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Chapter 14: L A D O U L E U R E X Q U I S E
L A D O U L E U R E X Q U I S E
(French) (n.) the exquisite pain of wanting the affection of someone you know you can never have
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Walking to the place she called home for the last two years, Eunae tried to memorize very detail it held. She was not expecting that having a good long look could give a myriad of flashbacks that stirred her from within. It was a combination of the good ones and the bad ones-probably everything she never knew that would eventually lead to where they were now.
Time surely flies, and it flies fast.
Gulping the lump on her throat, Eunae could easily recognize the voices echoing from the inside. They sounded familiar-too familiar as a matter of fact that she could even somehow picture how they looked as they talked.
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