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Chapter 2: The Man Behind the Walls

Author: Ivy White
last update publish date: 2026-07-28 00:43:03

Miles's POV

Nobody would say his name twice.

I tried it on three different people that morning. The first one just walked away. The second one laughed like I'd told a joke he didn't find funny, then walked away too. The third one, a wiry guy stacking trays in the mess hall, actually stopped moving for a second.

"You asking about Hayes?" he said, keeping his voice low even though nobody else was close enough to hear.

"Trying to."

"Don't."

"Why not?"

He set the tray down carefully, like the sound of it clattering might draw attention he didn't want. "Because asking is how people end up on his radar before they're ready for it. And you don't want to be on it before you're ready."

I wanted to ask what "ready" meant. He was already gone before I got the chance.

By midday I'd pieced together enough to know the shape of it, even if the details stayed blurry. Julian Hayes ran this place. Not officially. Officially there were wardens and guards and a chain of command that looked exactly like every other prison in the state. Unofficially, none of that meant anything if Hayes decided it shouldn't.

I watched it happen twice before lunch.

A guard walked past a cell where two men were clearly running some kind of operation, cash and small plastic bags changing hands in plain sight, and didn't even slow down. Just kept walking like his eyes had passed over an empty room.

Later, in the yard, a fight broke out near the fence, ugly and fast, blood on the gravel within seconds. A guard tower radio crackled. Someone said something I couldn't hear. The fight kept going another full minute before anyone bothered to intervene, and even then it was halfhearted, like breaking it up was an inconvenience rather than a job.

I asked the guy next to me what that was about.

"Wasn't on anybody's list," he said, like that explained everything.

"Whose list?"

He gave me a look like I'd asked something a five-year-old should already know. "You really are new."

"That obvious?"

"You're still asking questions instead of watching." He nodded toward the guard tower, where the radio had gone quiet again, the fight already forgotten by everyone except the two men still nursing split lips near the fence. "Watch long enough and you stop needing to ask."

I watched. For the rest of the yard hour I didn't say another word to anyone, just paid attention to who moved where, who nodded at who, which conversations stopped the second certain men walked past. There was a pattern to it, invisible unless you were looking, and once I started looking I couldn't stop seeing it everywhere.

---

I found the older inmate near the library that afternoon. Gray hair, reading glasses pushed low on his nose, a stack of law books beside him that looked older than the building itself. He'd been the one who told me, the day before, that fighting well didn't buy protection. I figured if anyone was going to give me a straight answer, it'd be him.

"You again," he said, not looking up.

"You said I need his approval. To leave alive."

"I did say that."

"How do I get it?"

He finally looked up, and there was something almost like pity in his face. Not unkind. Just tired, the way people get tired of watching the same mistake happen over and over.

"You don't get it," he said. "He decides whether to give it. There's a difference."

"Then how does anyone ever get it?"

"Depends what he wants from them." He closed the book in his lap, slow and deliberate. "Some men in here, he doesn't care about at all. They live, they die, doesn't touch him either way. Other men, he finds a use for. Those are the ones who make it out with all their teeth."

"And if he doesn't find a use for you?"

"Then you'd better hope you're not interesting enough for him to bother with you either way." He said it flatly, like it was the kindest thing he could offer. "Boring is safer than you'd think, in here."

I sat with that for a second. It didn't sit well.

"How do I even talk to him?"

The old man actually laughed at that, short and humorless. "You don't talk to Julian Hayes. Julian Hayes decides if he wants to talk to you." He tapped the closed book with two fingers, thinking something over. "But there are ways to get noticed by the right people. If you're smart about it."

"What people?"

He studied me for a long moment, like he was weighing something, deciding how much rope to hand a man he barely knew.

"There's someone who could arrange a meeting," he said finally. "With one of Hayes's men. Not him. His men. That's as close as someone like you gets, at first."

My pulse picked up, though I kept my face still. "Who?"

"Someone who'll find you, if you're serious about this." He went back to his book like the conversation was already finished, like he'd said more than he intended and was now trying to walk it back through sheer disinterest. "Don't go looking. That's the wrong way to do it. Looking makes you look desperate, and desperate men don't get taken seriously in here."

"Then what do I do?"

"Wait," he said. "And be the kind of man worth arranging a meeting for."

I opened my mouth to ask what that even meant, but he'd already gone back to his reading, done with me as completely as if I'd never sat down.

I walked back to my cell that evening with my head full of half answers and no real ones, turning the old man's words over and over. Somebody who could arrange a meeting. Somebody who'd find me.

I didn't have to wait long.

That night, as the lights dimmed for count, a shadow stopped just outside my cell door and stayed there.

"Smith," the voice said. Flat. Certain. "Someone wants a word."

I sat up slowly, heart going faster than I wanted it to. Through the bars I could make out a shape, broad shoulders, arms crossed, patient in a way that felt deliberate.

"Who wants a word?" I asked.

He didn't answer that. He just waited, like the question wasn't worth wasting breath on, like I'd find out soon enough whether I liked it or not.

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