LOGINThe dorm fell quiet when evening came as I sat on my bed with my laptop open, pretending to study. The truth was, I hadn’t absorbed a single word on the screen.The memory of Ian’s last message still pulsed in the back of my mind, I could barely read a damn book in the library. The pages in the books were his words, he was taking over me completely.‘If you don’t come tonight, I’ll come to you’I’d deleted it, blocked his number, and told myself that was the end of it. That was supposed to be the end of it.Another number pinged me, an unknown one. “You blocked me? I’m outside your dorm and you better come down here or I’m barging in and letting everyone know who you belong to”I stood and peeked through the blinds, there he was standing right there. What.the.hell.A black car was parked right across the lawn, the headlights were off but I could see the faint silhouette of someone in the driver’s seat. My stomach flipped.Fear and a mix of excitement clouded my nerves, for some reason
As his breathing slowed, I stared at the ceiling, my eyes burning. The darkness made it easier to pretend, to imagine that the world outside this room didn’t exist, that my heart hadn’t already betrayed the person lying next to me.Jake shifted slightly in his sleep, his hand finding mine under the blanket. He squeezed once, unconsciously, and my chest ripped open all over again. A tear slid down my cheek.“I’m sorry,” I whispered into the dark. He didn’t stir.The clock ticked softly on the desk, the only sound in the room. Every second felt too long.I wanted to believe I could make it right, that if I just loved him harder, tried harder, maybe I could bury the parts of me that wanted something forbidden.But no matter how tightly I held onto Jake, part of me was still standing in that dark theatre, trembling under a love I should never have touched.Jake had walked me to class, holding my hand the whole way. His touch should have steadied me, but all I could think of was how undese
My skin still tingled from where Ian had touched me, but the warmth that once thrilled me now burned like shame. Every heartbeat echoed his words, I love you, please don’t leave me looping in my head until I wanted to scream. When the driver stopped in front of the dorms, I hesitated before paying him. For a second, I almost asked him to keep driving, to take me anywhere but here, anywhere I wouldn’t have to face my reflection but I didn’t, instead I forced a smile, thanked him, and stepped out into the cold night air.The campus was quiet, my heels clicked against the pavement, echoing through the courtyard. I could still taste Ian’s cologne on my skin. It made me want to scrub myself clean.By the time I reached my door, my stomach twisted with nausea. I closed it softly behind me and leaned against it, pressing my palms flat against the wood. My heart was racing again from guilt. The same guilt that had been growing for weeks.Jake’s photo sat on my desk, the one we took when I v
Class was a blur, I could barely concentrate. I kept thinking about Jake and Ian. I know I shouldn't reply to his message and block him right away if that would return my sanity but I couldn't bring myself to. I glanced over at Ann across the class, before I brought out my phone to type a message to Ian. Ann and I arrived late, hence the class getting filled which is why we had to sit separate. “I miss you too, I know I should but I can't bring myself to stop thinking about the kiss” A reply came instantly, like he had been waiting for my text. “I love you Felicia, please don't leave me. I would’ve married you if I had met you before your sister” Phew! He wasn't gonna make this easy. I tucked my phone back into my purse but not before telling him I’ll meet him at the cinema in town tonight. I’ll just wait for Ann to leave for hers and I’ll get dressed and head out. As soon as the final bell rang, I hastily packed up my belongings, my heart racing with anticipation. I co
I groaned, dragging my pillow over my face. Every time I shut my eyes, it replayed Jake’s hand on my waist, the way his breath hitched before he kissed me, the tension between us”How was I supposed to act normal after that?“Girl, are you alive in there?” Felicia’s voice echoed from the other side of the room, followed by the sound of her rummaging through my wardrobe. “Because if you’re still sleeping, I swear…”“I’m up!” I yelled, voice muffled against the pillow. Then, lower, to myself, “how did you get in here?”“Good, because we have a whole Monday to survive. Also, you sleep like an elephant, I knocked as long as I could yet no response, thank God for the spare key”Anna turned from the closet, holding up two outfits, one a plaid skirt and cropped sweater combo, the other a sleek all black ensemble. “Which says ‘I’m here to slay, not to suffer through group projects’?”I peeked out from the pillow. “Definitely the black, you look like you came to break hearts and submit essays.
“It’s good to be back,” I said, the words slipping out before I could stop them. “I hope I didn’t miss much.”Jake grinned, his eyes twinkling. “You didn’t,” he said, adjusting his backpack on one shoulder as we walked down the quiet hallway. “Though I’ll admit, campus was a little boring without you around.”I laughed surprise from the way his tone made something warm unfurl in my chest, we had only met a few weeks ago and it was brief, but somehow our conversations seemed to flow. We slowed down when we got to my dorm room, i stared up at him and I couldn’t help but admire what I saw. He tilted his head slightly. “Hey, I’ve got this thing with my friends this weekend,” he said. “It’s gonna be nice. Music, food, maybe a bonfire if the weather behaves. Do you mind coming along?”I blinked. “A thing with your friends?” My brain scrambled for context, what did that mean? A party? A date? Some kind of group hangout where I’d be the odd one out?Jake chuckled, sensing my hesitation. “Don







