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I mouthed an awful goodnight to everyone at the table and didn’t stay behind long enough to hear wherever they would, say. I was just done with humanity and everything about them.

‘‘Don’t forget about tomorrow, its along day,’’ my papa screamed as hr shouted goodnight too.

IO smiled and nodded my head before taking the flight of stairs towards my room.

I got in closed the door and laid on the floor flat, with my head facing the wall.

This room was my safe place, it was one of the only places in the world where I felt whole,

The ceiling board was familiar as usual, the normal designs, the walls boring as ever. Boring and me always belonged in the same sentence, my life was boring, terribly boring, nothing about it could spark or raise eyebrows, it wasn’t even spiced up a little.

I closed my eyes and just lay there for almost an hour, I wanted to feel nothing, I wanted to be numb to emotion, immune to love or hurt. I didn’t want to be human anymore.

My headache was getting even w