Days passed and no messages on my phone tell me that Joshua regrets walking away and is running back to me as I waste away on my couch. Thorny spots all over my body making me regret putting the shower so far away form my couch. Why couldn't there be a shower or a tub next to my couch so I could just roll right in?Note to myself; write down new idea for a world breaking interior design.
Laying in bed for such a long time, forgetting about the rest of the world and all the troubles outside of the bedroom. That is something I haven't done before, but doing this right now with Joshua feels like one of the best feelings in the world.We haven't talked ever since our mental break down in the shower yesterday. Something we did do was get rid of his clothes, since mine were already gone. He had pulled me into his lap once more, now with a different purpose as before. The shower
"This day is too short." Joshua whispers in my ear as he leads us on the dancefloor."It's long enough for me," I say sarcastically, "these heals are killing me!"I let him think he's leading because he sucks at dancing, but he practiced a lot the
"Kiss me, Bella." His intense stare was nothing compared to the effect his body brought to mine as he pressed himself further against me."No, I will do... no such thing." My words falthered under my breath as I could feel the growing desire between his legs. I slightly push him away on his chest and let my hand linger longer than I intended them to be. "Leave me alone, Joshua. I've had enough of this."
Even though I know last week didn't mean a thing to Joshua, or me for that matter, I was still filled with flesheating nerves as Lucas and I walked up the stairs to Joshua's mansion.'Please, Bella, kiss me.'He had begged, literally begged, for me to kiss him. Of course, the big idiot I am, I do as he asks.
It's been three days since Joshua's party and we haven't spoken since. This lack of communication is starting to freak me out.Maybe he regrets saying yes. Maybe he ran off to Europe and fuck all the Dutch girls. I hear they're great at it.Of cour
Waking up to a cold, empty bed has never been an issue to me before. Which is why I couldn't wrap my head around the feeling of desertion, when I woke to a note on my pillow instead of the handsome man that laid there last night.Gone to work.- Josh
I've never been this nervous when Joshua announces he's coming over. I chose to ignore his words and was simply eating some dinner in my pyjama on the couch.Sexy enough, right?I walk to my bedroom and pull