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Author: Realistic
last update publish date: 2026-03-28 14:59:56

Rita

The room felt too calm, too soothing, too safe that I didn’t even allow myself to dwell on the uneasy feelings and creeping doubts trying to slip in after Beta Renz had left.

I found my arms curled deeper into the duvet, the fabric soft and almost unreal beneath my palms. I glanced back at the window, then slowly toward the bookshelves arranged neatly in the room. A quiet chuckle escaped me before I could stop it, my gaze lingering there longer than necessary.

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    MarvinI had wanted to punish her in the best possible way. In a way that she wouldn't even have the guts to speak back to me, a way she would regret ever speaking to me or laying abuses on her Alpha in the manner she had done.But then, I found it even more difficult not to feel every bit of the pleasure fouling up in me just by the moment with her. Sex had always been one of the weapons I had thought would inflict pain on her, taking her furiously and beastly, but then again, everything had snapped to the extent that I'm even asking myself certain questions that had no answers.And Kendrick, that asshole of a wolf, is at it again, reproving me, warning me as always, threatening as always, but one thing was always the case: I shut him off as always, not willing him to take over.At the slightest slip, he pushed forward, but not completely. It turned into a brutal, internal battle, me against my wolf, with Rita still curled up in the middle of it all.I needed to think straight. I nee

  • The Scarred Mate He Never Loved   76: Raw collusion

    Rita He was a beast, a monster, a dangerous being, harsh, ruthless, and the worst kind of creature to exist, not to mention being an Alpha… or even my mate. I hated how the truth sat bitterly in my chest, but a man stained with the blood of my innocent friend could never be my mate. And I cursed the day I ever laid eyes on him. I cursed the very moment I was forced to mark him. He’s a beast, a heartless one at that, and I don’t care whatever he chooses to do to me. I would embrace it and return every ounce of it to the Moon Goddess. She should be pleased, shouldn’t she? At how far my life has spiraled from the very first time I met him… up until now, where everything is nothing but a storm of uncertainties, cruelties, and endless suffering. How do I even live now knowing that Kate was gone? How do I survive with the knowledge that this, everything, happened because she tried to help me? Because if she hadn’t stepped in, Marvin wouldn't have punished her. Did she see it coming whe

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