The sun illuminated the entire garden as the love of my life, Noah, stood nervously at the altar. His eyes reflected a sense of excitement and apprehension, a whirlwind of emotions became too evident in them. Adjusting his neck-tie, he stole glances at the aisle. The petals of the daisies lined its path.
Shortly, my sister, Anna, adorned in a mesmerizing white gown that flowed like the whispers of the wind, made her way towards the beautiful landscape. Unlike her usual self, she seemed excited and elated to be a part of such an auspicious union.
My sister’s smile painted a joyful atmosphere, something that nobody from the audience could dare escape. As she moved towards the altar, her gaze locked with the groom’s. Consequently, time seemed to freeze for the two of them.
As Anna made her way towards Noah, memories of moments shared between Noah and me began flooding my mind. Echoes of laughter, late-night conversations and heartfelt kisses reverberated within me. The contradictory emotions of satisfaction for their union and bittersweet nostalgia washed over me.
“They both look so beautiful. I know they were meant for each other from the very beginning,” remarked my mother, unsympathetic in her remark, since she was oblivious to my pain.
Vows were exchanged between the groom and the bride, each word resonating with promises of love and commitment, something I had hoped to experience when Noah had told me how much he loved me, a thought that didn’t escape me without painting a pathetic frown on my face.
There is nothing more painful than watching the person you love, holding somebody else’s hands and vowing to take them as their better half. Although I wanted nothing more than to let my pain abandon me in the form of tears, I had to stop myself for the sake of my older sister. She wouldn’t want to see me with tears on her big day.
Just like everyone else, I wanted to appear joyful and agog to bless the couple. The conversation, however, that I had with Noah the other day just couldn’t make it possible for me. Nonetheless, I stood up to walk towards the newly-married couple.
“Oh, Christie,” said my sister, opening her arms to embrace me. “I am so happy that you made it to my wedding.”
As soon as she wrapped her arms around me, the guilt of not being able to be happy for her tormented me even more. I wished I could’ve done something to overcome the disappointment that emerged from seeing her with somebody I had loved for the past ten years, but I couldn’t do anything about it. If anything, the best thing for me could’ve been to disappear.
Pretending to not know the cause of my grief, Noah gazed at my face with false pity before asking me, “Are you alright, sister-in-law?”
Through his deliberate attempt to address me as his sister-in-law rather than by my name, I understood that he was over me and didn’t want to bring up anything about the past. I wanted to seem aloof, but that only made me sadder.
“I am fine, brother,” I responded, even when that’s not what I wanted to say.
My sister finally let go of me and kissed me on both of my cheeks before expressing her gratitude over my ability to join her on her big day, “I don’t even know how our mother would’ve managed everything all by herself. I am so grateful for having you here.”
I nodded before forcing a smile and then retreated without congratulating the groom. His cold eyes, therefore, were fixated on me. It was clear he wasn't pleased to see me. He couldn’t say anything, not in front of all the people watching us.
More than hurt, I felt betrayed. How could he forget all those nights we’d been together, promising to spend the rest of our lives with each other? How could he not remember the promise ring that he had given me? There were so many questions that tormented me, but I knew I wouldn’t be getting any responses.
Frustrated, I turned to the bar and ordered enough drinks to ensure I couldn’t feel anything. Neither the hurt of being abandoned by the man I had loved with all my heart nor the pain of watching him with my own sister, I didn’t want any of it. I drank till I couldn’t bear to even stand anymore.
Before my butt would hit the hard floor, I felt the strong arms of someone grabbing onto me. To register the face of my rescuer, I looked up and found him to be none other than the man who was the cause of my aching heart, my brother-in-law, Noah Rutherford.
“What do you think you’re doing, Christie Jennings?” chided Noah, displeased with my behavior. “Don’t you dare make a scene!”
After rolling my eyes at him, I placed my palms over his chest and pushed him away before demanding to be left alone, something that annoyed the guy and compelled him to drop me on the floor.
“Ow,” I lashed out at the unruly man. “Did you really have to be this harsh?”
