Chapter 5 Badass

Cherry

I walked into the mansion and watched as they got into their cars and drove off, I thought I was strong enough to accept that Xavier like Gueneve but right now that I saw the both of them together I can't help but stop lying to myself that they look good together, of course they do, who wouldn't love Gueneve when everyone probably adores her, I leaned against the door fighting my tears and telling myself that this is nothing and nobody is worth my tears, not those two, 

I blinked back my tears refusing to let them fall, of course it's not that easy, I'm fucking human too. After what feels like forever I finally felt better and found the energy to walk back to my room upstairs, I got in and tiredly dump my bag on the bed, I honestly lost all the energy I had while coming home, initially I wanted to film a video for my fans but right now it felt like I was no longer in the mood so I decided to soak myself in the bathtub who knows I might feel better after, 

I stripped off my clothes and walk into the bathroom where I gently entered the bathtub, I closed my eyes allowing the water to sip into every part of my body and after what felt like forever I felt better and came out of the bathtub, I wrapped a towel around my body and walked back into my room, I dried my body and wore my pajama after which I sat in front of the mirror to dry my hair.

For some reason I reminded myself that just because a man did not choose me does not mean that I should pause my life because of him. I love him, yes, but did he choose me? No, should I cry because of that? Yes, crying is not weakness, but I already promised myself not to shed any tears for someone who's not worth it, weakness is placing my happiness solely on someone else's and giving them control over me which I'm never going to do, 

So even though I'm sad and feel like crying cause I kept on wondering if he's smiling at her, are they probably kissing? Are they hugging? I decided to busy my mind by shooting a video for my fans instead, I can't pause my life because of Xavier and Gueneve.

I picked up my phone, set my tripod stand and my UV lights as I began to film a skincare promotional video, and in two hours I was done with my videos and went ahead to replying emails and some collaboration messages, I was almost feeling sleepy at this point when I heard a knock at my door, my eyes lit up cause of course I know it's my brother, I placed my laptop on the table and happily went to open the door but as soon as I did my expression changed instantly.

“Hey little sister” Gueneve's annoying face popped up

I wanted to slam the door on her face, but then wouldn't that be overreacting and giving her clue that whatever she has going on with Xavier is affecting me, I already told myself that I'm never going to give her that luxury, so instead I put on a smiling face

“Why are you here?” I asked even though I was gripping the doorknob so tight like my life depends on it, 

“Can I come in?” 

I was about to answer when she pushed past me and made her way into my room, 

“Wow, Cherry I must commend aunt and uncle cause you're living in pure luxury I mean this is more than a princess room, back at home I don't even have this kind of luxury” She pouted,

“Maybe you should work as hard as I do, then you can try comparing yourself to me” I blurted straight up, her eyes changed into a glare but she was quick to replace that with a fake smile, and went ahead to sit on my working table, 

“Come on sis, it's not like I can't work as hard as you, it's just that I'm too preserved, I mean I can't sell my body just for collaborations and deals, allegedly” 

I smirked and obviously I'm not taking the bitch serious

“Well if you think I exchanged my body to get to where I am today, maybe you should try exchanging yours let's see where it gets you, but I bet you can't even make it, even if you spend your whole life selling your body” I smiled with a dirty grin and raised eyebrows 

I watched as she gritted her teeth, balling her fist and acting like she's about to jump on me, 

“What happened, are you okay? It's just that you're sweating, should I get Xavier to come check on you?” I made a mocking look 

“Of course not, I mean he's probably so tired right now, you know we did a lot today” She made a daydreaming face, 

“Ohh okay, then why are you here in my room, you should probably go to him so you guys can continue from where you stopped”

“That? Ohh please, Xavier is a rough type I think I need a rest” 

I rolled my eyes, waiting for her to leave already, it's obvious the bitch is trying to get on my nerves, I watched as she stood up

“Here have this, it's one of the flowers that Xavier got for me, he bought a lot and I figured out I might share the ones I don't like with you, my loving little sister” 

“Ohhh….” I stepped closer and stretched out my hand, acting like I was about to take the bag from her but as soon as it was about to touch my finger, I withdrew my hand and let the flower fall, 

“Oops, sorry big sister, I'm just not use to cheap stuff” 

At this point she was groaning and growling inside but still putting on a smiling face, 

“Goodnight sis” She forced a smile and tried to leave, 

“Sis?” I called and she stopped, 

“I think you're forgetting

something”

“What?” 

“Here….” I pointed at the flower,