TALIA Tom came in again the next day, and then again on Tuesday, when he convinced me to go on a date with him that night. After what Valerie had told me, I began to feel suspicious of his intentions. But I figured that one date wouldn’t kill me. We agreed for him to pick me up that night at six in front of my apartment. After work, I had my personal training session after two days off on Sunday and Monday. I began to understand that most of the pack shut down those two days. We started the session off with stretches and some warm-up exercises. Then we practiced some more meditation. After that, Xander had me do some weighted exercises. “You know, I’ve been keeping track, and you don’t seem to be progressing on the weights at all. I’m becoming concerned because werewolves normally progress fairly quickly, and it isn’t normal that you’d still be at the same level as you started almost a month ago, especially with us training together five days a week.” “What could cause that?” I ask
TALIA After the date, I asked him to drop me at the packhouse. I rang the doorbell and Blake answered, standing next to Jasmine. “Talia, what are you doing here?” he asked. “I came to see Lucy,” I replied. “Okay, I’ll go get her, one second,” he said, climbing the stairs. I then turned to Jasmine. “Jasmine, I have a question, and can you be honest?” “Sure,” she replied, raising her eyebrows and came closer to me. “Do you know of anyone that ever settled down with someone who wasn’t their mate, except obviously Lucy and Luke and you and Blake?” She crossed her arms and looked upward, appearing lost in thought. After a moment, she finally said, “The only other person I know is Tyler’s mom.” “Why did Tyler’s mom settle down with someone who wasn’t her mate?” “Her mate rejected her because she had Tyler. But it ended up being for the best because he was a really bad person.” “My mate might be a bad person too,” I said. “But what if I can’t find another mate to mark me after I rej
ALEXANDER My mom finally seemed to be feeling slightly better. The hospital prescribed her some strong antidepressants and tranquilizers, so strong that she was no longer able to shift into her wolf. “I don’t care. I have no reason to shift into my wolf anymore.” My mom sighed as I finally drove her home after being away for over a month. I’d hired nurses to keep watch over her when I couldn’t, and one of them would be starting the next day. I helped my mom to her bedroom and helped her lie down in her bed. It was so strange having our roles reversed after she’d always been the one taking care of me my whole life. But everything was strange in my life. This was normal compared to everything else. Yes, how sad, my mom barely able to function as an adult was “normal” to me. Fuck my life. I sat down on a chair next to her bed while she got settled. “Will you be okay, Mom, if I go work on some things?” I asked. “Alex”—she stared at me—“you seem unhappy.” “Of course I’m unhappy, Mom.
TALIA The day after my date, I woke up to my alarm shaking me out of the dead of sleep. After I'd gotten it shut off, I rolled over, feeling uncomfortably overheated, and threw the covers off me. The cold air felt like heaven against my damp, flushed skin. God, I was horny. And then I knew—I’d gone into heat again. Once again, my skin was sensitive to every touch. As I slid my hands along my legs and stomach, I couldn't help but let out a desperate groan. I ached with so much need to be touched, caressed, and filled. What a pity that I hadn’t invited Tom over after dinner. He could have been lying in bed next to me right now, relieving the desperate, swollen throb between my legs. I’d made a huge mistake acting so virtuous when that didn’t serve me at all. I began recalling my dream. Just like last time, it’d been so vivid. I recollected all the details of Alex’s amazing body. God, why had I ever wanted to reject him? He was so ripped, and the way he kissed me, so passionately, so
TALIA The next day, I returned to work feeling much better. I was working the late shift that day. When I came in, Valerie pulled me aside. “You were in heat yesterday?” she asked. “Does that mean you have a mate?” “Yes, I do,” I admitted, realizing there was no way around it now. “Then what was that whole thing with Tom? Why were you going on dates with Lucy’s cousin when you have a mate?” I sighed and said, “Because I want to reject my mate. I don’t want to be with him. Lucy was just trying to help by finding me a replacement mate.” She raised her eyebrows and said, “Well, there’s a story I’d like to hear.” “Maybe another time.” Lucy came in not too long after me, late as usual. Punctuality was clearly not one of her positive qualities. I mostly worked the front of the house while she helped Valerie put together pastries in the back. After we closed for the evening, I walked with Lucy toward the packhouse since I had to walk in that direction to get to my apartment anyway. “W
TALIA The next day, I was on the early shift and was more than ready to leave when I punched out at one thirty. I had my regular personal training at two that day where Xander and I worked on meditation, and he taught me different fighting moves in my human form. “Tomorrow, I want us to start training in your wolf form. I’ll be here supervising, so you shouldn’t worry about your wolf doing anything crazy. I’ve been trained in de-escalation and containing savage wolves. But usually, wolves only become savage when you live mostly in that form, so you really shouldn’t worry. Plus, I’m sure the meditation has been helping.” “Okay,” I agreed, not wanting to tell him the real reason, preferring he believe his own explanation. “Great. I’m starting to think that might be part of the reason you’re not improving. It might be because you’re suppressing your wolf form, and that’s where us werewolves get our strength. It’s not natural to live only in your human form.” I nodded. “Have you gone
TALIA Alex stared at me for a long time. It was completely silent as we looked into each other’s eyes. Finally, Alex responded, “Okay, Talia, I will let him back. I’m sorry I banished your friend.” He paused and took a deep breath. His eyes filled with emotion, and he continued, “But I hope you understand why I did it. When I saw the two of you together, it was the most painful thing I’d ever experienced in my life. Goddess, Talia, I’m in love with you. I know we haven’t known each other long, but I would do anything for you. To me, you are perfect. And seeing you with someone else—I can’t think of anything that could hurt more except maybe you dying. That’s the only thing I can think of that would hurt me more.” I sensed his pain, the same pain I felt the day that it happened. It wasn’t as sharp this time, clearly having dulled with time, but it was still there. He was still hurt by the incident. “Thank you for letting my friend back into your pack.” I took his hand in mine, feelin
JASMINE Being a warrior was becoming harder, and I really began to question whether it was worth it anymore. Blake was always so encouraging, and the way he believed in me was infectious. But after spending the day with Charlie harassing me during physical training, strategy, and planning class, and cleaning the gym as part of our warrior duty (where Charlie made me clean the toilets, as usual), we had sparring as the last part of the day. I couldn’t wait to finally be done in two hours. He started the session off as normal, telling us to go for a mile run, and then he had us do a round of burpees, jumping jacks, and push-ups before he paired us off. I was surprised when he didn’t have me do extra of anything, thinking that maybe the rest of the day would go smoothly. He paired me with a guy named Rob who I mostly got along with. We went through all of the different moves as he barked them out, and he didn’t even make a single negative comment to me! The session couldn’t have been go