When my eyes opened, I became instantly aware that I lost my child. Meeghan is beside me and when she sees that I am awake, she runs towards the door and tells the guard. She is still telling them when I shift my attention to the window. The sun is high up. Maybe, it’s mid-afternoon or lunch? I wonder how long I slept? And this room, I am still in Theo’s room. I sit up from the bed, expecting pain, but there is only the discomfort due to lying a long time in bed. I smirk as I lean on the headboard. It’s my werewolf genes again. I just hope that I feel the pain of losing my child longer. Even when I lost my child, the pain is negligible that I didn’t even detect it, until I notice Meeghan’s look of terror as she stares at my skirt with the splotches of blood. I hear the rush of feet by the door and towards my bed. And I smell lavender even before Theo gathers me up into an embrace. I didn’t respond. I am not angry. Rather, I feel numb more than ever. Maybe, my heart has become too e
I feel the cold wind blow on my cheeks. I shift on the bed and cover myself to alleviate the cold. I open my eyes and see a man peering down at me. A huge man. I close my eyes and open them again. I sit up and am about to think about how to fight when huge hands cover my mouth. “Shhh, my dear werewolf,” his knees are already on my bed! “It’s only been a few months and you already forgot me?” He removes his hand from me. I blink and realize it is Klevon. It’s obvious he just shaved and cleaned himself. But other than that, he still looks the same hulking giant of pure muscle. He grins at me. “You miss me? The last mission I’ve been on took longer time than I thought,” he says. Rather than his mission, what the hell is he doing in my room?! Knowing him, I look at my clothes. The fabric is thin, but at least, it’s not see-through. “Hmmm, you are right,” he says. His eyes travel from my head to my stomach, which is thankfully covered by the blanket. “You need to change your clothes.
Like how we left our room, Klevon swoops into it through the window. He deposits me on the floor and I beam at him. I feel like it’s the first time I smiled since I lost my baby. “Thank you,” I say. Crouching on my windowsill, he says, “Turn around.” I did and I find Theo sitting on the chair of my study table. His eyes transfer from me to Klevon and back again. “What is this? Where you’ve been?!” he asks, suspicious. An introduction to his pain and anger. I shift my attention to Klevon and say, “You should leave.” “He is angry. I think I should stay.” “Leave!” I order. Besides, I don’t want him to see this. I doubt Theo’s love for me is real, but I never doubt the depth of his possessiveness over his whore—me. I braced myself for his jealousy. Yet, I am more afraid of myself. If he pushes me, if he forces me into the bed, I doubt that I can fight the mate bond. I will cry and struggle, but nevertheless, my body will enjoy it. And that debasement is something that I don’t wa
Hearing what I requested, Theo looks scalded. He stands up and retreats from me, almost stumbling at the thick carpet. “You don’t mean that,” he says as if he is seeing me for the first time. “Do you think I will joke about this?” “You marked me… You said you love me…” he says. His voice is barely a whisper. “My baby died, Theo. This mate bond with you is painful. I can’t undergo that same experience again.” “Then how about love?!” I look away. Right now, I just want to let go of this fake connection with him. “From now on…” he starts. He moves towards me again and lifts my chin. “My attention will be all yours. I will cherish you, like what I have always promised.” He leans down and I evade his attempt to kiss me. Forcibly, he makes me look into his eyes. I stare, or rather, I glare at him. “Sleep with me, Kaiya. I will focus on your pleasure. I will give everything to you.” “You want love, and yet, you offer the desire of flesh instead. Do you know how hypocritical you sou
I try to stay awake as long as possible. Klevon and I decided to leave two hours before midnight. So, two hours after dinner, I went to bed and try to stay awake as long as possible. I hear the commotion outside my room. I place my book on the bedside table and cover myself with the blankets. Lavender. Theo comes to check on me tonight. I lie on my side, with my back on the door, and fake that I am sleeping. I sense him sitting on my bed in front of me. I can clearly smell his heady scent, and instead of being drowsy, the alluring smell is just waking me up. The tip of his fingers lightly brush against my left cheeks and temple. I can sense the warmth from it. He gently plays with my hair. And then, I feel engulfed by his frame. The lavender smell becomes stronger and I realize that he is leaning over me with both his arms on either side of my body. He places a light kiss on my jaw and whispers, “I love you, Kaiya. Good night.” After a long time, he gets up from the bed, and when
The night goes as Klevon planned. I had no choice but to stay at his side. We sample food that I never knew existed. There are also a lot more weird-looking fruits. In the hunting park, we are given raw meat from time to time. But our diet is mostly composed of fish, vegetables, and fruits—different from the ones that they sell here. Every time I see something weird, I run towards it while pulling Klevon with me. He’s become pleasant the whole time. And I am seriously enjoying myself, even if there is guilt in the back recesses of my mind. I push it down in the meantime though. Suddenly, there is a booming sound. I freeze with the kikiam still in my mouth. “What’s wrong?” Klevon asks. He reaches for my chin and wipes the sauce that’s fallen over my mouth. Another sound. I blink and look at Klevon. “Can’t you hear it?” I ask. He looks down at me while licking the same fingers he wipes my chin with. “Hear what?” “Firearms. Gun. There—” Another explosion. I jump in fright and drop
Looking at what I have done, especially at the way I killed the three monsters, I take a deep breath and saunter back to where Klevon is sprawled on the ground. “You’re weaker than before. But your shift is pretty fast. I think you are the fastest shifter that I know,” Klevon comments. Then I see the way his eyes scour my body. I groan. Right, I am completely naked because of my shift, and I parade myself as if I am wearing some thick clothing. I am about to get my clothes when I notice his erection. I glare at him. “You are such a fuck-up! Why are you getting an erection when you are dying?! Besides, my life is also at risk while fighting it!” “I can’t help it. It’s physiological, you are strutting around in your birthday suit. You even spread your legs in front of me.” “That’s only because I will be killed if I don’t! How could your mind work like that when my life is at risk?!” “The point is, I’ve seen everything. So, how about we take care of this erection at a nearby inn?”
“Come inside, Kaiya,” Theo's voice comes. I glare at the door of his office where he is working. I am his only personal guard during the day. Warriors and generals always surround him that he really does not need me. Besides, I believe he is stronger than me. I think he does this just so he can frustrate me. “Kaiya!” he calls again. I groan. With no other choice, I open the door and enter his office. He welcomes me with a bright smile. He places his chin on his hand and gazes at me. “What is it, Your Majesty?” I ask. Calling him these respectful titles never ceases to annoy him so I make it a point to do it, especially when all I wanted to do, every time I lay my eyes on him, is to kiss him. “I am on my break.” “Is there anywhere you wanted to go?” “No. I just want to talk to you for a few minutes.” I purse my lips. It’s been three days since I killed the three snake monsters. The next day, my role as his lover ceases and I become one of the warriors. I also transferred room