LOGIN~Jhuy~I woke up to a piercing sound that went down mercilessly on my eardrums.It wouldn't stop no matter how long I tried to endure it, hoping it would definitely seize.Grumbling, I pushed the blankets of myself with my left hand, my right hand felt heavy and kind of trapped.As soon as I opened my eyes to the rays from the early morning sun that filtered into the room, my mind went blank.The space didn't feel familiar. It was plain, the decorations plain and monochronic. There was an empty bottle of whiskey on the table and a headache rising from one side of my skull.Where was---The memories flooded back with full force, forcing me to shut my eyes tight in order to minimize the effect.Pressing my back hard against the mattress, I remembered how it all happened.I was out of it last night after Lily left because of the emergency call she had gotten. I had gotten myself drunk and wanked off painfully until I came.Even after that, I could not bring myself to stop feeling the w
~Lilian~I walked back briskly to the ladies's dorm, rummaging through the wardrobe for my clothes - the one I had worn here.I knew he was going to call. I was sure he was going to call, and I wanted to answer when he did, just to see the look on his face at being turned into a mess by a club dancer. The other girls, in their process of dressing and undressing, had layered lots of clothes and accessories against mine.I had found my pants, and my jacket, but my inner top was nowhere to be found.I chuckled as I emptied the wardrobe of every single thing it had. For the time in my life, I felt like I could play without being reprimanded.We weren't doing anything to be proud of, but we were such a close-knit little family.I laughed out loud at the idea of someone hurriedly wearing my top over their costume just to shield themselves from the cold of the stage. They were going to look like a bum under the lights in that old shirt.I chuckled again, covering my mouth with my hand to mu
~Lilian~I opened the door to him sitting on the bed, his back resting on the headboard, his eyes drowsy with desire as always.Through the party mask I didn't forget to wear, I saw how hopeless he looked with his chest bare, his under covered with just the short briefs he wore, his erection already huge and visible.Still standing beside the door, I thought about the best way to start, reminding myself that I had to do everything possible to keep my identity.I think he must have seen the hand cuffs I was holding and the bottle of whiskey.He smirked, a small laugh following almost immediately."We're doing activity today? Wow," he chuckled."I don't think I signed up for this, but bring it on. Maybe, this is what turns you on, yeah?" he babbled."Maybe, you'd finally be able to allow me to touch you," he sneered, moving from his position, crawling towards the foot of the bed.I allowed my expression dissolve into a grin.Walking towards him, I placed my materials on top of the bed b
~Lilian~I was still leaning with my back pressed against the door, my fingers refusing to leave the handle behind me, lest he opens and grabs me by the hair, demanding an explanation to what happened that night, when I heard someone clear their throat somewhere in front of me.Raising my fear filled eyes, they met with Miss. Roselvelt's scrutinizing pair."Oh No, Lily! Did I forget to tell you during our first meeting? The director's office is out of bounds for you pole girls," her nose scrunching up in disgust.Hearing myself being described like that, my body trembled.A huge lump formed in my throat, and it felt impossible to swallow. At some point in the space of those seconds after she said that, I found it difficult to breathe properly.Because I wanted to hide the fact I was struggling at that point, but at the same time, could not reply to what she had just said, it appeared like I was keeping mute on purpose.To piss her off, she must have thought."Follow me," she spat out,
~Lilian~Behind the closed door of Nikolai's restroom, I listened to the father and daughter.I was pissed at how Nikolai kept putting me away for Sonia. It made my heart wrench more in anger knowing that these two were part of why I had a complete change of personality after the Christmas break.I cussed under my breath wondering why I was always finding myself behind a bathroom door these days - it only showed how messy my life had become.Lies, secrets, determination and courage, that would be a simple description of my life lately."Were you doing something?" I heard Sonia ask. Her voice sounded strained, like she had a lot on her mind and was on edge about things beyond her control.I had not reached out to Stephen since then.F*ck it!I was still in shock as to how he could become Sonia's accomplice against me. Stephen has always been unbelievable anyways. If Sonia knew I had left home, he would have called to blame me for her finding out.He hasn't called all this time, so I as
~Lilian~"This calls for a heavy celebration!" Mr. Nikolai bellowed as he paced about his room, his shoulders as high as someone that had just won a lottery.Well, technically, this win could be likened to that. He was so sure he didn't stand a chance. So sure, that even very early on the morning of the event in California, I had heard my phone ring from a distance while still sprawled lazily across Mr. Brostran on his bed with messy sheets we were too lazy to change earlier.My eyes were still heavy and the letters across my phone appeared double, but I had picked up regardless, almost getting a panic attack when I discovered it was Nikolai on the line."Hello," I had repeated after him, only to hear him crash out about how I didn't need to go to the event hall, and how I should rather sleep in because the charts didn't look promising.I had ended the call afterwards, adjusting well into the old man lying face up beside me - things did go the way I wanted them to."He forgot his pro
~Lilian~The men were reluctant to talk.It was almost like they didn't know what I was talking about.We had gotten to the airport a lot earlier, and had to wait until our own flight was ready to board.I didn't exactly like the idea of sitting on a table with the same people that lied to me, over
~Lilian~When we flew from Beverly Hills to West Coast, I had thought it was a short distance, but now that we were flying back, I realized I had thought that way because of the excitement.The excitement of going to a new city, the thrill of spending Christmas away from school and not at home.I w
~Lilian~After staring at Sonia for a while, I became convinced that whatever it was had her attention glued to the phone must be relevant to the cause of my research.Tip-toeing up the stairs as quietly as possible, I went in search of Mr. Jhuy.I went to his room first, but he was not there.Quic
~Lilian~As soon as Scott left, I left too, for home.By the time I got home, Sonia was not around.I still had one of the spare keys of the apartment, and that was how I was able to let myself in.The deafening silence that reigned in the house after I slammed the door shut made my heart cold.It







