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‘‘Beauty is all around you, all you have to do is open your eyes and see it’’

Dinner was boring as usual; it was just the sound of forks and spoons clinking on the plate as we all savored whatever was left inside our plates. The only time I ever felt alive was when I was eating. Food made me feel whole, it made feel like looking up to the next meal.

There was a conversation going on around me, I made myself immune to whatever was being said, I blocked the words from reaching my ears. I had already given up, died inside a long time ago, the only thing I was doing right now was feeling up my body. I did not have a soul.

I focused on the sounds the fork and knife made as it hit my plate and objectified my food as I became totally absent from everything that was happening around me.

A hand tapped my shoulder and I gasped loudly in shock.

‘‘Sorry, but are you okay?’’ It was my step mama again, what was she even trying to do, by being good to me out of the blue.

‘‘I am fine,’’ I repli