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*Prologue*
My life as I knew it ended the night Alexander walked into my office. Not because I didn’t recognize the type. I did. I’d known men like him before. Fighters. Enforcers. Men who carried violence in their posture and discipline in their silence. Men who learned control not because they were gentle. But because they were dangerous without it. I wasn’t inexperienced. I wasn’t naïve. I wasn’t curious. And I certainly wasn’t looking for trouble. That’s what made this worse…or so I thought, because nothing could’ve prepared me for how he’d turn my world upside down. I knew the moment I agreed to treat him that it would end badly. Because men like Alexander didn’t come to therapy to heal. They came because something was already breaking, and they needed someone to witness it. I should’ve said no. Instead, I stayed. I listened. I told myself I was just doing my job. Now there’s blood on the floor of my office. My blood. Bright against the pale wooden floor. Too much of it. Enough to make the room tilt, to make my breath come shallow as my brain scrambles for logic where instinct has already taken over. Not because he hurt me. He didn’t. That’s the part no one believes. But being near him means inheriting everything that follows. My name is on a watch list now, though I don’t know when it happened. Only that it did. The signs came quietly. Appointments canceled without explanation, unfamiliar numbers that stop ringing the moment I answer, the sense that my routines no longer belong solely to me. My brother won’t meet my eyes. And my family, my blood, has started to remember what it costs to stand too close to men like him. The blood spilled fast. He was already on his feet when it happened. Too fast, too alert. He stood before me, fists clenched as if he feared what they’d do if he relaxed. His eyes are dark, fractured by a truth I was never meant to learn. He didn’t touch me. Not until I nodded. Not until I said it was okay. His hands shook when he finally did, hovering like restraint was something he practiced even in emergencies. “Tell me what you’re feeling,” I whisper. Because old habits die hard. He laughs. Low. Broken. Terrified. “You,” he said. “I’m feeling you.” In that moment, I understood. This was never a love story. It was a warning.***
Milena Dragovic I stepped into the gym for the first time in a while. The smell of sweat, steel, leather, and a hint of blood hit me like an old memory I wasn’t sure I wanted. I’ve been treating professional athletes since I graduated from university. My brother used to be a fighter, and I’ve seen firsthand what this life can do to someone mentally. I knew back then that I wanted to work closely with athletes to help them stay grounded, maintain a healthy mindset, and prevent them from spiraling. However, after my brother had an accident, I swore to myself I would not get involved with any professional fighters again…that is, until Coach Jansen called me in for a favor. The gym was still quiet and empty. Most of the fighters weren’t in yet. I heard the light thuds of punching bags and the snapping of jump ropes somewhere in the back, but I paid them no attention. Then the office door flew open. A young man stormed out. Black hoodie. Dark jeans. Calm, steady eyes. Asian. Tall. Built like someone trained to break bones, yet still elegant… and too composed to show off. His eyes flicked toward me in passing, calm and unreadable. For half a second, he gave me a glance of recognition, like we’d met before. Then he rolled his eyes. Seriously? He looked at me like I was a unicorn stranded in the middle of the ocean. Out of place, irrelevant. How rude. Behind him, Coach Jansen stepped out, frustration heavy in his voice. "Alexander, come back here! We are not done talking yet!” But the man, whom I now know as Alexander, paid him no attention. He swiftly walked into the room at the end of the hallway and slammed the door behind him, as if his goal was to break it.What’s his problem? Without a second glance, I headed straight towards the coach's office at the end of the hallway. “You’re early,” the coach said as he grabbed his coffee mug and took a sip. I haven’t seen him in a long time. He hasn’t changed much in the past 2 years… well, apart from gaining a few extra white hairs on his head. Who can blame him? Dealing with overconfident, testosterone-fueled fighters all day would do this to a person. “What can I say? Busy schedule… I like being early! It gives me time to mentally prepare for whatever mess you’ve invited me into.” I gave him a side eye, and then I paused as Coach Jansen pulled on a big grin of recognition. “I’ve missed you, kid!” He said as he pulled me in for a big bear hug. Coach Jansen used to be one of my dad's closest friends. He was also working together with my brother back when