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Rowan
"Absolutely not," I said, typing it into the team group chat with my thumb so hard I almost cracked the screen. "Count me out. Not doing the Winter Charity Gala this year. Not happening."
I was sitting on the bench in the treatment room with my shoulder still throbbing from the exercises Maeve had put me through, and the sponsors had just announced the gala in the chat, and every guy on the team was sending crying emojis because attendance was mandatory. I'd skipped it last year and the year before that, and I was planning to skip it again, because standing around in a suit smiling for cameras with people who only cared about my stats was my idea of a nightmare.
Gordon Pike was in the doorway about four minutes later with his phone in his fist and his face already going red the way it always did when I made his life harder.
"You're going, Ashcroft," he said. "It's mandatory for the captain. The sponsors are paying serious money for the team to show up and look good, and you're the face they paid for."
"I'm not smiling for cameras with people who only care about my numbers."
"Then you'll pay the fines yourself, and they're big ones, thousands, and the team won't cover them this time." He jabbed his phone at me. "Don't make me bench you over a party, son. Make the right call."
We went back and forth like that in the treatment room until he got tired of yelling and stomped off down the hall, and I sat there rubbing my shoulder and thinking hard, and the whole time I was thinking, I was looking at Maeve. She was putting supplies away with her back to me, pretending she hadn't heard a word, and she looked tired and stubborn and strong all at once, the way she'd looked since the minute she walked into that lodge soaking wet. She'd been on my mind nonstop since then, and I wanted her at that gala with me so badly it was stupid. I also knew she'd say no before I finished the sentence, because after what Zayne did, why would she ever trust another Ashcroft, especially one who'd just embarrassed her in front of the whole team on her first day?
"Maeve," I said. "Come to the gala with me. Not as anything. As the team's medical representative. Professional. Please."
She turned around slowly and looked at me like I'd lost my mind. "Are you serious right now? You told thirty men I'm only yours yesterday. Half the staff thinks I'm sleeping with you. The other interns stopped talking to me this morning, Rowan. And now you want me to walk into a room full of cameras on your arm?"
"Not on my arm. Standing near me. Holding a first aid kit if it makes you feel better."
"No. Absolutely not. People will assume things, and I've had enough people assuming things about me this week to last my whole life."
I tried again at lunch, in the break room, while she ate a sandwich standing up by the window like she was ready to run. I told her it was one night, that it was medical rep only, that I trusted her more than anyone on the team because she was the only one who didn't treat me like I was made of glass. She told me I was pushing really hard for somebody who claimed this was professional. I tried again the next morning in the hallway before practice, and told her about Pike's fines, and told her I really didn't want to go alone, and she stared at me for a long time with her arms crossed before she finally sighed like I'd worn her down to nothing.
"Fine," she said. "I'll go. Reluctantly. As medical rep only, and if you do anything weird, I'm calling a cab and leaving."
The night of the gala, I picked her up in a black car, and my nerves were worse than they'd ever been before a playoff game. She came out of her building in a simple black dress that fit her curves in a way that made it very hard to remember the word professional, and I kept my hands on my knees the whole drive and tried to keep it light, asking if she was ready for the circus, and she said she was as ready as she'd ever be while she smoothed her dress down with both hands like she wanted to disappear into it.
The photographers swarmed us the second we stepped out of the car. Flashes went off from every direction until I couldn't see, and somebody from the press shouted over the noise, "Captain Rowan! Is this your girlfriend?"
Maeve answered fast and firm before I could even open my mouth. "No, I'm the team's medical representative. That's all. Nothing more than that."
And then I looked up at the entrance, and there was Zayne, standing at the top of the steps in a perfect black suit with Mia on his arm in silver, both of them smiling like they owned the whole night. Mia saw her sister and leaned in to say something in Zayne's ear, and he laughed, and they both looked down at Maeve standing there in her plain black dress next to me, and something inside me snapped clean in half.
I wrapped my arm around Maeve's waist and pulled her against my side. She was warm and stiff with surprise, and she fit there like she'd been made for it.
"Actually," I said to the cameras, calm and clear so every one of them could hear it, "she's being modest. She is my girlfriend."
The flashbulbs exploded around us so bright the whole night went white. Maeve turned her face up toward mine, and her eyes were huge, and she said my name under her breath in a voice that was half a warning and half a question. At the top of the steps, Zayne's smile was gone, and he was already coming down toward us with Mia stumbling to keep up behind him, his eyes locked on my hand on Maeve's waist like he wanted to tear it off.
