Chapter 4

  I'm confident in my mom. I'm confident in Grandma B.'s lessons. The one thing I'm not as confident in, is having all the girls from Red Earth within fingers reach of everything I love. Seeing all of them; in their true form, literally walk out of my mom; would have blown anybody else's mind, but my mom is a special kind of person. She has never hidden what she could do, or who she was. I did hear a gasp or two from someone behind me, but 4 people walked out of my mom's body. Not only that, they are also standing right in front of us. Arms stretched out, like ours are, and I'm pretty sure the bubble got stronger, if the buzz in the air is anything to go by. Did mom let them loose here? With their powers? She must of, because when I slowly open my eyes again, I see that our once transparent bubble is now almost a green color. You can see the electricity in it also. They are helping us. What in the world is going on? I concentrate on the bubble with a newfound confidence. I crack my eyes open once again, and I see more people walking out of my mother. Hey wait. All these people look like mom, just with different hair styles, different clothing, and different stances and facial expressions. Wait 6, I count 6. They finish the circle around my mom inside the bubble, with the Red Earth girls, with arms stretched out. My mom has 7 personalities. She must have one, to do what she must do. So, thetrue mom is the one she is now. Mom is in the Grand Hallway, I know that. It's just that she is alone in there now. All my life, she has had her personalities, and the Red Earth people to help her; now they are here helping us, with the bubble. What is she going to unchain, that she needs this much fire power to protect us from her? I Love You MOM. I push the worry from my head and refocus on the bubble.

 With that thought, V refocuses on the strength on the bubble.

  Robby thought to himself for a brief moment, while his arms are out focusing on the bubble. My heart, please feel my love, I fucking Love You, and know that, I am here with you. She is alone, but I know my wife. She is stronger than anyone I know; she will come back to me. This is the most terrifying thing; I have ever witnessed. All I can do is make sure this bubble is strong for her, and our babies. I've never seen the Red Earth people before, in their own form. I've never seen the differences in her personalities, before having them lined up before me. I hope my wife is ok. She would say I'm fine, this I know, or I'll figure it out, her catch phrase. This just makes me feel so small, because I can't help her, where she is. If They are here, helping us strengthen the bubble. What is she going to unchain? What is that dangerous, that even V, and the kids, are not powerful enough to keep in the bubble? With a cleansing breath Robby pushed them thoughts a side, and refocused.

 At that moment the bubble started vibrating. The personalities said at once, "I am here."Walking through the door felt weird. It was heavy, but light. I went up, but at the same time went down. It felt like forever, but no time at all. My mind was trying to figure out direction, but it was impossible. I couldn't see with my eyes; but my mind could see. I get now why I had to be empty, because more than one thought process would have got me lost here, in the abyss of confusion. Be myself, is all I could think of; it was the only thing that was left. I started walking, not that I could really tell I was going anywhere. I couldn't even tell if I was upside down, or right side up. I still just kept walking because I felt that was what I was supposed to do. My Grandma B. sure did bury whatever this is really deep, it was here all along though.

  Wait, do I see light? In pure darkness, a pin prick of light seemed like a lighthouse signaling me into dock. I made my feet move faster and faster, but it didn't fucking matter, It still only moved closer in the speed of when I was walking. Was there a hall monitor, no running in the halls, or something, I giggled to myself. I slowed back to walking, and then the light moved quickly towards me, a little too quickly for my liking. A brief second a thought of turning around and running away from it crossed my mind. What the hell? Then I hear my daughter, V say, I Love You MOM. Like she is right in front of me. Then my husband, my love. As if he was standing right beside me, says, I fucking Love You, I am right here with you. One by one everyone in the living room, with my body, my personalities, and the Red Earth People, that I love says, their form of, I love you. My courage came back fast. I was renewed. I can face anything for them, my heart. I cleared my mind, and with everything in me, I charged forward. My doubt evaporated; My worry ceased to be. I enter the light with the purest heart I could ever have. One thing on my mind; was theonly thing that could be on my mind, my family. It takes a few to let my eyes adjust to the light. When they do; I see many chains, going every which direction they could go. I can see the walls made of the most powerful, psychic energy I have ever seen, or felt. The door was open, and I just walked in not realizing the light is a room. The buzz of it would be harmful to me, if the oom was made to keep me in. For the life of me though, I can not see into the middle of the room, like it is mirrored, but no reflection of me is looking back. I slowly walk towards the middle of the room still not seeing anything. All the chains are leading here, but what if here never comes. Then, there she was, my grandma B.; With a smile on her face, but she was worried. "Grandma? Why are you here? What am I supposed to do? Feeling really good that she was here.

 She only said to me. "My dear girl, you have to do this with out me. You have made it this far and now; all you have to do is have faith and jump. Be the self this world was not ready for. Be the self I shielded you from. You have forgot more than Earth can learn in a billion years. Have faith in my love for you, and that I would not steer you wrong. Everything will be clear after you jump. Then she disappeared as fast as she appeared.

  I cried out to the empty spot where she used to stand. A hole open in front of me. I looked down into it and it was just black. Grandma said have faith and jump, But I have this gnawing feeling that's just wrong. I have never questioned my Grandma B. ever before. I don't think I can do this. Everyone says be yourself, and all the things she said, but not the jump in the crazy dark hole, see ya, bye. sounds like Grandma. But my body as empty as it is, is saying, no don't fucking do it, you idiot. And that's me being myfucking self. So, I screamed out in defiance, fuck you! You go jump in the fucking big hole, asshole. You are most definitely not my Grandma. So, who the Fuck are you?