he still had a professional fighting career. I used to hang out at the gym a lot, and Coach Jansen would secretly bring me ice cream from his freezer when my brother was doing drills. In a way, he became like an uncle to me. Like the kind who always knows how to pick you up when you’re down and lets you do the things your parents normally wouldn’t. Like eating candy before dinner. “I’ve missed you, too, Coach,” I replied with a groan as he hugged me tighter and lifted me into the air, as if I were five again. I giggled as he put me down, and he gave me a look of pride. “You know you can call me John.” “So…John… what is it you so desperately needed me here for?” He sighed and walked behind his desk to grab a folder that was lying on top of a pile of folders. He motioned towards the chair with his hand, asking me to sit down. “Take a seat.” I knew this wouldn’t be a quick in-and-out meeting… John sat down and opened the folder: “Take a look at this.” I grabbed the folder out of his hands and read: Fighter: Alexander Li Age: 28 Weight Class: Light Heavyweight Record: 17–3 (pro) The folder contained general notes written by John: Alexander's training camp behavior, law enforcement and discipline, temperament and authority issues, warnings, and some personality observations. I quickly glanced at the notations and knew why he called me in today. - Storms out of training when being pushed. - Gets aggressive when sparring. - Rumors of underground fights. - One arrest. Charges dropped. - Moody. Reckless. Uncooperative. My stomach tightened. His history was suspiciously similar to my brother's, except for the suspicions of involvement in illegal underground fighting. “You know I vowed to myself to never treat fighters, right?” I tell John, and see him run a hand through his slightly graying hair in frustration as he sighs deeply. “I know, Mila, but you know I wouldn’t have asked you to help if I had another choice…” He paused for a quick moment, and I could see the wheels turning in his head, trying to think of what to say next. “Look… He’s the most gifted fighter I’ve ever coached,” he said. “But also the most volatile. I’ve seen guys like this burn out, disappear, or worse. And I can’t just stand by and watch him destroy his life and career. He’s a good kid. Just … lost… He just needs some extra guidance. If he can’t get his head right, we’re not going to the top with him.” I stared at the now closed folder in my lap. Coach really cares about this guy. Alexander Li Chen. The man with the stormy… and slightly judgmental eyes. This was a storm. And apparently I was supposed to walk straight into it.Milena Dragovic Alexander didn't argue. Not a word of protest. Not a flicker of resistance in those dark eyes.The silence between us felt heavier than the humid air pressing against my skin. He studied the alley, his head cocked slightly to one side like a predator calculating distance. The distant hum of traffic pulsed two streets over.When he finally nodded, the movement was precise."You're right."Those two words shocked me more than the spray of bullets had. Alexander Li admitting someone else might know something he didn't?He closed the gap between us, his cologne, sandalwood and something like amber filling my nostrils as he leaned in. His voice dropped to barely above a whisper."If someone truly wanted you in the ground, you'd be there already. They had their chance in the garage."I felt my forehead crease. "Three armed men with military-grade rifles seems like more than a warning shot.""Yes." His expression remained unnervingly placid. "But if they meant to finish the
Milena DragovicThe instant the first attacker’s shoulder appeared at the edge of the pillar, Alexander was already on his feet, arm extended, pistol leveled in a straight line from his heart to the threat.“Alexander!” I screamed. Two quick shots cracked from the pistol in his hand.Precise.Controlled.The first bullet took the man in the neck. The second finished him before he could finish falling.I just froze and watched, because that’s what I’d been trained to do. Watch, observe, remember. The other two men scattered between the rows of parked cars. Alexander moved with them, reading their strategy in real time, using each car’s mass and door as both cover and trap. The next exchange of gunfire was a blur of ricochets and shattered windows. He never wasted a shot. Each time he fired, it was to end a possibility, not simply to scare.He grabbed the door of the nearest SUV and slammed it shut, using the metal frame as cover while he advanced.The second man fired wildly.Alexand
