Jon buzzed me up to his apartment and he was standing in front of his opened door, smiling with his arms crossed. He wore gray joggers with a peeled designer's logo at the knee and a faded, stained T-shirt. That gray joggers made him look so sexy and I immediately got turned on. I mean, this is someone I had forbidden sex with in the pouring rain and I instantly felt butterflies in my stomach and surge of warm liquid between my legs.
"Can I come in? I brought treats," I said, holding up the beer and the videos."Nah," he said, still smiling."Please? Pretty please?" I said in a toddler kind of way.He shook his head and laughed, but he didn't give in."Can we please just hang out tonight?" I asked, "I just want to spend time with you. As friends. Strictly friends. Is that bad?"He heaved a sigh and moved over just enough to let me squeeze by him. "Tessy. You're trouble."As I got in, I surveyed his stereotypical bachelor-like messed up sitting room. Books and newspaper were just all over the couch and on the floor. A half eaten hamburger just laid there on his coffee table. I peeked into his room and his bed was unmade, the sheets just laid annoyingly out of place. A large fish tank just sat next to the television, it looks like it needs a good scrubbing.He saw me take it all in."Wasn't expecting company.""I know. But you wouldn't reply my calls. I needed to take drastic measures.""I know you and your drastic measures," he said, pointing at a leather study-like seat. "Have a seat.""Come on, Jon. I think we both can handle sitting on the couch together. Nothing's gonna happen."It was a lie, and we both know it.Goodness me, Jon is hot, so hot. As he reached across from me to pick up a beer, I could smell the shampoo in his hair—smelt like burning lavender in incense.The way he gulps his beer made my mouth water and I suddenly had flashes of the night in the garden under the rain. I remembered how those lips of his were working delicately and his hands— Jon's hands are mighty and so manly. The fact that he's into tech made me wonder how he got those hands from or he probably visits the gym a lot. The crucifix tattoo on his wrist made his hands look even hotter.Staring at Jon, I feel so much pride that I actually fucked this guy. Here he is engrossed in Barry Allen and here I am engrossed in his physique. Max is handsome quite alright, way more handsome than Jon is. But. Jon has this wildness to him, he's built like a super hero with a face of a super villian. I love the tingling feeling I get between my legs when I look at him.Jon turned and caught me gawking. He dropped his drink, heaved a sigh and swayed his body like he's tired. "Oh c'mon Tess." He said"What?" I asked, pretending to be confused."You promised?""I know, but I can't help it.""Jeez." He said and continued with the movie.I took a long drink of my beer to calm the sexual pressure Jon is mounting on me indirectly. "It's not a crime to admire someone, you know.""You've been staring for a long time. You needed a break." He said while laughing."Maybe we both need a break.""Tessy, you're really something else."I try reaching for his neck and he stopped me halfway by grabbing my hand and instead of dropping my hand, he kept staring at me. . .. . .Perhaps I made the first move because we are just in front of his bedroom breathing heavily and removing each other's dress. I backed him as he unzips my dress, he put his tongue into my ear and whispered with some kind of hunger in his voice, "My God. Tess you're really trouble."That alone gave me the motivation that I needed. And as he slides his hand into my side zipper and cupped my breast, I let out an intensed moan. I've missed this, I wanted this again and I'm having it right now.He stripped me naked, dropped me on his bed and stepped away from the bed, and completely removed his clothes, walked out of the room naked and came back drinking a glass of water. I was in awe of him. . . Of his confidence. "Tessy, you're so beautiful," Jon said as he looked at me hungrily.I smiled,"I know right. You are gorgeous too."He dropped the glass of water on the bedside table then came back to bed. He started kissing my legs and laps, then worked with his tongue in between my thighs. I shivered and I love it so much. The unique thing about Jon— what set him different from the other men I've been with, is his patience, his delicate touch and how he prioritizes giving me adequate pleasure. He makes love like it's an art for him—an artwork that needs attention, devotion and discipline like some sort of worship.As my body quivered, I moaned in ecstasy and I felt my soul leave my body. "Where were you right now, Tess?" he asked.That was the second time he's calling me Tess without the 'y' .I smiled because I have no words in my mouth at this moment.He parted my legs and as he slowly slides in, he moaned my name, "ohhhh Tessssyyy."Any one who's watching us right now is seeing two perfect bodies intertwined in passion. A beauty to anyone's sight.I replied him, "Jon, you're so good."The throbbing, the kissing, the whispering, the moaning, and the locked fingers are like choreography. Each of us doing our part but matching each others rhythm.Jon and I are making our second big 'mistake.' And, I have to say, I like him better on a dry, soft bed.As I lay in bed naked beside Jon, grimacing about the event that just happened, I can't help but think about why and how I actually got attracted to Jon in the first place. I turned to look at him, to study his face because I want to take in every slightest detail of his stoic face. I want to touch him but I fear that I will wake him up, instead, I made use of my eyes in touching him. When Max and I got engaged in february, I vowed to myself that I would be true to him forever. Although we didn't have much in common, He is still an amazing person and a good man. The irony here is, Sandra introduced Max to me. They were both first-year law students at NYU, and because She insisted that she wasn't in school to date, but rather to learn, she naively passed the most eligible bachelor on campus, her friend Max, to me. I remember seeing Max for the first time, he wore blue jeans, white polo and a lumber jacket. His blonde hair glimmered as the green dimmed light of the bar shone on it.