Chapter 135Maeve"Arms out, dear," the woman in the gray uniform said kindly, holding the white robe open in front of me like a coat at a fancy restaurant. "That's it. Just slip right into it. You'll feel so much better out of those cold clothes."I didn't put my arms out. I stood in the middle of the little changing room with my hands at my sides and looked at her.She was young, maybe my age, with a soft round face and her hair pulled back in a neat bun. She was smiling at me the way the nurses on the long term ward smiled at patients who'd stopped being able to say no. I knew that smile. I'd worn that smile. I'd stood at a bedside at three in the morning and held out a paper cup of pills and smiled exactly like that, gentle and patient, because you can always wait them out."Where's my sister?" I said."She's in one of our guest suites with your friend. Having lunch. They're perfectly comfortable.""I want to see her.""Of course. After." She was still holding the robe open. "Mrs.
Chapter 134Rowan"Two hours," I said, staring through the binoculars at the iron gates for what had to be the hundredth time. "It's been two hours and eleven minutes, Teresa.""I know what time it is.""She said two hours. Two hours or the word fountain. We've had neither.""I can count, Rowan."We were crouched in the trees on a low ridge maybe two hundred yards above the Silverbrook gates, the four of us, Teresa and Petra and Cole and me. The ground was frozen hard under my knees. The cold had gotten through my jacket an hour ago, and I'd stopped feeling my fingers somewhere around the ninety minute mark. From up here we could see the whole long driveway lined with birch trees, the steam coming off the hot springs, the white main house with all its tall windows catching the low winter sun. Sloane's little blue car was still parked in the circle out front exactly where they'd left it.Nobody had come out. Nobody had gone in. The gates had stayed shut since the second they closed beh
Chapter 133MiaTwo men in gray uniforms had come out onto the porch behind her. They weren't carrying towels or trays like the others. They were just standing there with their hands folded in front of them, smiling.I thought about hitting send right then. Fountain. One tap. Rowan and Teresa and the two enforcers would come through those gates in thirty seconds.But then what? Celia had already shut the gates behind us. She already knew who Maeve was. If Rowan came crashing in now, the first thing those smiling men in gray would do was get between us and whatever was inside this house. And Sloane would never see her mother.I took my thumb off the screen. I pulled the phone out of my pocket and walked up the steps and set it in the basket on top of the others, and I smiled at Celia while I did it, the biggest, brightest, most grateful smile I owned."Honestly? Obsessed," I said. "I need a detox so bad."Maeve put hers in the basket next. Then Sloane, slowly, her eyes on Celia's face
Chapter 132 Maeve Sloane didn't say a single word for the first hour. Neither did Mia, who'd promised her she wouldn't. I'd never seen my sister keep a promise like that in her life. She just sat there with her hands in her lap, looking at the back of Sloane's head, and every few minutes Sloane would glance up into the rearview mirror at her, and something would pass between them that I didn't have a name for yet.Somewhere around the lakes, Mia finally turned to me."You have to teach me how to do makeup like a real crew person," she said quietly, so she wouldn't bother Sloane. "Or they'll know. Real crew people do it different. Faster. They don't care what it looks like at the end, they just want it done before the light changes."I stared at her. "Mia. You've been doing your own makeup for a hundred thousand people since you were fifteen.""Yeah, but I do it like me. I need to do it like you.""Like me? I put on mascara in the car on the way to work.""Exactly. That's the energy.
Chapter 131Maeve"I've been there," Mia said, climbing out of the passenger side of Sloane's car before it had even stopped rolling. "Silverbrook. I've been there. I've stood in that garden."It was barely light out. The pack hall parking lot was empty except for Teresa's black car and Rowan's truck and the two enforcers Teresa had brought, a big quiet man named Cole and a woman with a long braid named Petra, both standing by the truck with travel mugs of coffee steaming in the cold. Rowan had been leaning against the truck bed going over a printed map with Teresa when Sloane's car pulled in. Now everyone was looking at my sister."What do you mean, you've been there?" Teresa said."Last spring. A sponsored post." Mia was already pulling her phone out of her coat pocket, her hands shaking a little. "They paid me to film a video. Two minutes. Wellness, self care, all that stuff. I forgot all about it until last night, until Sloane showed me..." She stopped and glanced back at the car.
Chapter 130 Mia I didn't tell her it was going to be okay. I didn't know that it was. I didn't tell her we'd find her mother tomorrow or that everything would work out. I'd learned that from her, the afternoon I put my head in her lap and told her the worst thing I'd ever said and she just said, yeah, that was bad.I put my arms around her. That was all. I pulled her against me and held on, and she turned and pressed her face into my shoulder and cried into my shirt until it was soaked through, and I held the back of her head with one hand the way she'd held mine, my fingers moving through her short hair, slowly, over and over.I don't know how long we sat there. Long enough that my legs went numb on the hard floor. Long enough that the crying slowed down to hiccups and then to shaky breathing and then to nothing, just her face in my neck and her hands holding fistfuls of the back of my shirt."I'm sorry," she said into my shoulder."Don't you dare.""I got snot on your shirt.""It'







