Mag-log inNathan barely slept.
Every time he closed his eyes, he saw two things. Mikhail announcing his mate... and Valentino's hand wrapped around his throat. The sheets rustled as he stirred, his eyes fluttering open slowly. Then, the memories flooded in. He sat upright suddenly, and looked towards his wrist. The string was still there. It was not a dream. Although now it was merely a bracelet, and Nathan knew what meant. Valentino was no longer in the house. He didn’t know how to feel about that. Anger? Sadness? Self-pity? He swung his legs off the bed and rose to his feet. His steps were slow, like a stagger, as he walked towards the bathroom. Once inside, he stood before the mirror, staring at his reflection. He took in his eye bags—the result of crying through the night—and... The mark Valentino had left from holding his neck. His fingers brushed against the bruised skin slowly, his eyes welling up. He sniffled, pulling his hand away. What was the use of crying? After all the tears, the truth remained: Valentino would never love him. And it wasn’t like Nathan liked the man, but the thought that his mate also rejected him, like Mikhail did, was too much to bear. The tears fell anyway, slipping down his cheeks. His sobs were quiet as he hunched over the sink and gasped. Nathan soon emerged from the bathroom, bathed, but he felt anything but fresh. He slid into his clothes and walked up to the bedroom door. Before he could turn the handle, his hand froze, and he stared down at his left wrist. It was still a bracelet. Then he turned it and the door swung open. As he stepped into the hallway, he couldn’t help but glance around. He knew Valentino was not in the house. The string was evidence, but after what the man did to him last night, he felt more on edge than he’d ever been around him. Once he was sure the hallway was empty, he walked through it and entered the grand living room. The party had ended long ago. His eyes landed on the few people sprawled out on the couch and the ground, asleep. The room was a mess of confetti, paper plates, bottles, and plastic cups. He felt a twinge in his heart. They celebrated his birthday without him. Just then, a voice called out to him. "Nathan." Mikhail's. Nathan’s heart pounded. He wasn’t ready to see him again after last night, but his body betrayed him, already turning towards his direction. "Where were you last night? We looked all over for you," Mikhail asked, his eyebrows furrowing as he folded his arms. "Just tired," he replied, his voice hoarse. Mikhail’s expression shifted to concern as he closed the distance between them by a metre. "Are you good?" Nathan nodded. Resentment crept into his chest as he stared at Mikhail. How dared he ask if he was okay? But in the end, Mikhail couldn’t be blamed. He was the one who fell for someone that could never be his. Nathan’s eyes traced Mikhail’s neck, landing on the marks hidden beneath the collar of his robe. Images of his friend and Elena being intimate flashed through his mind, hauntingly vivid. He bit his lower lip, fighting back tears. Pretending to be fine proved harder than he’d thought. "I have to go," he said, his tone sharp, and turned to leave. "W-wait, Nathan!" Mikhail shouted, but he was already walking out the front door. He smiled bitterly as a thought rose in his chest. If it had been before Mikhail introduced his mate, he’d have been all over him—cracking stupid jokes just to see him laugh, Helping him with his homework, and... Putting up with his childish whims. He’d given his teenage years to being more of a sidekick to Mikhail than being his best friend. Nathan had always known he was not exactly the brightest, nor was he impressive in any other way. He was introverted, awkward, and generic-looking. But Mikhail—the polar opposite—had taken him in and gave him more attention than anyone ever had. It didn’t take long before he found himself falling for him, and he came to know he was gay. He left the Ivanovs’ property and walked the long road out of the quiet, empty estate. Once outside, he flagged down a cab and occupied the backseat. He slumped against the seat, feeling tired despite sleeping for several hours. The ride was quiet, but Nathan’s head was filled with a low-pitched buzz. It was constant and uncomfortable. The cab soon pulled up in front of his apartment complex. He slammed the door as he got out and walked into the building. As he moved through the lobby, the ringing in his head grew louder and more obnoxious. He kept rubbing his temple throughout the elevator ride to his floor. Something was wrong. He staggered through the hallway until he got to his apartment and jammed the key into the keyhole. He twisted it, and the door immediately opened with a click. The ringing had grown increasingly loud, his left wrist starting to burn. He’d seen something about this before. He knew what it meant. Valentino was being intimate with someone else and through the red string... Nathan could feel it."What are you doing under there?" Nathan mumbled, blinking slowly as his eyes adjusted to the morning light spilling in from the windows. It was subtle at first. A small trail of wet heat across his chest, before the familiar feel of Valentino's lips engulfed his nipple, dragging him out of a confused dream. For some reason, he was racing a horse riding a unicycle.Valentino reached up, pulling the boy's shirt over his head, his lips curled into a dirty smile. His gaze was warm, filled with an emotion that made Nathan's heart flutter."Exploring."Nathan couldn't help the chuckle that slipped out of him. He threw his head back and shook gently against the cool mattress. "Normally, the groom-to-be shouldn't be in the bride-to-be's room," he murmured, his eyes finding Valik's eyes again.Rising to his knees, the man rolled his eyes. Then he plopped down the bed, snuggling up to him, pressing his nose into the crook of his neck. His arm found its place across Nathan's belly."What a us