For years, I knew Jon as Max's boring friend from Tennessee. While Jon went into engineering, got stoned and settled for tech, Max went to law school. The two has been closed since junior high and even though Max never said they were best friends, Jon, always claims they are best friends. When Max and I got engaged, he had to phone Jon to bestow the honor of being the best man upon him. When they two had finished yucking it up for a while, Jon asked to speak to me, which I obliged. He congratulated me with some other remarks about promising not to get the groom loaded and wasted the night before the wedding. We've never met in person, although, Max's seldomly talked about him. Thinking about it now, Jon should have promised not to sleep with me before I and Max's wedding. Max, Sandra and I later met with Jon in a restaurant for dinner so that we all can get to know each other properly— The groom, bride, maid of honor and the best man kind of meet-and-greet thing . That was the firs
I got home from work by a quarter past six, picked up my phone to call Jon. On a second thought, I think I will show up at his apartment.These days all I think about is Jon, what Jon is doing, what Jon is thinking, if he is thinking about me. I'm obsessed with him. And, ever since that night on his bed while Barry Allen was blasting in his television, Jon stopped resisting and stopped referring to us as a mistake. The problem is, he seldomly initiated contact. I bet he's being careful because of Max, apart from that, he is always available when I asked to see him—whether is during lunch in the middle of the day or at night whenever Max is working late. All my free time involved Jon. I fantasied about him a lot. The sex with him are over the top stuff I thought only existed in movies like All shades of Grey.I got dressed in a mini floral gown that made my breast dangle freely because I never wear a bra. As a matter of fact, I hate them. To me, a bra is a tool for victimization. l
An hour passed, and Jon hasn't arrived. Suddenly, the bedroom door's knob started rattling and it opened. I heard an unmistakable female giggle and Jon's low voice. It is so obvious that he has company. I scrambled to get dressed, but couldn't do so before Jon and a red-head woman walked inside the bedroom. She's pretty, tall, and worse, she's wearing IVD Club's foot wear from three seasons ago. We all just stood there, staring at each other, staring at me who's still completely naked. "Tessy—you scared the shit out of me," Jon said. He's not even looking scared enough as far as I'm concerned. "My doorman didn't mention you were up here."As I was about to wear one of Jon's dirty T-shirt that was laying on the floor, then I caught the girl eyeing me. It was more like in an appalling manner—an envious once-over."I guess he forgot," I hissed."I'll take my leave," the red-head said, looking helpless like a tortoise turned upside down. "You better do that," I said, pointing toward
I can see clearly that he meant what he said. I can't believe it—that this is how it will end. "Is that what you really want?" I asked in hopes for another dose of positive change. He looked at me and laughed with contempt. "Tell me something Tessy. Has this ever been about what I wanted?" "Excusez-moi", I said. "You're talking like you haven't been enjoying every second of it.""It's been fun," he said casually."Fun? Just Fun?". I can't believe it ."Of course. Fun. A blast. A time of my life," Jon said. "What else do you want from me, Tess." He looked at me with sadness in his eyes, and I noticed he didn't include the 'y' in 'Tessy'. He only calls me 'Tess' during sex. Oh my goodness! Is Jon trying to tell me something? Is this a hint for me to say the "L" word first?"I want you to want me. For more than just fun," I said looking at him with puppy-doe eyes. He sighed and shook his head, "Okay, Tess. I want you. I want you all to myself. Happy now?"Exhaustively, he ran his
I breezed along the wedding plan—adding finishing touches to the wedding plans, cross checking the guest list, surveying the venue, re-doing the same thing over again. And, returning home to Max after having sweaty, intensed sex with his best man. Honestly, I really don't know how to go about my break up with Max so I just occupy myself with the wedding arrangements. In the quest of finding a sign to wed Max or abort mission, I invited the priest who will be wedding Max and I to dinner. I didn't have anything in mind to discuss with him, I just invited him with the mindset that something will turn up and a conversation that will lead to the final conclusion about my wedding will come up, but he cancelled at the last minute. The moment the priest cancelled, I knew that I have to break up with Max, and the sooner I do it, the better for everyone, including him. Because if it isn't a sign from God, then it's a sign from the devil. This will really be a hard hit on Max, worse, he will
I arrived at Jon's apartment and I reached for the door which is slightly opened, he is on a call and I heard something that sounds like, "oh c'mon Alex."Alex? What the actual fuck! That little, tiny, scrawny, cringe worthy, pale looking human with no zero fashion taste called Alex! The Alex that walked in on me naked in my Jon's room, is the same Alex that he is on the phone with? I thought we've settled this issue? I thought we've agreed that I'm calling off the wedding. I mean, Alex isn't worthy to be Jon's other woman! I stormed into the parlor, snatched the ridiculous phone from Jon's hand and said into the phone, "bye Alex. I'm here with my man now!" "Oh c'mon Tess." Jon said casually."You promised me, Jon," I said as I tossed his phone on the couch. "Promised what?""Oh puh. . . . Pleassseee. I'm calling off the wedding. It's you and I from now on." I replied."So, what promise? Tess." He asked again.Suddenly, it dawned on me that there was never a promise. So I decided t
For some days now, I've been feeling less of myself, less of Tessy Johnson. Going to work now, it's like a burden—I wake up so late even when I go to bed early, I'm always dizzy at work especially when I stare at the monitor for too long, I'm always tired and I yawn like someone who hasn't eaten for days."What's up with you, Tessy?" Vanessa asked. She just walked into my office as she normally does when she wants to dish out juicy gossip. "I'm okay," I replied and continued with my work. "You look flush and— . . . "."Is it hot in here? It is, right?" I asked, interrupting her. I took an old magazine on my desk and started fanning myself."No it's not. You sure you're okay? You look red, she asked with a mother-like tone that reminded me of my Aunt Stephanie."Girl, I don't know. A bit tired lately." " You prolly haven't been getting enough sleep," She said. Looking at me inquisitively.Which I know it isn't true because I have been sleeping fine. Max is mostly out of the city fo