“Weren’t you dying to escape my arms?” retorted the man. “I simply fulfilled your wish.”
Being inebriated, it was next to impossible to get back to my feet, which was why I didn’t refuse when a handsome stranger offered his hand to me. By relying on his strength, I managed to get back to my feet, something that painted an unpleasant frown on Noah’s face, something that gave me immense pleasure. It was my mini-revenge.
To ensure Noah could feel the same pain that would seem like being stabbed by a thousand knives at the same time, I wrapped my arms around the stranger and urged him to take me away from the venue. My trick worked a little too well. Noah not only snatched me from the stranger but also gave him a black eye while bellowing, "Stay away from my woman!"
My woman? What? Was I hearing everything right?
The morning sunbeams were streaming through the bedroom windows, warm and golden, that covered everything with a soft glow. I slept in a bit later than usual, enjoying the serenity that had become a constant in my life. Life had changed in so many ways, and for the first time in what felt like forever, I was finally happy.I turned to my side and smiled at Seth, still sleeping beside me. His chest rose and fell in a steady rhythm, his face relaxed, and his hand rested near mine as if he unconsciously sought me even in his dreams. This was my life now—this love, this stability, this sense of belonging.A soft flutter in my stomach made me smile even wider. The secret I had been carrying for weeks was growing stronger, more real, and soon I would share it with Seth. This thought filled my heart with equal parts of excitement and nervousness, but mostly joy.I slipped out of bed without waking him, padding into the kitchen. The house was quiet, the silent kind that makes you feel at home
~Noah’s pov~The walk back to my apartment seemed to stretch endlessly. My feet moved in a mechanical sequence, one in front of the other, but my mind went round and round, reenacting the scene at Christie and Seth's house. Her words echoed louder than the traffic, louder than the distant hum of the city."I don't belong to you. I never did."I had been so sure—so certain—that if I just showed up, if I just made her see what we had, she would remember. That she would feel the same pull, the same ache that I had carried with me since the day we parted. But she hadn't. Her gaze had been steady, her voice firm, as she told me that she had moved on. That the new Christie didn't need me. Didn't want me.When I finally reached my apartment, I sank onto the couch without bothering to turn on the lights. The dim glow of the streetlamp outside cast long shadows across the room, fitting for how I felt inside.It was the first time in years that I allowed myself to think—really think—about every
I heard a knock. It was sharp and insistent against the quiet rhythm of our morning. I was at the sink, washing dishes, while Seth worked on something at the table. The sound jarred me, and for an instant, I hesitated. Something about it—urgent, almost aggressive—put me on guard."I will get that," Seth said, already standing up from his seat.I quickly dried my hands and trailed after him, wondering and afraid. He opened the door, and I was to confront the last person I could have expected to meet- Noa.He looked exactly as I recalled him: tall, broad-shouldered, blonde hair tousled. There was something in his eyes, though, that I had never seen before: desperation.Christie, he whispered aloud, his voice low but fervent, his eyes fixed hard on mine.I froze as if my breath was physically caught in my throat. It was to see a ghost, a fragment of a life that no longer exists for me. Seth tensed up beside me, his grip on the door's edge tightening."Finally, Noah," I said, my voice cra
The restaurant was warm and dimly lit. A faint aroma of garlic and freshly baked bread clung to the air. Seth sat across from me, as calm and steady as always, his fingers lightly tapping against the base of his wine glass. I studied him discreetly: a sharp line of his jaw, a slight crease between his brows when he was lost in deep thought. He looked utterly, amazingly tired, as if he wanted tonight different, better.I also wanted it.The past weeks were turbulent, and therefore a jumbled mass of feelings that I couldn't make sense of.Memories I thought I'd long since buried—the evanescent meetings with Noah, leftovers from a life that had belonged to someone else—emerged now to haunt me at odd moments. So long I had harbored these memories, allowing them a slice of myself. Now sitting here with Seth, I see just how much they took.Christie?" Seth broke into my thoughts, his voice soft but tinged with angst.I blinked, realizing that I had silently stared at him. "Sorry," I said qui
