ROGER WILLIS “Idris—” My breathing began to go shallow as I called out for his name. The look painted on his face was both a mixture of anger and a smite of a melancholic hue. “I…I can’t.” I’m finally seeing emotion resonate from him and I’m certain that it should feel good to know that he’s just as human as I am. However, I’m getting this growing feeling that I shouldn’t have forced him into this conversation. Idris inched his way towards the nearest wall and just began punching it as if it’s a punching bag. I could see him trying to control the anger engulfing his senses yet the anger was overwhelming enough that even his toughness couldn’t contain it. “W-what are you doing, Idris?” I inquired as I’m absolutely baffled by this kind of behavior. While he always has this cold and stern disposition ever since I’ve met him, he’s not some sort of a short-fuse. Right now, he’s acting like a teenager with a built-up anger. “You don’t understand, Roger.” “What do I don’t understand?”
ROGER WILLIS Idris got on top of me and all I felt was the electricity that ran a course through my body the exact moment we had skin contact. The static energy was decently pleasurable that it felt so much like heaven and all I want to do is to be with Idris for the rest of the night. All I want to do is to kiss this herculean creature on top of me as there’s nothing waiting for us. I might be getting greedy and selfish for that but I’m exceedingly enthralled by the idea of what’s beyond just kissing. I want Idris to be mine even for this moment. I want him to do whatever he wants to me even if there’s something holding him back. That’s all that’s gotten inside my head. I pulled Idris closer and began fastening my lips to his. He accepted it with such eagerness. I could feel his regularly shaven stubble tickling me a bit but that’s just one of the perks of having him. Idris and I were kissing each other almost incessantly and only taking a pause to gather some air. My hands had it
ROGER WILLIS It has been over an hour since Idris and I came back with the ointments that we needed, however, things haven’t calmed down quite yet. It was definitely not that easy to chain Ysabella back. She was quite a feisty one that I had to endure a few scratches from her, though the wounds that I got were able to heal fast. Norman and Youseff were both amazed at the sight of my wounds healing right before their eyes. To be perfectly honest, watching Ysabella wolf out wasn’t bearably entertaining at all. In fact, it was insufferably ear-piercing and quite painful to watch her scream and howl and struggle to get herself free. I’m pretty much sure it’s because of the pain and it made me relive the moments when I first wolfed out. It was excruciatingly agonizing. I’m already getting used to not liking Ysabella ever since I learned that she’s a mean person and a true bully. I should be enjoying this moment right now but it doesn’t feel like gratifying at all. Watching her be chained
ROGER WILLIS I felt exceedingly terrible upon hearing Idris open up about his dark past. Yes, I did hope to see him in a vulnerable spot and I did want to learn more about why he’s cloaked with such a stoic disposition. But then, I never would’ve expected everything that came out of his mouth. I know every single human have to go through something horrible in their life, whatever it maybe. I had to deal with my parents’ drama and I had to be dragged with their mess even without them knowing about it. I’m pretty sure Norman had to go through every bully at school. However, based on what I’ve heard tonight, Idris has gone through a lot of things that went beyond his control. That’s basically the main reason why he’s cold and emotionless most of the time. I can’t imagine taking the life of the person that I love the most with my own hands. It’s absurd to think that the person who forced you to kill someone special to you was your own father. Whatever universe it may be; it just doesn’t
ROGER WILLIS It was extremely difficult to accept the fact that our dear friend, Wesley has succumbed and did not survive the incubation period. Idris warned me about this and it appeared that he was telling the truth. Only the strong ones survive a savage werewolf attack. Unfortunately, Wesley was fragile enough and did not manage to survive. There’s no denying the absolute fact that I’m going to miss all of Wesley and his wide arsenal of jokes. Some of them are just witty and although some of them might be the corniest joke that I’ve ever heard in my entire life, he was still making each of our day filled with laughter. Ever since I introduced him to my little circle, he’s been nothing but sunshine. I will never ever forget Wesley Rinbow just as much as I will never forgive Yannick for attacking him with all of his ill intentions. He cannot get away with this and I’m going to make sure I’m the one who’s going to deal the final blow of revenge. It was probably the longest night of
ROGER WILLIS “H-hi!” I blurted out utterly confused as to why there’s a beautiful woman standing right in front me. I thought Idris lived alone in this apartment unit. “Uhm, hellooo?1” The woman spat and she seemed just as confused as I was. She appeared like she’s on the same age as Idris and I’m just wondering who she was and what was she doing here. “I-I’m looking for Idri—I mean, Mr. Lykaios.” I breathed out. If she’s a family member, I shouldn’t probably be calling Idris by his name. I know Idris gave me the permission to address him by his first name but I thought I’d have to at least be careful about that. “And you are?” “My name’s Roger Willis.” I replied almost feeling my nerve creeping up my spine. “I’m one of his students and I just came here to ask him about something.” I don’t necessarily know where did that came from but I know I’d have to make up at lie spontaneously. “Ooh, a student of his. Come on in, dear.” The woman gave me a beautiful smile subtly fixing the h
ROGER WILLIS I don’t usually get hurt over some bad secret that I just discovered. At least that’s how I’m seeing the current run of things. Maybe I do get hurt but I just don’t act expressive about it. When I first found out that my dad was having an affair with his secretary, I did not go onto a wild rampage or even broke down into tears. I just took the information that I learned and kept the hurt and anger all to myself instead. I wouldn’t go far and say that I was good at hiding my pain in anger but I was definitely good at acting like I’m totally fine. I would’ve never thought the day that I’d explode would come. The fuse was finally lit. I’m feeling a slew of mixed emotions inside of me that I never noticed I was pedaling way too fast as if I was in a race gunning for a first place finish. I am very much confused with everything that’s happening. Idris just admitted that he’s having the same feeling as me and I know he just said we should keep our distance but I was just tryi
ROGER WILLIS The day rolled in with me pretty much riddled with such agony and anxiety. It savagely kept me up all night and now, it’s making things even more difficult for me to focus during class. I’d definitely say I don’t deal well with such heartbreak. Perhaps it’s because this one’s something that I never saw coming. It just hit me out of the blue and I did not have much time to brace myself for the incoming arrow that struck my heart. In my head, I was thinking the reason why Idris want us to keep our distance from each other was because he’s my teacher and I’m his student. I know it’s a typical taboo but he’s just a substitute teacher. Most probably, he’s going to be gone in the next few months. Now that I’ve learned he’s married, I just lost it. I’d say that’s the main reason why he’s forcing me to forget that we kissed intimately and almost fucked each other or that we both admitted that we liked each other. Forcing myself to close one door that hasn’t quite opened yet was