk, she cut in. “You don’t have to say no to this, besides sooner th
MATEO“There might be people who can’t express how concerned they are, but that doesn’t mean they don’t care.” I watched as tears clouded her eyes as she said that.Why do I feel like there was more to this than just words?No one has ever dared to speak back at me, not to talk about raising their voices. letting them say a word without dishing out the consequences wasn't a thing to me. But for some reason I wish I knew; I couldn’t do anything while I watched her talk to me like a kid.I listened to her. I’ll admit, I hated myself for my actions even though the last thing I wanted to do was show it out.“I’ll leave you to rest,” she said, heading for the door. “Sorry if I bothered you though.”I watched her leave, shutting the door behind her. For a moment, I just stood there, cursing at myself for looking weak and stupid before her. I hated how I couldn’t do anything; I hated how I couldn’t treat her like I did to the others who crossed boundaries. Not even my ex could stand it when
CLARA“You better not be messing with me,” Lucaa warned.“I promise I’m not,” I responded.We were at our favorite bistro and had placed an order for some burgers and fries. Since we were waiting for our food, I told her about what had been going on between Mateo and me.“Swear that you’re telling the truth,” she demanded.“Come on, Lucaa. You’ve known me for most of my life. Do you think I would lie to you about something like this?”She thought about it for a moment before she said, “No, you won’t.”Then, her face transformed into a bright smile. "It's about time! Gosh, this is amazing news!" she exclaimed excitedly.“Wait, you’re not mad I didn’t tell you earlier?”She looked at me like I was crazy. “Should I be?”“I guess not.”“I’m definitely not mad. In fact, I appreciate you waiting to tell me in person, and this isn’t about me, remember? This is about you finally fighting for the happiness you deserve,” she said.“Thank you so much, Lucaa. I honestly wouldn’t have had the cour
CLARAI had always thought that people who claimed to be blissfully happy were always so full of it.Oh, I was so wrong.They were absolutely right. Don't get me wrong. Nothing came close to how happy I was when I held Ale in my arms for the first time, but this was a close second.Ever since the veil had been lifted on our feelings, Mateo and I have been in such a happy bubble. These past few days have felt like a dream.He has made it a point of duty to get home earlier than he usually did so we could all have dinner together and this had not gone unnoticed by Lily and his mom who were unsurprisingly curious about what had changed.I told them that we were trying to rekindle the spark in our relationship and thankfully, his mom believed me. Lily, on the other hand, took me to the side and said it was about time we both got our heads out of our asses.Needless to say, that was her way of telling me that she approved of my new relationship with, Mateo.The only person who was still in
CLARA“Was that so hard for you to admit?” I asked.He looked at me like I had grown two heads and replied. “No, that was surprisingly easy.”“Good, because I didn’t have any plans to leave either,” I said. “I don’t know when or how it started but what I feel for you is nowhere near superficial and I’ve just been waiting for you to catch up.”He groaned like he was in physical pain before he said, “It’s taking everything in me not to kiss you right now.”“Then don’t fight it. Kiss me, Mateo,” I demanded.I had barely gotten the words out before his lips crashed onto mine. We both groaned heavily into each other and honestly, for the first few seconds, I didn’t move.I couldn’t move because I was too afraid that this was all a dream and any movement would kill the bubble we were in but Mateo sensed that and slowly eased me into the kiss, making me melt into him.I kissed him back like he was oxygen and I was air deprived. Like he was the air I didn’t even realize I needed in my life.