  The hole in the floor just disappeared. I hear this voice, that is everywhere and nowhere at the same time. I faintly remember the voice, like it was from a dream I've had, not a person I know. I can't understand what It's saying. I move forward carefully to miss the spot where fake grandma, and the hole was open. I walk through some sort a veil that prevented me from seeing the other side.

 Again, the voice spoke, but I could understand this time. It said, "Welcome, young Mrs. Lambert, It is very good to finally meet you. Your Grandmother is a very gifted individual, to hold us; We hold no grudges. You have passed my cell mates little ruse to take your body for himself. Which by the way, I told him you would not be tricked. You are a very spunky girl now, are you not? Strong also, or you would not have made it here. This whole dimension was to keep us here unless you came for us. You passed traps, and mazes, and things that would give your nightmares, nightmares. You passed them all, with not even a blink of an ey

 When she stopped talking, I ask, whom ever was talking to me to step forward, so I could see her. I could tell it was female because of her feminine voice, and the silhouette shadow on the wall. She said in an understanding voice, "I am sorry, my love, you can not see me. This is faith based. I know, we are asking for a lot, especially after his little trick. Just know, I have only talked to him. I have never seen him. We cannot meet face to face either, until the merging begins. This is how it must be; this is how yourGrandmother destined it to be. Even before, the day your parents knew you were conceived, your grandmother knew. You will know everything when we are merged. All you must do, is say, I Accept You. And we can start the merge. The choice of being your true self is yours, and yours alone.

 This time I have a choice, it doesn't feel forced; like jump in the fucking hole or stand here forever. My grandma trusted me to only do this in the worst-case scenario. This is pretty much the worst case scenario. I trust my Grandma to know if I can do this, or not. In a rush I say." Fuck it. I Accept You." And I closed my eyes and said a little prayer.

 Thinking to myself while holding my arms apart. As the youngest Boy, I got picked on a lot by my older siblings growing up. It made me stronger; it made me pretty much not afraid of much. You put my mother in the scenario though; I start to feel the fear. She looks almost fake up there in that circle. A shell of the woman, I know and love. My mom is up against an unknown assailant; and here I am, stuck in the fucking "T" pose to put up a bubble; that my younger sister, and mom's inner people could take care of in their sleep. I love her deeply and I'm worried. She has been like that for nearly 45 minutes. I don't care how long I have to be like this, I'll stay like this forever, if It somehow helps her through this. I, Dax Lambert, am afraid to death for my mom. Will I ever show it? Hell No. Will I ever say it? Hell No. As I was having my private Ted talk moment, I cracked my eyes open to check on her. The bubble is turning darker green now, with sparks flickering off of it. That's when I see the bubble start to fill up, with what looked like smoke. My heart skipped a beat or ten. I nearly dropped my arms. Lucky for me I couldn't, the Red Earth girls did something; I can see the energy wrapped around my wrist and going to the next hand. It went all the way around the rings of people, it was crazy to see. I tried to speak, and something stole my voice, in my head I hear, "Relax, your mother is starting the merge. She needs us to be as strong as we can, right now." Knowing what is happening is nice, but having someone talk in your head, now! that shit is for the birds. I can barely see mom now; the smoke is just so thick. I do the only thing I can do and focus on the damn bubble and pray for my mother.

 The smoke is so thick, how can mom even breathe? I ask myself as I look at my siblings and my dad. I don't get to see mom or dad that often. My brother and I went to college down in Monroe, just to be on our own, but still be technically in the state. Being the oldest girl in a decent size family, you learn a lot of things really fast in life. I did not learn this though; watching your mom try to save the world, and face something she had no idea about. The dark cloud of smoke made it impossible to see mom. As soon as I thought that, a bright blue light appeared at the top of the bubble. It started pushing the smoke down to the point I can now see mom. What is that? I swear, I see legs, dropping down out of the ceiling of the bubble. And wings? What the hell? Out of the smoke I see hands, grasping up moms' legs, I see another darker pair of wings coming out of the smoke also. What is going on? It looks like heaven and hell is fighting over mom. With a flash of neon blue than dark red light they both hit moms' body, and she absorbed them like a sponge in water. Then all was still. Mom is still standing in the middle of the circle. Her eyes are opened, and she looked at all of us, then the bubble that was reacting to her. Her feet then left the ground. The Red Earth girls in the bubble with her, bowed down to show respect, even Orna bowed. Withthat mom spread her arms and with her arm she revealed what looked like angel wings, but one was white, and light blue, and the other is dark gray, and dark red, with bright red. Moms eyes were not green either; one was electric sky blue, and one was a red sunburst. One by one moms' personalities were absorbed when she looked at them. The Red Earth girls stood up and bowed their heads as they walked closed to her. One by one they also were absorbed. Everyone is where they should be now, but is mom ok? She gently landed on the ground and stood there what seemed like forever. She looked up, and said, "My family, you are the reason I made it though this. Yes, I am going to be different, but I am, and will always be your mother. You have nothing to fear. I will tell you what has happened in full, and I will help you awaken if you choose. We can, and we will, stop this horrible event. You just have a choice to make; do you trust me, or not? All you to say, is Yes, I trust you. The choice is yours, and have yours alone.