33: Way back home

Back then, I didn't want Zach to visit there. But when I slowly learned to accept everything, little by little, I accepted Klyde was part of Zach's life. He is, after all, his father. Just like how my mom is still Mommy. I visit her at times, and even if I want to bring Zach, he doesn't want to.

Mommy still haven't accepted it all, despite what happened. Even then, not once, he could not visit Ate. I thought he would also accept eventually, the mistake of Ate and her grandson, but to this day I am still waiting for that day to come. I don't know if she regretted the things she had done in her most private moments. All I know is, whatever she did before, I genuinely forgave her.

But forgiveness doesn't mean I've forgotten everything he's done. It was still painful to look back until now. But I know holding grudges won't bring any good. You need to move on in order to see the brighter side of life, to taste the light in spite of how you got drowned in darkness in the past.

"Ma'am, I've