CLARATalking with Lucaa was exactly what I needed. As much as I hated to admit it, she was right, I couldn’t keep living on ifs and maybes. I needed certainty in my life. So I had to have that conversation with Mateo whenever I got the chance. It was late at night and Ale had been fed, burped and changed. When I finally put him to sleep in crib, I released a sigh of relief.Now that I had put him down, he should be knocked out for at least a couple of hours. Long enough for me to take a quick shower and get some sleep.I grabbed the baby monitor on my way to the bathroom. Although it was unlikely, I wanted to be able to hear my child in case he woke up.I stripped out of my clothes and stepped into the shower, the warm water cascaded through my body, soothing my skin.I debated it for a while before I decided to wash my hair. I haven’t gotten around to doing it for days and I figured now was just as good a time as any. So I grabbed my shampoo and conditioner and proceeded to wash
MATEOIt’s been about a week now and I still haven’t heard a word from, Bruno.I hated to admit it, but the truth was I was really getting worried. I didn’t know what business he had to get done in Puerto Rico and the last time I checked with him, he had moved on to Mexico.There were a number of possible reasons why he hadn’t been able to reach out and none of them were good.I even told Dominic about it and he was also getting worried, that was after he made fun of my ass for acting like a fucking mother hen.I concluded that if I didn’t hear from him by close of business today, I was going to hit up my contacts in Mexico, maybe one of them might know what’s going on.But as fate would have it, just when I had come to a conclusion, my phone rang and I saw Bruno’s name on display.Accepting the call, I put the phone to my ear. “Where the fuck have you been? I haven’t been able to reach you for days now,” I yelled into the phone but I was met with the sound of laughter.“Do I sound li
CLARAAt this point, I was so convinced that Mateo was avoiding me. Apart from the schedule we’ve silently created for Ale’s night feeds, moments when we were both tired and barely able to make conversation, I hardly saw him.He was the one who promised me we were going to have a conversation, but lately, he had been leaving for work earlier than usual and returning late.I couldn’t talk to his mother or Lily about it, they were his family and it was hard for them to be objective so I decided to unload the burdens to my best friend.We agreed to meet at our usual cafe and I was more than happy to leave, Ale in Mrs. Antonia’s care while I took a few hours for myself. I haven’t been out of that house since I got back from the hospital and I was beginning to feel a bit claustrophobic.I ordered a latte and muffin and it got served just as Lucaa came rushing in.“I’m so sorry for being late. I got held up at work and traffic was crazy,” she said sounding out of breath.“It’s okay. I have
MATEOThe house was quiet by the time I got back.I’m guessing that was because they decided to turn in early, especially since it was a given that the baby was going to be up crying in the middle of the night.I headed towards the master bedroom but decided at the last minute to take a detour towards the guest rooms.I knocked on the door, hoping that she was still awake and the door was opened a few moments later.“It’s late,” she said.“I know, Mom but I really want to talk to you and I figured now is as good a time as any,” I replied.Mom glared at me before moving sideways so I could come inside. She closed the door and moved to sit on the bed while I remained standing.“Now say what it is you want to say,” she said.“I know you’re mad at me and you have every right to be,” I started and she scoffed.“Mad? That doesn’t even begin to cover the range of emotions that I’m currently feeling,” she replied.I nodded in agreement. “I know and I also know that there’s nothing that I can
CLARAI stared at Lily, unsure of what to say, but I couldn’t keep quiet any longer, so I went with the first thing that popped into my head.“I don’t think you need to thank me. I haven’t done anything except take up space in here,” I said.Lily shook her head in disagreement. “That’s not true and you know it. Stop selling yourself short, Clara, and just take the credit you’re due,” she said.But that was the thing. I wasn’t due any credit. That will just make me more of a fraud.“Listen, Lily. I don’t know what makes you think I’ve done anything to make Mateo a different man since I moved in here but I can assure you that I haven’t done anything,” I told her.“The fact that you don’t see it speaks a lot about the magnitude of what you’ve done,” Lily said.“Hmmm… I really think you’re mistaken. If there’s anyone that has gained anything then it’s me. Although our situation isn’t quite conventional, Matoe gave me access to a community of people that have accepted me and my son as thei
CLARAAfter Alina left, one of the housekeepers came over to clean up the mess she had made, and Christopher was gracious enough to fix me another plate.I tried to apologize to him for Alina’s behavior towards him but he looked at me as if I was the most ridiculous being on the planet for even doing that and told me I had nothing to apologize for.The atmosphere in the house changed and became lighter. Everyone, especially the staff had been walking on eggshells since yesterday and trying their best to avoid it, Alina and I didn’t blame them one bit because I was kind of guilty of the same.However, I was grateful that I didn’t have to deal with her again. The last thing I wanted was fight a woman over a man. A man whom I wasn’t sure how he really felt about me. It would be like pouring water in a basket and expecting it to get full, a wasted effort.Now that I had my son, the last thing I wanted to do was waste my time on things that aren’t worth it. Did I have feelings for, Mateo?