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Yash was performing the last rituals of Shayra his daughter was in Sherlin’s hands; “make everyone touch the flowers and flow them in the river,” the priest said as Yash nodded everyone did but Ahana started crying as soon as it was her turn to touch the flowers.“Ahana, baby, touch them, say bye to mamma,” Yash said as little aahana looked at him, her eyes filled with tears.She angrily threw the flowers into the basket and turned her head to her other side; she was too little to understand what was happening.Yash closed his eyes as he threw her leftover bones and last flowers into the Ganga.They all took dips in the water as per the rituals and after finishing the last rituals they proceed to give food to beggars, Yash gave food plates to all those who came to him with a sad smile on his face.“May god bless you with long life, “One of the elders among the beggars blessed him. “Maaie, give her all the blessings of a long and happy life, all those you want to give me,” Yash said as he took Ahana in his arms.Every beggar blessed Aahana who kept giggling and laughing with them.“Suniye,” (hey) he said to the last beggar who was walking away without taking food. The beggar who had a petite body stopped; whoever it was, his or her face was covered with a blanket and so was the body.“Here please take the food,” He said as he picked up a packet of food and went towards the beggar with Aahana still in his arms.The closer he went; the more he felt a little awkward; his heart was beating fast; he realized he was standing close to the beggar who seemed like a woman. He could not see her face so he did not know how old she might be.The beggar kept her hand in front of him as he noticed the wrinkles on her skin, He kept the food in the beggar’s hands as Aahana started wiggling in his grip.“Aahana baby, what happened?” He asked cooing to her but she started crying even more.“Sherlin,” He called her as she walked to him.The beggar was about to place her hand on Aahana’s head and hesitated; Yash noticed this.“Please give her your blessings,” Yash said to remove the hesitation of the beggar, the beggar nodded and placed her hand on Aahana’s head.Surprisingly Aahana stopped wiggling and leaned onto the touch of the beggar; “Haa Yash?” Sherlin said as she came to see him but Yash’s eyes were fixed on the beggar who was walking away slowly, it seems like she had some problem with her legs.“Yash,” Sherlin kept her hand on his shoulder as he came out of his thoughts; he gave Aahana to her as she stood beside him giving food to some other beggars that come to get food.“We should leave,” Jai, Yash’s brother-in-law / best friend said to him as he nodded. Every last ritual was completed.…Yash was in his thoughts when he felt a weight on his shoulders; he turned his head to look at Sherlin napping on his shoulder as Aahana slept in her arms.They were on their way back to Kapoor's mansion. The shawl she was wearing was almost sliding down her shoulders causing her to shiver as she hugged Aahana close to her chest.Yash took a deep breath and started adjusting her shawl; he did that for Shayra a lot.He was about to place the shawl on her shoulders properly when the car jerked, Yash fell on Sherlin as she woke up with a jolt.“What happened?” She asked as she cooed aahana was waking up a little from her sleep.“Sorry, sir there was a dog in the middle of the road,” the driver said to Yash but when he noticed the position Yash and Sherlin were in, he was quick to say sorry and look ahead.“I was just fixing your shawl,” Yash said to Sherlin as she nodded and fixed the shawl for her; he sat back in his seat; the rest of the ride Yash avoided looking at Sherlin at all costs.When they reached the mansion; Yash ran to his room as others looked at him; he was miserable without Shayra, everyone knew that but they could not say a thing to him.Shayra’s death was not something he could ever get over; “I should talk to him,” Jai said but Yash’s mother held his hand.“He needs to let the realization sink in, he needs to cope with his anger and hurt, let him be alone for some time,” As much as Jai did not want to obey his mother-in-law, he knew she was right.