He Is Not The Same

After my encounter with Damon earlier, my body was getting sicker and weaker. I forced myself to get up after sitting on the cold floor for a long time. I dragged my feet towards the toilet, where I placed some particular medicine in the medicine box.

 

I opened the medicine box and took out a few bottles of a particular medicine that I usually took when I felt pain in my body and head. I know that Damon doesn't know anything about the pain I've been suffering from for the past two years. And I don't think he'll want to know anything about me anymore.

 

It's like I'm nothing in his eyes anymore. I remember the first time I complained to Damon about the pain I felt in my head, but he accused me of seeking attention from him.

 

At first, I admitted that I was seeking his attention because I felt Damon's attitude had changed lately towards me, becoming more indifferent and cold. So, I tried to spoil him to get his attention again and have him back. But in fact, he hated my attitude of deliberately seeking his attention.

 

I thought my headache was just an ordinary pain, but the pain was a reality, and Damon didn't care about me at all. Because of that, I always did things by myself without asking for his help anymore. And a shocking thing happened to me after I went to the doctor that day. The doctor told me that I was diagnosed with brain cancer. Of course, that news almost made my heart stop beating right then and there. I never imagined it would happen to me—brain cancer.

 

I still remember how protective Damon was of me. If I scratched something and bled a little, Damon was the first person who would panic.

 

"Are you okay? Should we go to the hospital?"

 

I'll never forget how he was so possessive and protective of me. However, now he was freezing and always made me feel like a nobody to him. I don't know what has happened to her, what has turned her into this. If only he had given me one reason, maybe I would understand and be able to accept his attitude. But I have no idea what happened to her. Isn't that a strange thing?

 

After swallowing a few grains of medicine, I returned to the living room and lay on the sofa. My eyes felt too heavy, so I chose to close my eyes for a while. I was feeling extremely anxious at the moment. I have so many things on my mind.

 

I jolted awake from my sleep, even though I was still on the sofa instead of my bed. Maybe I was so tired last night that I fell asleep on the couch until morning.

 

I chose to lie down for a while while gathering my life. After enough, I got up from my bed to prepare breakfast before going out this morning. Now, I have to continue my life by preparing my breakfast. In the past, I would make breakfast for Damon, and we could have breakfast together in the morning. However, now I'm on my own. No more Damon asking me to make breakfast for him.

 

I just made toast with my favorite jam even though I wasn't hungry. It smelled so delicious. But I had to force myself to eat anyway to have the energy to do today's activities. Maybe it's because of the effect of last night, where Damon intimidated me again with his arrogant attitude.

 

My hands stir the warm tea and start sipping it little by little. After breakfast, I wash the dirty container used for my breakfast. Then, I clean myself up and prepare to go to the hospital to see how my father is doing today.

 

By now, I was already at the hospital and was heading to Father's hospitalization room. I hope his condition improves today because there is nothing else I want right now except for my father's recovery. When I got there, the nurse said that my father's condition had improved slightly after undergoing surgery yesterday, although he was still unconscious.

 

"Nurse, please keep me informed if anything happens to my father."

 

"Of course, Miss, you will be kept informed."

 

"Thank you." Once again, I peeked at my father through the door window and confirmed that he was fine there.

 

After leaving the hospital, I chose to take a walk to get some fresh air. Today's weather was very sunny, and the air was warm. My feet kept moving, and I didn't care where I was going.

 

Until I finally arrived at a street with a cafe that was very familiar to me. From where I stood, right across the street, there was a cafe that was my favorite place with Damon. We used to visit that cafe often.

 

Memories of the past flashed through my mind, where we always spent our dates at that cafe. I still remember Damon's favorite food at that cafe because every time I go there, he always asks me to order that food. I smiled bitterly, remembering it all. I don't think Damon will ever come to that cafe again. I don't know about me now. Do I have to go in there and relive my memories with Damon? Ah, I don't think so.

 

As I was about to turn my body to leave the place, my eyes accidentally saw someone who had just come out of the cafe. I recognized that figure. Damon came out of the cafe with a woman I knew was his mistress, Cora. They seemed to be smiling happily, but to me, it was a painful smile.

 

"How could Damon bring that woman to our favorite place?" I ask bitterly.

 

I thought he would never return to that cafe, considering it was our favorite place to date. I was wrong. Damon had very deliberately brought her there.

 

I squeezed my hand very hard. It hurt my heart to see her. I didn't like seeing them laughing happily on top of my misery.

 

I chose to leave this place. As I was about to turn to go, my eyes met Damon's piercing gaze at me. It made it difficult for me to breathe correctly. Finally, I strengthened myself to be able to leave that place immediately and not care about Damon's eyes, who seemed to be surprised by my presence there.

 

All I know right now is that the Damon of today is not the man that I love and loves me. The current Damon is a man who only wants to hurt me.