LOGIN~Lilian~I walked back briskly to the ladies's dorm, rummaging through the wardrobe for my clothes - the one I had worn here.I knew he was going to call. I was sure he was going to call, and I wanted to answer when he did, just to see the look on his face at being turned into a mess by a club dancer. The other girls, in their process of dressing and undressing, had layered lots of clothes and accessories against mine.I had found my pants, and my jacket, but my inner top was nowhere to be found.I chuckled as I emptied the wardrobe of every single thing it had. For the time in my life, I felt like I could play without being reprimanded.We weren't doing anything to be proud of, but we were such a close-knit little family.I laughed out loud at the idea of someone hurriedly wearing my top over their costume just to shield themselves from the cold of the stage. They were going to look like a bum under the lights in that old shirt.I chuckled again, covering my mouth with my hand to mu
~Lilian~I opened the door to him sitting on the bed, his back resting on the headboard, his eyes drowsy with desire as always.Through the party mask I didn't forget to wear, I saw how hopeless he looked with his chest bare, his under covered with just the short briefs he wore, his erection already huge and visible.Still standing beside the door, I thought about the best way to start, reminding myself that I had to do everything possible to keep my identity.I think he must have seen the hand cuffs I was holding and the bottle of whiskey.He smirked, a small laugh following almost immediately."We're doing activity today? Wow," he chuckled."I don't think I signed up for this, but bring it on. Maybe, this is what turns you on, yeah?" he babbled."Maybe, you'd finally be able to allow me to touch you," he sneered, moving from his position, crawling towards the foot of the bed.I allowed my expression dissolve into a grin.Walking towards him, I placed my materials on top of the bed b
~Lilian~I was still leaning with my back pressed against the door, my fingers refusing to leave the handle behind me, lest he opens and grabs me by the hair, demanding an explanation to what happened that night, when I heard someone clear their throat somewhere in front of me.Raising my fear filled eyes, they met with Miss. Roselvelt's scrutinizing pair."Oh No, Lily! Did I forget to tell you during our first meeting? The director's office is out of bounds for you pole girls," her nose scrunching up in disgust.Hearing myself being described like that, my body trembled.A huge lump formed in my throat, and it felt impossible to swallow. At some point in the space of those seconds after she said that, I found it difficult to breathe properly.Because I wanted to hide the fact I was struggling at that point, but at the same time, could not reply to what she had just said, it appeared like I was keeping mute on purpose.To piss her off, she must have thought."Follow me," she spat out,
~Lilian~Behind the closed door of Nikolai's restroom, I listened to the father and daughter.I was pissed at how Nikolai kept putting me away for Sonia. It made my heart wrench more in anger knowing that these two were part of why I had a complete change of personality after the Christmas break.I cussed under my breath wondering why I was always finding myself behind a bathroom door these days - it only showed how messy my life had become.Lies, secrets, determination and courage, that would be a simple description of my life lately."Were you doing something?" I heard Sonia ask. Her voice sounded strained, like she had a lot on her mind and was on edge about things beyond her control.I had not reached out to Stephen since then.F*ck it!I was still in shock as to how he could become Sonia's accomplice against me. Stephen has always been unbelievable anyways. If Sonia knew I had left home, he would have called to blame me for her finding out.He hasn't called all this time, so I as
~Lilian~"This calls for a heavy celebration!" Mr. Nikolai bellowed as he paced about his room, his shoulders as high as someone that had just won a lottery.Well, technically, this win could be likened to that. He was so sure he didn't stand a chance. So sure, that even very early on the morning of the event in California, I had heard my phone ring from a distance while still sprawled lazily across Mr. Brostran on his bed with messy sheets we were too lazy to change earlier.My eyes were still heavy and the letters across my phone appeared double, but I had picked up regardless, almost getting a panic attack when I discovered it was Nikolai on the line."Hello," I had repeated after him, only to hear him crash out about how I didn't need to go to the event hall, and how I should rather sleep in because the charts didn't look promising.I had ended the call afterwards, adjusting well into the old man lying face up beside me - things did go the way I wanted them to."He forgot his pro
~Lilian~"You will be disappointed if I say this," I said, pulling myself up a bit, causing him to also withdraw from his initial position."Say whatever you want to say," he replied.His weight was resting on his knees and palms now, his eyes carefully examining mine.I chuckled at how serious he looked.His brows furrowed in a way to ask "why?""It's nothing. I was just going to say, I have no interest whatsoever in your hotel politics, but nevertheless, I want you to win, just because it's going to make you happy."I saw his face break into a smile - a genuine one. I was happy for him, but I had to do what I had to do.He lifted his body and crawled to sit beside me."This is non of your business really," he whispered, his tone suddenly hard, and his face slowly forming an expression that did not seem too friendly.I refused to be unfazed."What happens if you don't win?" I expected an outburst, maybe a demand to explain why I had asked that question, and after that, a long reason
~Nikolai~Dressed in a light flowery cottage gown, a knitted jacket I can't remember buying for her hanging loosely over her arm, Sonia walked in, shutting the door behind her.She stared from me to Jhuy and back to me again. Her stare hinting at suspicion, and disappointment.I remembered how we
~Lilian~We had heard footsteps, but before we were able to break free from our emotions and key into the presence, enough to get off each other, it was too late.I was scared of what Sonia would do. Maybe pull out a gun and blow my head off? Or call the cops on me?So many thoughts ran through my h
~Lilian~I thought about how Sonia was always leaving the house immediately after breakfast everyday.It was strange that she goes out every single day, but you know what was stranger? She was sneaky about it.A few times in the past weeks, she had taken me with her, but we had also ended up secret
~Lilian~I have been spending a lot of time in bed. I had said I was sick and couldn't fly, so I was supposed to stick to the plan.Mr. Nikolai had invited the family doctor over and he had run a couple of tests on me.That day, as I watched him pull out his thermometer and stestoscope, I feared th