“I should get going maa, your daughter must be tired of handling the kids alone,” Yash’s mother nodded at him as he walked to his room.Yash had wrapped another one of Shayra’s clothes around his shoulders; he was trying to have some of her scents but was becoming faint in their room.He closed his eyes as he found himself alone; he heard a knock on the door; “coming,” he said before he kept Shayra’s dress on his bed and walked towards the door.Yash pulled the door open as his eyes fell on Sherlin who was wearing a satin nightgown with a nice cover-up over it. She nodded at him as he looked at her; nope she was not there to seduce him or anything.“Maa is calling you to have dinner,” She said as she put a strand of her hair behind her ear.“I am not hungry,” Sherlin frowned as she looked at him. He was about to close the door when she pushed it and invited herself into the room.“Sherlin!” Yash’s voice was firm, he did not want to talk to her or anyone else.She closed the door and looked at him.“What do you think you are doing?” She asked him as he started to walk inside the bathroom; he did not want to have this talk with her.“Stop avoiding me Yash,” Sherlin said as she held his hand and closed the door of the bathroom.“I am not avoiding you, Sherlin,” He said to her as he started to look anywhere but at her.“Oh really? Then why are you not looking at me?” Sherlin folded her arms around her chest as she looked at him.“Sherlin I do not wish to have this talk with you right now,” Sherlin looked at him in irritation.“Then when will you have this talk with me? When you’ll be declared malnourished in front of the whole country? Billionaire Yash Kapoor found malnourished!” She made a dramatic expression as Yash took a deep breath.“Sherlin,” He said her name in order to shut her up but she just glared at him.“She would not want that, she would not want you to starve yourself to death as you gain some control after her death, She is not here but she would not want it,” Sherlin said in anger but Yash kept quiet.“Starving yourself is not going to solve your problems Yash,“ She said as he glared at her.“You do not know the depth of the pain I am in so stay the fuck away from me, you may have vermillion and nuptial chain of my name in your neck but you are not my wife Sherlin, do you get that? ““I—I do not the depth of your pain. I?” She said in disbelief.“Yes you don’t know a thing so stay the fuck away, Sherlin,” Yash said in his anger but only met with the dead eyes of Sherlin.“I-- the man I loved all my life came to kill me, I don’t know your pain? I lost my child right after he was born, I don’t know the depth of your pain. I did not get my parent’s love, my only family is dead and I don’t know the depth of your pain?” Sherlin’s voice reflected how dark her pain was.A wave of guilt immediately hit Yash; he knew what had happened in the past but he still said all that to her in anger, he just wanted her to go away and leave him alone, he did not want to hurt her, at least not intentionally but looks like he just did.“Sherlin I—““Don’t Yash Kapoor,” Sherlin said as she cut him off showing him her hand. Her eyes were turning red.“I am married to the man who will never be able to give me what a woman wants, I won't understand your pain?” a tear escaped her eyes as Yash looked away from her.The truth was, they both were hurting over the same person and the hurt was undeniably painful; so painful that they both were burning in it.“You fucking slept with me Yash, I won’t understand the pain?” a wall of guilt fell on Yash; he did not want to remember anything about that night.He was drunk and hurt; he has no justification for what he had done but just guilt for his action.“Sherlin--,”“If you want to stay alive—no breathing for your daughter then go eat because looks like your soul already died with Shayra,” After saying that She walked out of his room banging the door hard.Sherlin was hurt; she ran to her room as Jai and everyone looked at them, even though the room was soundproof the door was left ajar a little, and the family heard almost everything.“Will Bhai ever be able to be normal again maa?” Yash’s sister asked her mother as she wiped a tear off her cheek.“I do not know,” It was all that her mother could say.Tears after tears kept rolling down Sherlin’s cheeks as she sat on the couch, little Aahana was busy in the cartoons while Sherlin cried.She traced her hand at one of the photos she kept of Avinash in her room; Shayra had asked her to get rid of them, and she too had agreed to burn them all but somehow this one was left, or let's say Sherlin desperately hide this one from Shayra.She did not want to be hurt or upset, whatever happened and whatever she did was her past but the hurt was still present.She kept the photo back on the table before she wiped her eyes; she had Aahana, and she did not need anyone.Shayra left her responsibility and she was Aahana’s Massi and she will take care of her even more than her mother could.Yash, on the other hand, trashed his room; he threw the comforter, pillows, and everything on the ground as he cried; he kept screaming but there was no one to calm him down.