Chapter 45

ANASTASIA

Denver didn’t speak to me until we got to the apartment description Drake gave him. He is trying to respect my decision, and that’s all I want at the moment.

I need alone time in my head.

I need to calm the pounding in my chest and the constant constriction in my heart.

I should stop my stupid heart from believing that he'll come around. That one day, he’d feel a silver of what I feel for him, but I’ve only been chasing a void.

An impossibility.

I’ve been clinking my nails, and they all hurt badly now, but I still can’t stop doing it because I’m nervous, maybe anxious too.

Maybe deep down, I really want to see them. I truly love to have them back in my life. I want to meet them and maybe forgive them so we can all start over.

It isn’t going to take anything to forgive them, right?

We’re still inside the car since he stopped in front of the apartment. I’m contemplating going out or not.

Or maybe this is a bad idea; we should turn around and go back home.

“You need to come dow