The sun had long since dipped below the horizon, leaving behind a canvas of wine and orange that stretched endlessly over the water. The beach had grown quiet, the distant giggles and splashes replaced by the gentle rhythm of waves hitting the shore.Nathan hadn't spoken a word since they returned to the villa.He'd walked ahead of Valentino, his shoulders rigid, his strides quick. The moment they crossed the threshold, he'd disappeared into the bedroom and locked the door behind him. Valentino had stood in the hallway for a long moment, his hand raised, hovering inches from the wood. But no words came. Nothing he could say would undo what he'd just revealed.Nothing he could say would erase the cruelty he'd inflicted on a boy who was already drowning in his own sorrows.He'd ended up on the couch.The leather was cold against his back, the cushions too firm, the space too empty. He'd stared at the ceiling for hours, replaying every moment, every harsh word, every time he'd watched
The crystal clear water glinted as it caught the light, its waves rippling, curling at the edge in white foams.In it, some students from Nathan's department played, passing a beach ball, their distant giggles drifting in the air. Nathan watched from the bench, his lips curling into a small smile. He brought the drink in his hand to his lips and sipped the sweet, orange liquid slowly. A shadow suddenly fell over him and he looked up, barely able to make out Mikhail's features. "For someone who crashed my engagement ceremony, you sure are having the time of your life."A chuckle bubbled in his throat. He set the drink down and shook his head, using a hand to sit upright. "Take it up to Valik," he shot back, watching Mikhail lower himself on the bench beside his. The boy gagged. "Stop calling him that."Another chuckle slipped out of him, his eyes squinting. "Whatever. Where's he?"It had been well over two months since the crashed ceremony. Two months since Nikolai had been esco
The grand doors opened once more. This time, Valentino's grandparents walked in. The guests and Nikolai's wench had since long spilled out.Valentino stood beside Nathan, his grip tightening on his hand as the elderly couple walked towards them. "My son," Eleanor, his grandmother said, her smile laced with both pride and grief, her arms wide open. Holding Nathan, the man closed the distance, chuckling as he pulled his mate into the hug. Eleanor chuckled, patting their backs gently. "Sorry I took too long," he murmured against her, his voice soft. Then, he pulled away and smiled. "No, you did what we couldn't do, and for that, we're greatful," George, his grandfather chipped in, and Eleanor nodded, her eyes gleaming. "Thank you." She glanced towards Nathan and reached for his cheek, pinching the rosy skin lightly."You're such a cutie." The boy blushed and chuckled, muttering thank yous. His head then darted to the back and Valentino followed his gaze to...Mikhail and Elena.Mi
Tonight, everything would change. In the Ivanov's mansion. Like it did once before. Like it did on the night he got tied to Nathan. The car pulled to a stop on the property and Valentino glanced towards Nathan, reaching for his cheek. Had he really moved on from his brother?Even though he never really thought about it much, tonight, he just could not help but imagine how Nathan would feel seeing someone he once had a longtime crush on getting engaged. Though amidst the sympathy was a jealous feeling he was trying to suppress.The boy placed his hand over his and smiled, his eyes gleaming with warmth. Perhaps he could feel it, too. This strange familiarity. The house that changed their lives in one night. "You okay?" He asked and Valentino smiled, his heart throbbing. He scoffed and nodded, before he leaned in and kissed his forehead.The man pulled away and unfastened his seatbelt, then he slid out of the car and rounded it to the passenger's side. Tonight, he was formally int
"You're still upset?" Valentino asked, his voice low. He pulled to a stop in front of his house and turned towards Nathan.The boy didn't reply; he simply rested his chin on his hand and looked out the window. He had been ignoring him since they left his apartment. "Should I open the door myself or what?" He mumbled and the man shook his head. "No, I'll open it," he replied, staring at his pouted lips for a long moment before he slid out and rounded the car. Valentino's lips curled into a bright smile as he opened the door and leaned in until their faces were mere inches apart. Then, with deliberate slowness, he unfastened his seatbelt and sliced his gaze towards him."A-are you done?" Nathan croaked, his eyes darting to the side as he leaned away from the man. "I'm sorry," Valentino said, his voice smooth, though he was anything but remorseful. If he went back in time, he would do it again. He leaned in towards the boy and held his chin, then he turned the his face towards his s
"Did you enjoy the view?"Valentino's voice cut through the air—thick and rich, followed by slow, heavy footsteps. It was calm. Too calm. He claimed the living room, dark-brown eyes landing on Nathan—tinged with something unreadable. The boy had taken refuge in the farthest corner of room, behi
Click!The door to Nathan's apartment swung inward and he filled the modest space, switching on the lights. It had barely been two days, yet, it felt like he hadn't been there in weeks. His light steps filled the air as he crossed the small living room. Once he was in his bedroom, he crashed onto
Why?Why Valentino?The man loomed before him, his jaw clenched. His eyes traced Nathan, tinged with intense rage and disgust. Before Nathan could muster a word, Valentino pulled him up and dragged him into the room, then shut the door.Nathan's eyes widened, panicked and confused. The latter thr
The birthday party was in full swing that evening. The Ivanovs had thrown it to celebrate their son, Mikhail's birthday which he shared with Nathan, his best friend. A pop music blasted through the speakers as people danced, laughed and drank in the grand living room of their mansion."Happy birt







