Joshua and I have been spending time together almost every day, not realizing time was passing by so fast & everything we did seemed so natural. I've never felt something like this before & I don't ever want to let it go.The thought of Joshua and I being apart felt weird to me. It felt like we've been together for so long by now, everything has fallen into place & is how it should be.
Waking up from the sun is not as perfect as it seems to be in Disney movies.Feelinh your eyes sting when you try to open them and not being able to wake up slowly cause of the burning light all around you."Ugh.. Josh, close the blinds, please." I
Lucas called me to inform that the whole family will be joining us for dinner at my house tonight. Claire is coming too, as pregnant as ever. Katherine is bringing James as well and Joshua is still here of course.I've been preparing dinner for the last 2 hours. Doing my absolute best to make something delicious for everyone.
Joshua had been teasing me about babies all night. Making comments about how we should totally make on for our own, like it's baking a cake."Bells, come on. Raising a kid is like taking a walk in the park." His fingers tightened around my thigh and I glared at him from under my lashes.
Days passed and no messages on my phone tell me that Joshua regrets walking away and is running back to me as I waste away on my couch. Thorny spots all over my body making me regret putting the shower so far away form my couch. Why couldn't there be a shower or a tub next to my couch so I could just roll right in?Note to myself; write down new idea for a world breaking interior design.
Laying in bed for such a long time, forgetting about the rest of the world and all the troubles outside of the bedroom. That is something I haven't done before, but doing this right now with Joshua feels like one of the best feelings in the world.We haven't talked ever since our mental break down in the shower yesterday. Something we did do was get rid of his clothes, since mine were already gone. He had pulled me into his lap once more, now with a different purpose as before. The shower
"This day is too short." Joshua whispers in my ear as he leads us on the dancefloor."It's long enough for me," I say sarcastically, "these heals are killing me!"I let him think he's leading because he sucks at dancing, but he practiced a lot the
"Kiss me, Bella." His intense stare was nothing compared to the effect his body brought to mine as he pressed himself further against me."No, I will do... no such thing." My words falthered under my breath as I could feel the growing desire between his legs. I slightly push him away on his chest and let my hand linger longer than I intended them to be. "Leave me alone, Joshua. I've had enough of this."