Milena DragovicWe reached the car in silence. I slid into the passenger seat and drew the door shut. The day’s chaos coming down on me in waves. In the car, the air was still, as if we’d breached a vacuum.Alexander turned to face me, and for the first time since the night began, I watched surprise fracture his composure.Not because I had disagreed with him.Because I had understood the board.For a moment the tension between us shifted, something unspoken passing between us like static.Then Alexander’s attention snapped past me.Toward the shadowed garage entrance. Another vehicle’s headlamps had ignited, then cut off, vanishing.He went perfectly still, his whole expression flattening into an unreadable mask that suggested either total calm or complete disaster.“What?” I asked, voice too sharp, betraying that the stakes had shifted.He didn’t reply, not with words, not right away. Instead, he leaned forward, spine perfectly straight, and peered out through the windshield. For a
Milena DragovicMy father’s smile lingered for a moment after Alexander spoke, as if it were an afterimage of some private joke he’d already played on us. But it wasn’t approval, not even the satisfaction of a well-played hand; it was assessment, and it sharpened the air between us. He leaned back in his chair, not a casual gesture but a deliberate recalibration, the way a diver draws breath before plunging into unknown depths.“Prepared,” he repeated softly. The word hung in the air, as heavy and delicate as spun glass. I waited for him to shatter it.He looked from Alexander to me, his gaze flicking but not lingering, as if he was reading progress notes only he could see.Then he looked from Alexander to me, weighing something I couldn’t see.“Good,” he said at last, the word a placeholder that meant nothing and everything.Alexander didn’t react.He simply waited.My father turned his glass slightly on the table, watching the light refract through the water.“Gabriel,” he said afte
Milena DragovicThe silence that settled after my father’s last word.Not uncomfortable.Measured.My father had made his move. The board had spoken. Gabriel had offered his solution.And now the room waited to see how the pieces would respond.For a moment, no one spoke.That was when Alexander moved. Not much, just a gentle recline into the back of his chair, the motion so smooth it could have been read as indifference.He let one arm rest on the table, fingers splayed with the ease of a man who never needed to raise his voice or his hand to command attention.Calm.Composed.Deliberate.When he spoke, his voice was quiet enough that the room seemed to lean in.“With respect,” he said, the phrase so perfectly measured I could almost see the ruler in his mind, “I think Gabriel is misreading the situation.”My father’s gaze sharpened. Not a glare, but more like the focusing of a microscope. The old man enjoyed nothing so much as being surprised, especially by someone he didn’t entirel
Milena DragovicMy father had always known how to make silence feel like a weapon.The moment he finished speaking, the room went perfectly still.Not the polite quiet of an expensive restaurant. Not the muffled calm of a private dining room. This was something else entirely. A kind of vacuum that swallowed sound and forced every word to carry more weight than it should.He finally spoke, and though his voice was measured, every syllable seemed to echo. “I am told you have something they want.”I didn’t answer him.Not immediately.Across the table, my father watched with the patient curiosity of a man observing an experiment he had already predicted the outcome of. His expression didn’t change. His posture didn’t shift. If someone had photographed the moment, it would have looked like a perfectly normal family lunch.But I knew him.This was the part where he waited.Beside me, Alexander hadn’t moved. I could feel the quiet heat of his attention without looking at him, the way a stor
Milena DragovicBy the fourth week, the pattern had settled. We fell into a routine that felt stable on the surface and unstable underneath.I knew when he would arrive (always two minutes early, never late). He'd appear at my door with the same opening line: "You want honesty? Let's get it over wi
Alexander Li ChenThe name surfaced where it didn’t belong.Not in a club. Not in my office.Not in a whisper traded between men who knew how to keep secrets.It appeared in a report. Somewhere I knew it did not belong. And it certainly didn’t belong anywhere near my father’s office.That was the f
Milena Dragovic Hours went by in 60-minute back-to-back sessions, each client burning into the next while my mug of Earl Grey milk tea turned cold on the desk. My phone buzzed relentlessly. Aria checking in and then Stella’s questions I didn’t care answering. When Niko's name lit up my screen af
Milena Dragovic The message arrived at 08:14 in the morning. I was already awake, sitting at my kitchen counter with coffee gone cold between my hands, scrolling through my calendar like repetition might change what I already knew. Mondays had become predictable again, at least they seemed so. M







