Mag-log inChapter 16: The TowerEwan led me back up the hill by a way I didn't know, along the bottom of the outer wall where the snow drifted deep and the guards on the walkway above couldn't see straight down. He moved like a man who had done it before. When we passed under a lit window, he put his hand out flat to stop me, and we waited until a shadow moved away from the glass."Why are you doing this?" I whispered."I told you.""You were at the ravine. With Garrick. You'd have let him kill me."He was quiet for a few steps. "I know," he said. "I've thought about that every night since. I had my teeth bared at a woman with a root knife, because my Beta told me to." He glanced at me. "Then I saw what came out of the trees. And then I saw you go over the edge. And I ran away. That's what I did." His voice was low and steady and bitter. "I don't want to be the man who ran away."When we got back to the smokehouse, Lucan was standing in the doorway, and his face when he saw Ewan behind me was t
Chapter 17: The Alpha's BargainEverything happened at once, and then nothing happened at all.Lucan came through the doorway behind me in a single stride, and Roderick moved faster than I would ever have believed an old man could move. He dropped the cup. Silver rang on stone, and blood spattered the straw, and in the same motion Roderick had a knife in his hand and my mother by the hair, and the blade was against her throat."Ah," he said softly. "No. I don't think so, Draven."Lucan stopped. Every muscle in him stopped. I could feel it through the bond, the terrible effort it took, like a dog hauled up short at the end of a chain."Let her go," Lucan said."I don't think I will." Roderick's eyes moved over him, slow and curious. "Look at you. You've grown. You were such a skinny little thing the last time I saw you. Hiding behind her skirts at the summer truce feast, the year before she came to us. She cut your meat for you." He tightened his fist in my mother's hair, and she made
Chapter 18: Cassian's ChoiceHis hand was warm. That was the first thing I noticed, absurdly, with a knife at my mother's throat and the Alpha of Ashborn breathing like a bellows at my back. Cassian's hand closed around my arm above the elbow, firm but not cruel, and the broken bond between us ground and sparked like flint on steel."Good," Roderick said softly. "Hold her. Don't let her shift."Behind me, I felt Lucan gather himself. It was like standing in front of a storm about to break.Don't, I thought at him through the bond, as hard as I could. Don't. Not yet. He'll kill her.I felt him hear me. I felt him hate it. He didn't move.Cassian didn't look at me. He kept his eyes on his father. When he spoke, his voice was quite calm, the voice of the heir on the speaking stone."You told me she was dead," he said.Roderick's smile flickered. "I told the pack she was dead.""You told me. You stood at the pyre with your hand on my shoulder and you told me the healer was gone and it was
Chapter 19: Selene's Blade"Up," Lucan said. "Now. Everybody up."He scooped my mother off the floor of the cell as though she weighed nothing, which she very nearly didn't, and she put her thin arms around his neck and pressed her face into his shoulder, and I heard her say his name. Just once. Lucan. The way you'd say it to a boy who couldn't sleep.His face, for one moment, was the face of a seven-year-old.Then it was the Alpha's face again. "Wren. Cassian. With me."Cassian was on his feet, his cut hand wrapped in a strip torn from his shirt and already soaked through. He looked down at his father. Roderick was still sitting in the straw against the wall, coughing, his chin wet with blood, staring at nothing."Leave him," Lucan said.Cassian didn't move."Cassian." I touched his arm. "Leave him. There's nothing anyone can do for him now. Not even me."He looked at me then. For the first time since the ridge, he really looked at me, and I saw everything in his green eyes, all of i
Chapter 21: The Morning AfterRoderick Thorne died a little before dawn, alone, in the tower room where he had kept my mother for two winters.Ewan found him. He'd gone up with two of the older warriors, the ones who had stood at the bottom of the stair and looked up at Cassian and decided not to follow Garrick. They found the Alpha of Silvercrest lying in the straw with his eyes open and the empty silver cup in his hand. His lips were blue. The black lung had come back all at once, Ewan said, all two years of it in a single night, and there was nobody left who would give him what he needed to hold it off.I didn't go up to see. I didn't want to. I sat in the herb room at the bottom of the hill, in my mother's chair, beside my mother's bed, and held my mother's hand while she slept, and when Ewan came to the door to tell me, I nodded and thanked him and went on holding her hand.I thought I would feel something. Triumph, maybe. Or relief. I didn't. I just felt very tired, and very old
Chapter 20: The Moon PoolI don't remember carrying her up the ridge.Cassian told me afterward that I wouldn't let anyone else touch her. That I lifted her out of the snow in the kitchen yard as if she were a child, and turned, and walked straight past the smokehouse and through the gap in the wall and up the long white slope toward the moon ridge, and that when he tried to take her from me, I looked at him, and he stepped back. He said he'd never seen anything like my face.I remember only pieces. The cold. The weight of her, light as she was, dragging at my arms. The blood soaking warm through my sleeve and then going cold. Her breath against my neck, catching, catching. The stars, huge and white and pitiless overhead. The sound of my own voice, saying something over and over, and realizing that it was the little bird song. That I was singing her the little bird song, the one about flying too far from home. I can't sing in tune either. I sang it anyway.And then the torches. Somebo