“SHAYRA!” He sobbed like a little kid asking for his solace but there was no one he could have that anymore.“Aaaaaahhhhhhh” He screamed and sobbed all he could but none of this was ever going to get his Shayra back for him.Sherlin said it right; his soul did die with Shayra; he was just breathing, and he was not alive anymore. If it was not for their daughter, he would have killed himself.Like in old times, the wife used to leave her soul with the death of her husband, He too would have died with her but he could not because of the promise he made to shayra.He needs to breathe for his daughter.“Just 21 years Shayra, I will give my life the day I get Aahana married, I will be at peace with you and you have to come to get me when it’s my time,” He said to her picture as he sat on the floor, wrapping a few of her dresses around his body; he cried himself to sleep once again.Author’s P. O. V.“Yash, what are you doing?” Sherlin came out of her room with aahana in her arms only to see Yash taking some pictures of Shayra off the walls.“Fulfilling my wife’s last wish,” He murmured before taking another family photo of them off the wall and keeping it inside the box with great warmth.“What?” She asked as she put Aahana on the couch and placed a few pillows around her so she does not roll off and fall on the tiled floor. Adjusting her light blue saree with a silver border she walked towards Yash.“Yash you can’t be serious, aahana needs to know about her mother, you cannot hide these photos and everything,” Sherlin said as Yash handed her another photograph from the wall near the stairs.Sherlin caressed the photo with her fingers; it was from the day of Aahana’s naming ceremony; she was heavily pregnant but had held Aahana in her lap.“I always fulfilled her every wish; even when she asked me to marry you,” Sherlin could not look at him; that was the night
“I wish RIP meant‘Return if possible “Author’s P. O. V.Yash and Sherlin walked inside the mansion as everyone stood up; “Why are you half naked? And how did you drenched?” Yash’s mother asked as she walked towards them.“Sarika brings the towels,” She said to the house help as he walked towards them.Sarika came back with towels and his mother handed them to them; “Maa I actually—“ Yash did not know how to say to his mother that he went to attempt suicide“I slipped into the river,” Sherlin said even before Yash could explain anything to his mother.“What?” Her mother-in-law started to check her for any injuries but hers and Yash’s eyes were fixed on each other; he is not in the right mind to understand why she said that.He has a lot of questions which of course he will ask her once they are alone.“Yash helped me and gave me his shirt,” Sherlin said as Yash nodded along with her.“Are you okay?” Jai asked him as Yash nodded; he knows very well how broken he is right now.“Go and
Author’s P. O. V.Yash looked at the sack of clothing he needed to put in the boxes; he kept looking at Shayra’s picture once in a while and smiled at her.“You remember, you gifted me this shirt on our 9-month anniversary?” He looked at the peach-colored shirt and smiled.“You were heavily pregnant with Aahana and sometimes so grumpy because of the mood swings,” He said to her picture as he chuckled.He finished keeping all the clothes in transparent boxes and put them in the corner of his closet. “I am a widower and I shall live like one,” he said to himself before he put all the white clothes on hangers; everything now in his closet was white; not even a trace of color anywhere near his side of clothes.He did not separate Shayra’s clothes; he kept them the same, “It will feel like you are still here,” He said as he touched one of her dresses.Taking a quick shower, he wore his white clothes; even his belt was white.“Jaan, I need to have a word with Sherlin, I will be back,” He sa
