Lana's P.O.V.
The dark mahogany wood of the large brown table was particularly interesting. The lines and swirls of the knots in the polished wood were a lot less intimidating than the wolves surrounding it. I had never seen so many large men and women in such a confining space.
Each body that was added to the room seemed to take away more oxygen from around us, sending me into an internal spiral. I knew everything was okay, and I didn't want to embarrass Oliver by falling victim to my demons and having an outburst or panic attack. Yet, the lack of freedom, and the fact that every single person in the room with me could easily overpower me, made the walls close in just a bit further.
My mind was in a spiral, but my body was frozen, my fingers gripping the arms of the chair in fists so tight I could no longer feel my hands.
The sound of the door slamming closed made me jump, and Oliver quickly grabbed the hand closest to him, prying my fin
Lana's P.O.V.The rest of the meeting had been a loud and argumentative discussion to determine which method of defense and attack would be best. I sat back quietly, taking in as much information as I could to educate myself, but I gave no input.My lack of knowledge when it came to battle, or even about the pack land in general, had me at a loss. But I knew it wasn't my place to participate in the conversation anyway. I was only here because Parker either wanted to piss off his father-in-law, or he just wanted us to know what was happening since our enemy had made it clear that they wanted Oliver's head when they sent those hunting parties after him.Kaylee was particularly vocal. She put forth several well-thought-out ideas, and Parker was doing an excellent job as the Alpha. He encouraged each person who spoke up but also questioned each tactic and strategy. Together they broke down all of the weak spots in every suggestion to see all possibl
Lana's P.O.V. The rest of the day was tense. When the kids were let out of the safe room, Maddie had a collection of new stories that she wanted to share with me. Meanwhile, Oliver didn't relax until his father had left the pack house and he had Maddie back, clinging to him like a koala bear. I tried to talk to him about what happened when we were finally in the privacy of our bedroom, but he resisted, and I didn't want to force him. He had dealt with a lot of stressful encounters since coming home, and I wanted him to know that he didn't need to worry about that with me. We were a team. Yet, as I lay in bed, staring at the slowly rotating ceiling fan that was gently circulating the air and listening to the hum of the heater, my fears got the best of me. It was only a week until the full moon. With the impending war and all of the drama with Mr. Blake, we never got the chance to finish our conversation about me shifting.
Oliver's P.O.V. I watched Lana carefully, seeing how she was moving differently than before. The closer we got to the full moon, the more her body would begin to hurt, but she was doing a great job trying to hide it. Her muscles were coiled tightly beneath her skin as if she had just done an intense workout, making her look more toned but still just as beautiful. Maddie laughed at the movie playing on the television that was mounted to the wall, while Lana lay in bed next to her. It had been a very tense and busy day, but coming back to our room together was like hiding away in our own oasis. Nothing could bother us here. Yet, the emotions coming from Lana were different than I had expected. I had anticipated for her to be nervous, maybe even scared as the full moon approached. Instead, she felt guilty and torn. I wanted to help, but I wasn't sure what she would be feeling guilty about. "Are you going to tell me what's on your mind?" I whispered into her ear as she lay against my
Oliver's P.O.V. The rogues had moved in further, inching forward each hour. I had been fine with my order to stay hidden, not wanting to risk any of my pack members by exposing myself and causing the rogues to attack. There was a chance that they were surrounding our neighboring packs because they weren't sure which one I was in. Why they wanted me so badly, I didn't know. Surely, the few dozen I had taken down compared to their current size wasn't that big a loss to them, yet they were waiting. Each day, they were just waiting, watching, and inching forward. They were taking the land that my family had fought for generations to protect. What was worse was their smell was slowly permeating our lands the longer they stayed at our border. The disgusting stench of their unbathed and dirty bodies only slightly covered the smell of their rotting skin and decaying muscles. A sure sign they had been rogues for a long time. A wolf could only go so long without a pack before the wolf and
Lana's P.O.V. Oliver was unusually quiet and the impending full moon tonight made my confidence falter. He seemed bothered. There was a mixture of excitement and tension that made me feel like he was hoping for the best but anticipating the worst. At first, I thought it was because I would be shifting for the first time. But then I realized Oliver's feelings would heighten anytime he went to Parker's office or discussed the rogues with anyone. He had never scared or worried me before, but I knew it was due to the upcoming battle. The excitement for the impending bloodshed had me feeling all the more nervous about joining this world. I didn't want to be a victim anymore, but I also didn't want to be fueled by bloodlust. There had to be a middle ground where I could be a part of Oliver's world, his family, without having to be surrounded by constant violence. When I tried to address my concern, he refused to talk to me about it. Any mention of the war or the rogues resulted in him s
Lana's P.O.V. My mind kept telling me to grab Maddie and run, to get as far away from the pack and the pain as possible. But my heart had me stumbling next to Oliver, gripping his hand tightly as he walked me to his land. The tall cover of trees let in streams of moonlight between the branches, and I took in a deep breath as we stopped under the largest section of moonlight. Oliver turned, moving to stand in front of me as he wrapped his arms around me and pressed a kiss to my forehead. "Are you ready, my mate?" It felt like a trick question. Was I ready to have all of my bones break and realign as I sprouted fur and transformed into a wolf? No. Absolutely not. Was I ready to be able to defend myself and my daughter against the upcoming threat? Fuck yes. The feigned confidence I had been holding onto faltered as I felt the muscles in my arm twitch, and I tensed as I waited for the bone to break. "Once it starts, it will be over very quickly. You just have to stay calm and focus on
Oliver's P.O.V. There was a celebration back at the pack house. Since we weren't allowed to go on our normal run with the rogues closing in on us, those who were able to participate joined us in front of the pack house in their furs. Lana stumbled at first, but she moved swiftly within a few minutes like she was a professional... like she had meant to be a wolf her whole life. But I had never seen a human transform and handle their new form so easily. It made me admire her all the more. The pack greeted her eagerly, rubbing against her side and letting out wolfish noises of welcome in her direction. I smiled at her, watching as she took everything in with her newly heightened senses. 'She did well,' Parker's voice came through my mind as he moved to stand next to me. His size was only slightly bigger than mine, something that was rarely seen in those who had not been born of an Alpha bloodline. 'She really did. She is strong.' I said softly, keeping my eyes on Lana as Kaylee appr
Lana's P.O.V. Everything about the world was completely different than what I knew and how I had previously experienced it. The Earth was softer, sinking beneath my paws with each step I took. The trees smelled stronger and sweeter, and the air was crisper. It was like I had entered a new universe. Nothing was the same as before, but it was even more beautiful. I could see why the wolves enjoyed the wilderness. The life surrounding them and the clean air felt invigorating. We had started out slow, jogging along the border of the houses, staying close to the center of the community. Several wolves had joined us at first But as we continued on, they dropped off one by one, giving us our privacy, and probably getting bored by our small and repetitive circle. But for me, it was more exciting each time. I would notice new things with each lap. New smells, sounds, colors. It was incredible. 'How are you feeling, my mate?' O