Seth had come down with a fever recently. Illness had washed the colour from his cheeks and put shadows under his eyes. More than his look, though, the silence that crept in during those days seemed to live in my head: distance, but not out of malice. More out of fear.I hovered by the door of our bedroom, hesitant to step inside. Seth had asked me to come in, his voice steady but with an edge of something I couldn’t quite place. Resignation, perhaps? Pain? I couldn’t tell. The thought sent a shiver down my spine. This was the man who had been my anchor, my unwavering support, and now he seemed so… tired.I entered at last, and he sat on the edge of the bed. His shoulders were slumped, heavy with a weight I didn't understand yet. He looked at me then, his dark eyes softer than usual but unmistakably determined. My stomach tightened at the look."Christie," he said, his voice calm but strained. "We need to talk."My heart sank. Those words—they were never good. They heralded endings, s
Walking home with Noah, I felt a lightness in my chest that I hadn't felt in so long. It was as if a weight had been placed upon one shoulder and then, in effect, had flipped to the other, if only for a fleeting moment. I laughed at something he said; in this case, not really listening to what he said, but to the comfort enfolding us. It was a cool evening air, adorned with a soft breeze that brushed my cheeks, and streetlights softly lit the path before us. I knew I should not have agreed to walk with him. I knew this was wrong. But Noah had this strange pull on me, something that was beyond explanation and resistant to stopping.His presence felt familiar and cozy, and at this moment I cleared all the mess and madness from my mind. I let myself enjoy it, let myself pretend everything was easy and matter-of-fact, despite knowing deep inside of me that it wasn't.I should have stepped back when approaching that house. Reality was slowly sinking in: where and what I was doing stood rig
The air was crisp in the afternoon, and I had to leave the workplace, my mind buzzing with routine as it has just completed. It was an ordinary day in all aspects, yet it felt off about it somehow. I don't know if it was the heavy clouds that hung low in the sky, threatening to break and pour rain anytime, or maybe it was the strange heaviness that I had been carrying with me these past few days—the weight that I couldn't explain. Seth has been so patient and loving, but I still felt. unsettled about something.I wasn't expecting to see him again-Noah. It had been unsettling enough the last time we met, but there he was, literally standing by the aisle of the same departmental store I wandered into, tossing items into a basket as if this were something absolutely normal in his world. My heart skipped a beat the moment I recognized him. It had resulted in betraying my body with a flush of heat that I couldn't ignore. I tried to calm my breathing, try and remind myself of everything Set
As we walked into that house that night, my brain would still glisten with the words spewed by Seth. All that weight, all that heaviness - Noah and those lies, manipulation, twisted web which life has become. My chest felt like it was stuck in some heavy fog, where nothing could be distinguished clearly, nothing trusted as what was thought to be known. Even Seth, the man who had been there for me, seemed at a distance somehow. The puzzle he'd given me, it seemed, was not pieced back together either; no matter how very hard I tried, those pieces wouldn't mesh.Seth treated me gently when he brought me home, like fragile glass that might break if one breathed too hard on it. And in his eyes, I saw the worry, the sadness, the hope that maybe, just maybe, this was the night that might change things between us. I had seen him trying everything to make me feel special, make me smile, and a part of me wanted to give him what he so desperately needed: a sign that I was coming back to him. Tha
I thought Seth was taking a leave from work for spending the day with me, which rather seemed to be a sweet gesture, but deep inside, upset me. We had been so tensed against each other lately without either of us being able fully to articulate what was nagging; it would always hang there in mid-air like an invisible barrier. While I would have liked to dissuade him from leaving, at the same time, I could not reject him. Seth had tried hard to make things be normal by bending over backward and doing all in his power; the least I could do was try to meet him halfway.We went out to a great little restaurant. It had a warm, cozy atmosphere. The low illuminations were rich in earth tones. After all, there isn't a setting more perfect for anyone who ever wanted to feel at ease. Couples were scattered all over the room, some laughing, some whispering low over glasses of wine, and it was one of those scenes-the kind of atmosphere which usually lulled me into a state of peace, but tonight mad