Chapter 28: Where is she!Nikolai's POVI've reduced myself to be exactly what they said I would always be.Cold.Ruthless and untouchable. When I re-emerged from my bathroom to find her gone, I was relieved. I didn't want to look at her. I didn't want to have the guilt of what I said lingering in the air but as the minutes go by and I don't feel her in here, I begin to get anxious. Paranoid is what they call it nowadays right? I head out of my room, freshly showered and now ready to talk to Sierra when I bump straight into my sister."Hey..." she says but she won't look at me. Continues to look down at her feet."Mila..." I say as I side-step her. "Are you okay?" she asks and I wonder what Mom has said to her. I have never been one to tell them anything but the state I must have looked, walking in beside Sierra who refused to talk to anyone and headed straight toward my room - Our room - and away from everyone who was looking our way."Yeah, I'm good, thanks, sis," I say, trying
Chapter 27: I think you should leave.Sierra's POVI don't remember much about my mom anymore. As the years have passed, I have found that everything I remembered slowly vanishes. I remember her as a person. I see her every time I close my eyes. When I needed her the Most. I remember how she would read to me and sing me songs but I don't remember her voice anymore. I have no recordings of her voice from before she died and as the years went by and the abuse at my previous pack got worse, I slowly started to forget all the major details of my parents. Voices.Favourite things.Colours.Touches.I miss waking up and feeling her hand rest against my hair when I refused to get up. When I was young enough not to understand the importance of school. I don't remember how I went from being such a happy child with the best friend I ever had, a loving family and a life I took for granted, to being useless and royally screwed over by her pack. Abused and cheated on in life. I'm in Nikolai's ro
Chapter 26: This is my faultSierra's POV"I don't think- I mean- that's never-" I can't even finish my sentence that's how powerful he made me finish. I've never had the sex talk. Christ no one's ever given me anything remotely sexual as that.I've been a prude and closed off from ever feeling anything that could bring me joy, but here, right here and right now, Nikolai has made me feel so good while also being respectful and calm.His chuckle brings me back to the present and it's only then that I feel his hand move from inside my leggings and the aftershocks do something to my insides."Easy there" he whispers into my hair. "It's so sensitive but it feels so good!" I whisper into his hair. "Yeah?""Too good!" I say on a moan. A noise I never thought I would do, a noise I never expected to come out of my mouth but with his playing me into another orgasm and his teeth nipping at my neck, I can't help my hand movements when I try to touch him. Give him something for showing me how g
Chapter 25: Keeping her close.Nikolais POV"Yeah?" She asks so softly. "I don't want to cross any lines here baby""You're not. I promise I'm ready. I need you! I want you!"Like my hand really doesn't give a shit, I find her already warm and wet. "Christ baby-girl"I'm rewarded with a soft little moan. Thankfully every room in the pack house is soundproof and I'm now very thankful for that purchase seems how I would hate to have to make someone go deaf just because they were able to listen to my girl down here.My fingers connect with her flesh and her back arches off the floor. Every instinct in my body is telling me this is a bad idea. The angel on my shoulder is telling me I need to be more careful. To give her time and to help her through this in a different way.But the little shit of a devil on my shoulder is urging me forward. Pushing the good out of me and making me feel feral. Making me believe that it's okay."Christ Sierra! You're tight baby" I say as I slowly push a si
Chapter 24: Helping herNikolai's POV"She walked into me and was talking to herself—the freak!" one of the younger males said. I usually keep myself to myself, and my mother is the same, so with her arguing with Lucas Gallard, there must have been some form of trouble."What's going on?" I ask as I approach. Sierra's phone is in my back pocket, ready to be set up for her, but this commotion between my mom and Lucas is something."Nothing" the kid says and I see the way he cowers back. He has never been rude but his parents are going through a nasty divorce and he's been dragged into it."Mom?" I ask as she moves toward me."Sierra. She's been in some form of daze all week, hasn't eaten a great deal and will only talk if she's spoken to. No one here respects her because nobody knows who she is and what she means to the pack but she bumped into Lucas and he started getting a little mean" she says but when I look at the 15-year-old next to her I try to feel some of the sympathy I usuall
Chapter 23: Will I ever be like her?Sierra's POVDear diary.I've been thinking a lot lately. Considering my past with people and how things usually don't go the way I need them to go, considering how unhappy I used to be in a world where all I knew was violence since my parents died, I can honestly say, I am feeling calmer.When I say calmer, I don't mean everything is perfect—it isn't, and I'm far from calm—but I mean the aura here is smooth. Everyone has their own things they do. Most of them work both outside and inside the pack.I enjoy watching the world go by but recently my mind has been preoccupied. I wanted to start working but my anxiety hit the roof every time I considered even looking at jobs. I had never had experience and the last thing I truly needed was for someone to ask me something and I freeze or I get touched and I lash out and maybe hit someone or bite them.According to Google, those are very frowned upon and would mean I would get fired straight away.But the