“I can kill you in your own houseAnd make it seem like an accident”Author’s P. O. V.Yash walked downstairs as his mother stood up; “where are you going Yash?” she asked.“Office,” He said before he touched her feet to take her blessing. His mother kept her hand on his head as she looked at him with a worried look on his face.“maa…” He looked at her as she took a deep breath.“You should take a rest,” She said to him but he shook his head; work was the only thing that could keep his mind off things and save him from going into depression.If he was not already.“I have no more excuses to avoid work maa, I need to be there,” Yash said; he was skipping work for the last 3 months but now he does not have any other reason to avoid work.“How much will Jai handle alone? He needs my help,” Yash said as his mother nodded at him; he walked out of the mansion and sat in the car.There were a lot of media people were standing right outside of his mansion; he was not in the mood to bear with
Wo aksar puchti thi“Main mar gyi toh kya kroge?”Pata nhi tha kambhakt sach meiChor kr Chali jayegi(She used to ask,“What would you do?If I die,”Little did I knowShe would actually leave me)Author’s P. O. V.“I hope you know what you need to do,” Yash stopped as she heard Jai speaking to someone on the phone; he was confused so he opened the door as Jai turned around.“Hey…” He sound a little breathless but I let it go and nodded at him.“Whom were you talking to?” I asked as I took a seat.Jai felt his heart rate pick pace; he couldn’t let Yash know what has happened. He did not look to his left; he knows very well that Yash is the master of body language, and if anything, he will catch him within a second.“Nothing, just a man was found stealing from the factory, I was just talking to them,” he made it up quickly as Yash nodded.Jai was about to walk out of his office when Yash called his name from behind; “yeah?” He turned around still a little tense.“Cancel the usual acti
“Mere ishq ke maeine,Ishq se pucho,Ishq bhi sharma jayega,”Author’s P. O. V.“How did it happen?” The doctor looked at Kabir as he started bandaging Zoya’s hand.“I fell from the stairs, losing my balance,” She answered as Kabir nodded at her; she can’t let anyone know what happened in the house with her.The doctor finished putting a plaster on Zoya’s hand as she opened her eyes; her condition was still not stable and having a broken hand did not help either.“Don’t move your hand too much, it’s a minor fracture but it is on the wrist so I may say be careful, “The doctor instructed Kabir as he nodded; he was wearing a turtle neck; the marks on his neck were not visible, on the other hand.“I’ll take my leave,” Kabir nodded at the doctor before he walked him out, Zoya winched as she tried to move her hand, a bandage was wrapped around her head; Kabir did hit her head hard.She smirked as Kabir came back to the room with an injection in his hands. Zoya gulped, he knowingly gave her
Author’s P. O. V.Yash entered his room and was greeted by the site of his beautiful Jaan waiting for him as always; he smiled at her photos before taking the blazer off his body.He sat on the bed before he sighed; getting close to Sherlin was hard for him, especially when they hated each other’s guts.Getting into the shower he let the warm water run down his body as he closed his eyes remembering the day Shayra started to behave differently with him.“Yash get up!” Shayra screamed at him before she opened the curtains to let the bright light in. Yash frowned, she used to wake him up with so much care what happened to her today?“Jaan?” He sat up straight before he rubbed his eyes to get rid of the sleep in his eyes. “Yes?” he asked as he looked at her fixing her dress in front of the mirror. “Are you going somewhere?” now that was the biggest mistake he did. But she did not answer and ignored his existence. “Jaan?” he called her as she finally looked at him; if he was not upset
Author's P. O. V. Getting out of his thoughts, Yash walked to Sherlin's room to see Ahana. The little girl already lost her mother, she should not feel her father too does not care for her anymore.Shayra left him with a responsibility and he ought to fulfill it, he knows how hard life is without a father, Yash at least had his mother to support him and here Ahana was fighting with everything alone.Knock! Knock! Yash waited patiently for her to open the door but even after a few minutes she didn't, he knocked again Knock! Knock!Sherlin still did not open the door, and Yash grew worried for his daughter as well as Sherlin."Sherlin? Sherlin?" He banged his fist on the door as a weak voice came from the other side of the door."Yes, Yash?" Yash pressed his lips in a thin line, at least she could have opened the door."I need to see Ahana," Yash said."Umm... She is with maa... I put her to sleep before we went to KKN, " she said from the other side of the door as Yash nodded but wh