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64: Despair

Author: Meminger
last update Last Updated: 2025-10-05 21:10:30

Joshua’s POV

I was still too shocked for everything to sink in and for me to truly realize what had just happened. Cassandra had left me; she was no longer my girlfriend, no longer a part of my life.

It was almost laughable, considering everything we had been through, to imagine that we would end up like this in such a pathetic manner. She said she couldn’t handle my issues with my son and ex-wife anymore.

I couldn’t believe that this curse was following me even when I was with Cassie. After all the destruction I had caused in the past, that whole story was still tearing me apart to this day.

It felt as if it had been destined for me to be a miserable piece of shit, as if I didn’t deserve true love like everyone else had the right to. It was as if I was being punished constantly. I sighed and lifted my head. I didn’t want these thoughts to haunt me, so I tried to keep the flow of my life going.

Not only that, but I tossed the beautiful bouquet of flowers into the nearest trash bin be
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