WAVES OF WANT

“That’s it, little girl,” he rasped, voice wrecked and rough, fingers digging into my hips hard enough to bruise as he held me pinned across his desk. “Take every goddamn inch. Let me feel how much you need this.”

My sister’s best friend’s dad had me bent over his leather blotter, skirt shoved up around my waist in wrinkled bunches, panties long gone somewhere on the floor—probably kicked under the chair or tangled near the door. The house was full—Lila and Chloe giggling downstairs over wine, their voices rising and falling like distant waves, music drifting up the stairs in lazy pulses, a cruel reminder of how wrong this was, how close the normal world still was.

But Mr. Harlan didn’t care. Not anymore.

He fucked me like he hated me for making him want this. Like every thrust was payback for the nights he’d lain awake, fists clenched in the sheets, thinking about the way my sundress had hugged my thighs at the last family barbecue—how the thin cotton had ridden up just enough when I laughed and reached for another drink. All that pent-up restraint, all those swallowed curses and averted eyes, poured out now in ruthless, punishing strokes that made my teeth chatter and my toes curl against the carpet.

The desk groaned beneath us with every slam of his hips. Papers slid sideways in slow, drunken drifts. A fountain pen rolled off the edge and clattered somewhere I couldn’t see. My palms were slick against the leather, sliding a little with each impact, nails scraping uselessly for purchase.

I whimpered his name—Mr. Harlan—because calling him anything else felt too intimate, too real, too much like claiming something I had no right to claim. He groaned low in response, a sound torn from somewhere deep, one big hand sliding up to clamp over my mouth, fingers pressing firm but not cruel.

“Shh. You want them to hear how wet my little forbidden slut gets for me?” His hips snapped harder, deeper, the angle shifting just enough to hit that spot that made white sparks explode behind my eyelids. “How you drip for a man old enough to be your father?”

I clenched around him at the words—hard, involuntary—shame and heat twisting together until I couldn’t tell which was winning, which was feeding the other. My nails clinched to his forearms where I could reach, digging half-moons into his skin through the rolled-up sleeves of his shirt. My body shook violently. And God help me, I pushed back for more—hips rocking desperately, chasing the brutal stretch, the burn, the fullness that made everything else disappear.

He leaned over me, chest pressed hot and heavy to my back, sweat-damp shirt sticking to my skin. His lips found my ear, breath ragged and scorching. “You’re mine now, Evie. Every time you walk through that door smiling at Chloe, you’ll feel me still inside you. Every time Lila hugs you goodbye, you’ll remember whose cock made you scream.”

The words sank into me like teeth. My orgasm hit without warning—shattering me from the inside out, body locking tight around him, trembling so hard the desk rattled louder. I bit my own lip bloody to keep quiet, copper flooding my tongue, tears stinging the corners of my eyes as wave after wave ripped through me.

He didn’t stop. Didn’t slow. Kept going, relentless, hips pistoning with single-minded fury, chasing his own release like it was the only thing left that mattered in the world. His grip on my hips tightened impossibly, fingers bruising deeper, marking me in places no one else would see. His breathing turned fractured—short, guttural sounds against my neck.

When he finally spilled inside me—hot, thick pulses that seemed to go on forever—he let out a choked curse, forehead pressed hard to my shoulder, body shuddering against mine. We stayed like that for one stolen heartbeat. Breathing hard and sweaty. His weight pinning me to the desk. My legs trembling so badly I thought they might give out. His cock still twitching inside me, softening slowly, every small aftershock sending fresh shivers through both of us.

Then he pulled out slow—agonizingly slow—the wet slide of him leaving me making me whimper again, soft and broken. I felt the immediate warm trickle down my inner thigh, obscene and undeniable. He fixed my skirt with hands that almost shook, smoothing the fabric down over my quivering skin with careful, almost tender strokes, like he was trying to put me back together even though we both knew it was impossible.

He leaned close one last time, lips brushing my hair, voice hoarse and wrecked. “Go back downstairs, baby. Smile pretty. Pretend you’re still good.”

I did.

Legs wobbly, knees threatening to buckle with every step, his cum still leaking down my thigh in slow, sticky trails, I fixed my hair in the hallway mirror with trembling fingers, smoothed strands that refused to behave, wiped the smear of lipstick from the corner of my mouth, forced my breathing to steady. I walked down those stairs like nothing had happened, like my body wasn’t still pulsing with the memory of him, like I wasn’t carrying him inside me in every possible way.

I dropped back onto the couch between Lila and Chloe. Crossed my legs carefully to hide the evidence. Laughed at Chloe’s joke—some dumb story about her ex—and nodded when Lila asked if I wanted more wine. My voice came out normal. Too normal.

But I felt him watching from the doorway.

Eyes dark and hungry.

Arms crossed casually over his chest, sleeves still rolled up, the faint red marks my nails had left hidden under fabric no one else would notice.

Already planning the next time he’d wreck me.

Some sins taste too fucking good to stop.

And I was never going to stop.