School was going to go by so slowly today and I am already dreading getting off the bus and seeing Brooks if he is out there. I didn't even bother to look back this morning to see if he walked Jonah out. I'm scared he is going to say something I am not going to want to hear and I'll end up with my feelings hurt. Finally, lunchtime and I sat by myself again today I didn't want to talk to anyone or be the main joke of the table. When I finished my lunch I took my tray to the window and sat back down waiting on the bell to ring. Once lunch was over I headed back to class and went ahead and put up what I didn't need out anymore and waited on this period to end. I was finally in my last period and I was getting more nervous as the school day was coming to an end. When I finished my assignment I sat there for the rest of the class period mentally kicking myself for writing that letter and giving it to him. My nerves were worse right now than they were on my first day here. The release bell
*** Beep Beep Beep *** Ugh, I don't want to get out of bed. Thankfully today is Friday and I can sleep in tomorrow. I got up and got ready for school. When I got to the bus stop I looked down the road and saw Jonah walking toward me. I looked around but didn't see Brooks. Jonah came up to me and said, "he stood by the door this morning." I said why did he stand by the door? He said, "I don't know. He was up most of the night talking to himself again but I couldn't make out any of what he was saying this time." I said well I hope whatever is going on with him, he is ok. Jonah shrubbed his shoulders and said, "he is just weird." we got on the bus and when I got to school I sat with Kinzlee and waited on the bell to ring. Kinzlee asked what was wrong with me because I was being quiet and I said nothing. She looked at me and said, "Crystal, something is wrong. You haven't really said anything since you got here." I sighed and said I wrote Brooks a letter and told him how I felt
Brooks and I lay there for about 30 minutes just staring at each other and smiling. I sat up and said just curious but where is Jonah? Every time I come up here and I come inside, your mom and Jonah aren't here. He sat up and told me that his mom was at work and Jonah goes with his dad for a few hours after school. I asked if he had a good relationship with his dad and he told me that he and Jonah have different dads. He told me that his dad died when he was little and he didn't really know him and that Jonah's dad was a decent stepdad while he was married to his mom. I told Brooks I was sorry about his dad and he told me it was ok and explained that his dad suffered from depression and it got the better of him and he took his own life. I told Brooks that I know what it is like because I suffer from it and he pulled me into him and told me he would always be here for me. I nestled my face into his chest and closed my eyes taking in his scent. After a few minutes, I pulled away and sai
My first 2 months of school have been ok I am glad we will be hitting fall break next week. I can't wait until I can sleep in and just be lazy for a week. I am finishing up my test in my last period so I can sit back until school is out. When the bell rang to load the buses I headed to my bus and took my seat. Jonah didn't get on today which I found weird since he has ridden every day and he was on this morning. I thought about going up to his house and checking on him to make sure he wasn't sick or something. When I got off the bus I saw Brooks getting out of his SUV and I walked down the road toward him and said hey is Jonah ok? He didn't ride the bus this afternoon and I just wanted to check on him. Brooks turned to face me and snapped at me and asked why I cared if Jonah is ok and asked why I have been talking to his brother so much. I looked at him and said excuse me but I am his friend and I wanted to make sure he was ok sorry for having a heart and caring. I turned around and s
Finally, it's the last day before break, and I and can't wait. My butt is going to be lazy and sleep in. I am headed into my second to last period to take my test and then sit and do nothing until the end of the school day since I took my test for last period last week. When the bell rang I headed into the hallway and saw Kinzlee. She waved at me and motioned for me to come over to her and I did. She told me she was throwing a little party Friday and invited me. I told her I didn't think I'd be able to come and she said to call her if I could and she gave me her phone number. I headed into my next class and ad sat there writing in my journal until school was over. When I got off the bus I didn't see Brooks's SUV. when I got home my dad was already home which wasn't normal. I walked in and asked if he was ok and he laughed and said he was, then asked me why I asked. I told him it wasn't like him to come home early unless he wasn't feeling good. He told me he came home early to pack. I
I called my dad and asked if he was ok and he told me he was fine. He said he was almost to the Florida state line. I told him to call me when he got there. When I hung up, I went to my room and finished cleaning it. I waited until my dad called and let me know he made it into Flordia and then I called Brooks and told him my dad was in Flordia. He said he was getting some clothes and then he would meet me at the backdoor. When we hung up, I started to freak out a little inside. I went and put my clothes in the dryer and started another load. I figured if I had laundry to put away it would keep me busy for a little while so I wouldn't be just sitting there. As I was coming out of the laundry room there was a knock at the backdoor and I froze for a moment. My heart started pounding and felt like it was going to come out of my chest. I walked to the door and opened it. He smiled at me and said he was excited to spend some alone time with me. I gave him a half-smile and said I was too. He
When I woke up, I smiled because Brooks had his arm over me and was holding me close to him. I laid there for a few minutes thinking about how perfect laying next to him felt. I had to use the bathroom so I lifted his arm and slid out of the bed. He stirred but didn't wake up. I closed the bathroom door and did what I needed to do. I washed my hands and then washed my face to wake myself up a little more. When I came out of the bathroom I looked inside my room and Brooks was still asleep. I went back into my room and got some clothes to change into and since he was asleep, I figured it was safe to change in my room. When I got dressed I turned around and he was staring at me with a smirk on his face. I asked why he was looking at me like that and he said, "you are gorgeous and have an amazing body cutie." I blushed and said you were asleep so I didn't see a reason to change in the bathroom but I will next time and I smiled at him. I asked him if he was hungry and he said yes. I aske
I made us a fried chicken salad with garlic rolls for dinner and we sat down at the table and began to eat. Brooks reaches across the table and places his hand on mine and says he is thankful he gets to spend another night with me. After dinner, we put in a movie and I was laying with my head against Brooks's chest. I must have fallen asleep because one minute I was content watching a movie and the next I was sitting on the ground in the woods from what I can tell and someone was laying on the ground next to me. I leaned over and saw Brooks's face. I shook him but he wasn't responding. I rolled him over and that's when I saw the blood. I screamed out but no one answered. I screamed and I cried. I leaned in and pressed my forehead to his and told him I loved him and I was sorry. I sat straight up and was covered in sweat and had tears running down my face. Brooks sat up and asked what was wrong and I started sobbing. He pulled me close to him and held me until I pushed him away and sa