LOGIN~Lilian~Somehow, Miss Roselvelt had ended up not adding me to the group that'd be pole dancing for the night.Well, I had told her earlier that I wasn't feeling too good and that my legs hurt, but I didn't think she bought the excuse as at that time.I was so relieved to watch the girls dress up nice and flashy, pulling short moves at intervals while they did their make up - they seemed to be enjoying what they did. "This is the only dance I know how to do, because there's a reward," one of them had told me earlier when I asked if she had fun pole dancing.I had never thought about making money from this since I started doing it. Maybe that was one of the reasons Jhuy Clifford keeps coming back. He thinks he hit a jackpot - a mask girl that doesn't want his papers.I slept till they were back in the morning, all tired and oozing of alcohol, sweat and men's perfume.It was another day, and everyone had gone out for what they had for the day while I remained indoors watching a cartoon
~Lilian~I was back at the dancers' dorm on a breezy afternoon. The weather was surprisingly chilly, and it was relaxing.I had slept the entire day, only waking up to an alarm going off somewhere in the room.As I sat on the bed and inspected the space for the source of the noise with drowsy vision, I couldn't help but think about yesterday.I was satisfied with how the day ended even with how exhausted it left me.I wondered what became of Jhuy Clifford after I had left like that - he probably wanked himself off to near satisfaction, because I was sure he could never have satisfied his erection by himself.Or maybe he called in another woman more willing to dance to the tunes he played.Even if that was the case, something at the back of my mind tells me that he would find his way back to me, I just didn't expect it would be this fast.Like someone that had woken up with thoughts that didn't belong to her, my body clung to the frame of the bed, the alarm still blaring endlessly in t
~Jhuy~I woke up to a piercing sound that went down mercilessly on my eardrums.It wouldn't stop no matter how long I tried to endure it, hoping it would definitely seize.Grumbling, I pushed the blankets of myself with my left hand, my right hand felt heavy and kind of trapped.As soon as I opened my eyes to the rays from the early morning sun that filtered into the room, my mind went blank.The space didn't feel familiar. It was plain, the decorations plain and monochronic. There was an empty bottle of whiskey on the table and a headache rising from one side of my skull.Where was---The memories flooded back with full force, forcing me to shut my eyes tight in order to minimize the effect.Pressing my back hard against the mattress, I remembered how it all happened.I was out of it last night after Lily left because of the emergency call she had gotten. I had gotten myself drunk and wanked off painfully until I came.Even after that, I could not bring myself to stop feeling the w
~Lilian~I walked back briskly to the ladies's dorm, rummaging through the wardrobe for my clothes - the one I had worn here.I knew he was going to call. I was sure he was going to call, and I wanted to answer when he did, just to see the look on his face at being turned into a mess by a club dancer. The other girls, in their process of dressing and undressing, had layered lots of clothes and accessories against mine.I had found my pants, and my jacket, but my inner top was nowhere to be found.I chuckled as I emptied the wardrobe of every single thing it had. For the time in my life, I felt like I could play without being reprimanded.We weren't doing anything to be proud of, but we were such a close-knit little family.I laughed out loud at the idea of someone hurriedly wearing my top over their costume just to shield themselves from the cold of the stage. They were going to look like a bum under the lights in that old shirt.I chuckled again, covering my mouth with my hand to mu
~Lilian~I opened the door to him sitting on the bed, his back resting on the headboard, his eyes drowsy with desire as always.Through the party mask I didn't forget to wear, I saw how hopeless he looked with his chest bare, his under covered with just the short briefs he wore, his erection already huge and visible.Still standing beside the door, I thought about the best way to start, reminding myself that I had to do everything possible to keep my identity.I think he must have seen the hand cuffs I was holding and the bottle of whiskey.He smirked, a small laugh following almost immediately."We're doing activity today? Wow," he chuckled."I don't think I signed up for this, but bring it on. Maybe, this is what turns you on, yeah?" he babbled."Maybe, you'd finally be able to allow me to touch you," he sneered, moving from his position, crawling towards the foot of the bed.I allowed my expression dissolve into a grin.Walking towards him, I placed my materials on top of the bed b
~Lilian~I was still leaning with my back pressed against the door, my fingers refusing to leave the handle behind me, lest he opens and grabs me by the hair, demanding an explanation to what happened that night, when I heard someone clear their throat somewhere in front of me.Raising my fear filled eyes, they met with Miss. Roselvelt's scrutinizing pair."Oh No, Lily! Did I forget to tell you during our first meeting? The director's office is out of bounds for you pole girls," her nose scrunching up in disgust.Hearing myself being described like that, my body trembled.A huge lump formed in my throat, and it felt impossible to swallow. At some point in the space of those seconds after she said that, I found it difficult to breathe properly.Because I wanted to hide the fact I was struggling at that point, but at the same time, could not reply to what she had just said, it appeared like I was keeping mute on purpose.To piss her off, she must have thought."Follow me," she spat out,
~Lilian~He didn't resist.He encouraged me, drawing his hands up from my back to my neck, tenderly massaging the area.God!That was the most relaxing thing ever.I dug my lips into the soft of his neck, planting there a deep kiss, an invitation to take me right there and then, however and whichev
~Lilian~When we flew from Beverly Hills to West Coast, I had thought it was a short distance, but now that we were flying back, I realized I had thought that way because of the excitement.The excitement of going to a new city, the thrill of spending Christmas away from school and not at home.I w
~Lilian~I didn't stop until I was out of the gates, and even after I got out of the gates, I kept on walking until I hailed down a taxi and it drove off.Stephen was crazy enough to follow me outside just so as to catch me and drag me back inside like he had always wanted.It was late evening, and
~Lilian~As soon as Scott left, I left too, for home.By the time I got home, Sonia was not around.I still had one of the spare keys of the apartment, and that was how I was able to let myself in.The deafening silence that reigned in the house after I slammed the door shut made my heart cold.It







