in my thoughts(Nicholas)

Spending weeks resting in a bed soon getting used to a heavy routine full of adrenaline and danger had been a nightmare, finally recovered I went back to my old life having to fulfill the commitments that had been postponed and this took up a lot of my precious time which meant a lot to me. prevented me from fulfilling my promise to return and reward the simple young women to whom I owed life without them maybe I wasn't here right now, I sigh deeply when the image of one of the young women appears in my mind, the golden hair, those blue eyes that denoted innocence and sweetness, these days when I was under a bed, his image was a constant presence.

__ Your head is where Nicolas has been calling you for hours.

My girlfriend's sickening voice brought me out of my thoughts, I had forgotten that she was lying beside me on the bed.

___ fucking trina, what happened now?

___ go to hell asshole

She got out of bed furious and I followed behind pushing her against the nearby wall, leaning my body against hers.

__ am I stupid then?

I bit her ear and she gasped slyly.

___ Sorry…..

I arched my eyebrows with an evil smile so I let go of her sitting on the edge of the bed she got the message, she lay on my lap face down I lifted her nightgown leaving her butt in sight and then I slapped her mercilessly it was my way of punishing her when she said something that I didn't like, and she liked that I was cruel and rough most of the time we made love after the punishments, I let her go, kissing her lips and making love as usual, but then I got up and got dressed.

___ Are you going Nicolas?

__ I have appointments trina I can't spend all the time in bed with you.

I left her house and minutes later while waiting for the light to change a thought came to my mind and so instead of going home I went to that nightclub and like those regular drunks I was drooling watching the beautiful pole dancer the same young woman who saved me life and that I still hadn't had the opportunity to save, as soon as the show ended I tried to go to the dressing room to talk to the dancer but they didn't allow me because of what they said it was her requirement not to talk to anyone, I got upset and left the club and I waited until she left but this time I was prepared against any dangerous on my waist on either side a glock.

It took an hour then I saw her coming out of a back door, in baggy jeans and a crop top with long sleeves without makeup she looked like a girl the sensual woman on stage was now a shadow, feeling my damn body react positively to that girl, she didn't see me there, leaning against the wall, then her sweet scent of vanilla passed by me, infiltrated my nostrils, she stopped right in front of me and looked directly at the ugly alley where she would have to go, I noticed that she was trembling, I felt like squeezing her in my arms so that she not afraid or cold.

____ It was you I wanted to find. I say.

She turns around at the same moment, surprise shining in my eyes, I noticed that up close she is more beautiful than I imagined she looked like an angel, I introduced myself saying that it was the man she had saved but she said nothing she kept looking at me looking distressed I wish I had the power to read minds to know what was afflicting her, so she did something unusual and ran away as if there were a thousand demons chasing her. In the middle of the street, watching the car disappear from view, I got back to my car and headed home. I was frustrated, I wanted to talk to that girl and do a thousand and one things, I laughed at the direction of my thoughts.

___ Nicolas freaked out?

I turned around to find my brother sitting in the dim living room drinking a whiskey.

___ were you waiting for me little brother?

___ your dream…

I walked over to where he was and took the glass of whiskey from his hand.

__ sure it's not poisonous? I inquire.

___ if I were going to kill you, little brother, I wouldn't be poisoned...

___ um, maybe you would hire a street bum to do it for you, wouldn't you agree?

He got up in exasperation and glared at me.

__ I already told you that I had nothing to do with your attack.

___ not so sure, pray I don't find any proof or you're lost

___ understand something nicolas if I wanted to kill you I wouldn't send anyone to do it I would do it myself with greater pleasure.

I turned the whiskey looking straight into his eyes and then I put my hand on my chest shaking.

__ I'm dying.....I'm dying...

A laugh escaped my chest, I loved to tease Vítor.

___ you really are an idiot..

He stomped off and I burst out laughing and I poured myself another shot of whiskey and then I went to my room throwing myself on the bed crossing my arms under my head and staring at the pale ceiling

" The door to my room was opened and the dancer from the nightclub entered through it, she was wearing a robe and was barefoot, I got up sitting on the bed and that woman stopped a short distance away from me and without a word she took off her robe, only wearing one beautiful red lingerie I tried to hug her but she dodged pushing me back on the bed and then she started dancing sensually her eyes fixed on mine and then crawling on the bed she came on top of me and as much as I wanted to kiss her, touch her I couldn't follow it, it slipped from my hand like water between fingers.

I was scared soaked in sweat and my heart was pounding inside my chest, I was scared, I had never thought so much about a woman before without even touching a strand of her hair.

The next day, I woke up early and escorted by my personal security, I visited a warehouse located outside the city where I had hidden tons of drugs that would be trafficked to Venezuela in three days, I talked to one of those responsible.

___ Is everything okay for transportation?

___It is yes diablo , in three days everything will be in containers going to venezuela.

Diablo was the name he was known by in the criminal underworld, and he was uttered with the fear I lived up to my name, he was ruthless and cruel.

__ let me know when you board..

__ can leave boss.

I still went to visit several other clandestine businesses it was already early evening when I got home my sister came running to hug me.

___ little brother where you been?

__ worked sister..

___I haven't seen you since yesterday

__who orders you to sleep too much yesterday when I arrived you were sleeping and today when you left you were still sleeping.

____miss you..

I messed up her hair, which I always did when I met her, Chloe was my dear little sister, the only person in the world who deserved all my affection.