LOGIN~Nikolai~"What!" I yelled, the shock gripping my stomach and tightening it hard. Then, I felt the heaviness reverse all the way back to my chest and the strong urge to throw up.I yanked the duvet off my body, the alarm clock on my bedside table going off at the same time, the loud ringing filling the room and my head.I covered my free ear with my palm, my face squeezing with displeasure, the phone still pressed against my other ear."What did you say?" I asked like I actually had not heard him at first, my voice icy, shaky at the same time."The charts are down in our favor. It's pretty bad. The difference is huge. We might not be able to off this one easily," my assistant from the West Coast branch spoke, many words at the same time, it made the fear already blossoming in my chest spread mercilessly.My eyes watered, I didn't fight it.It was 5AM in the morning. I was supposed to be getting ready for gym, not struggling to comprehend how to get the company ratings back up because
~Nikolai~I didn't understand my daughter anymore.Somehow, she was slowly slipping away from my grasp. I didn't know when it started.When I became too busy with business?When she insisted on going to a university out of the city and I agreed? I had wanted her to go to school from home, so that I could watch her better, but attending a school outside West Coast made that a thought of the past.Was it when she got an enlargement injection and I just overlooked it? Was it when we had that stupid Christmas arrangement? Or when I finally allowed her get a tattoo.When did it go wrong? I kept asking myself with heavy eyes, I looked at the sun set from the balcony upstairs, my fingers wrapped firmly around my cup of coffee which was almost cold and I hadn't even touched it.I didn't want to think Sonia needed to go back to rehab. That was one topic we had avoided discussing, like it never happened.Sometimes, I forget it happened. I forget Sonia Swissman had once struggled with being a d
~Nikolai~It's been three days.Three days since after Lily showed up in front of me and I ended up tossing her in the bathroom because Sonia had unexpectedly appeared.Now, Lily wouldn't even answer my calls, not even my texts.I hate to admit it, but I miss her.I missed her, not just because if the s*x---Well, the s*x was good, even though I didn't get to it the last time.I couldn't wait to be able hold her in my arms again, guide her head down, watch her choke up on my c*ck while it hardens inside her mouth, watch her eye fill up with desire for more, but unwillingness to admit it.Aside from that, I wanted Sonia by my side. I was more than three decades older than her, but she doesn't seem to have an issue with it.It meant we could actually get married.It sounded ridiculous, but that was what I felt like I wanted.Maybe, that would sound more responsible to Sonia. Sonia doesn't want me around her best friend, but now that she doesn't speak so much about her anymore, I would l
~Lilian~Somehow, Miss Roselvelt had ended up not adding me to the group that'd be pole dancing for the night.Well, I had told her earlier that I wasn't feeling too good and that my legs hurt, but I didn't think she bought the excuse as at that time.I was so relieved to watch the girls dress up nice and flashy, pulling short moves at intervals while they did their make up - they seemed to be enjoying what they did. "This is the only dance I know how to do, because there's a reward," one of them had told me earlier when I asked if she had fun pole dancing.I had never thought about making money from this since I started doing it. Maybe that was one of the reasons Jhuy Clifford keeps coming back. He thinks he hit a jackpot - a mask girl that doesn't want his papers.I slept till they were back in the morning, all tired and oozing of alcohol, sweat and men's perfume.It was another day, and everyone had gone out for what they had for the day while I remained indoors watching a cartoon
~Lilian~I was back at the dancers' dorm on a breezy afternoon. The weather was surprisingly chilly, and it was relaxing.I had slept the entire day, only waking up to an alarm going off somewhere in the room.As I sat on the bed and inspected the space for the source of the noise with drowsy vision, I couldn't help but think about yesterday.I was satisfied with how the day ended even with how exhausted it left me.I wondered what became of Jhuy Clifford after I had left like that - he probably wanked himself off to near satisfaction, because I was sure he could never have satisfied his erection by himself.Or maybe he called in another woman more willing to dance to the tunes he played.Even if that was the case, something at the back of my mind tells me that he would find his way back to me, I just didn't expect it would be this fast.Like someone that had woken up with thoughts that didn't belong to her, my body clung to the frame of the bed, the alarm still blaring endlessly in t
~Jhuy~I woke up to a piercing sound that went down mercilessly on my eardrums.It wouldn't stop no matter how long I tried to endure it, hoping it would definitely seize.Grumbling, I pushed the blankets of myself with my left hand, my right hand felt heavy and kind of trapped.As soon as I opened my eyes to the rays from the early morning sun that filtered into the room, my mind went blank.The space didn't feel familiar. It was plain, the decorations plain and monochronic. There was an empty bottle of whiskey on the table and a headache rising from one side of my skull.Where was---The memories flooded back with full force, forcing me to shut my eyes tight in order to minimize the effect.Pressing my back hard against the mattress, I remembered how it all happened.I was out of it last night after Lily left because of the emergency call she had gotten. I had gotten myself drunk and wanked off painfully until I came.Even after that, I could not bring myself to stop feeling the w
~Lilian~"You're lucky, girl!" a tall girl with glitters on her cheeks and neck grabbed my shoulder as I sat on one of the high stools of the bar.She had this heavy strawberry scent that made my stomach turn clung to her.I slipped out of her grab, and she smirked dangerously in my face before wal
~Lilian~He withdrew from his position - bent against my face, straightening out his shirt, before going to get the door, his strides slow, and calculative.I watched him, frozen, my neck still held in the position it was before the knock came. I thought it was Sonia at the door. I think Mr. Niko
~Lilian~Everyone turned towards where I stood, half hidden by the blue pool, rays of lights getting lost in the depth of the water.The moment reminded me again of how much I have changed.I was in the f*****g spotlight. All eyes were on me as if daring me to say what I had said again.I wasn't us
~Lilian~I was lying in the pool of my c*m dried against the sheets in a thick patch of white from getting wild last night, when Sonia knocked, and pushed the door open immediately."I called you severally, my friends thought I had become a pervert," she complained, kicking her boots away from her







