Why does he have to end it now?, He left me at a vulnerable state, "time to go* he whispered in my hears before standing, It seemed like ages but i finally responded, and in no time I found myself at the entrance of my house, my joy knew no bounds, I never knew I would be this happy coming back home.
But I still feel queasy about Kate's sudden disappearance, Mr grumpy over here wouldn't give me an answer to her whereabout, ever since we left the enormous building he hasn't uttered a word.
I knew he wanted to get rid of me, and it's a miracle that I am still alive and well, to be with a mafia for hours without being killed, and I was at my worst, I guess I should thank him for that.
"Thanks, for letting me live, I knew I have troubled you quite alot….. these past few hours with you has been…. both horrible and entriging, I never knew ...my first kiss and ….attempt sex would be with …. Ehmm a mafia boss, never in my widest dream".
Why did I say that, jeez Lily why can't you be normal, just leave the car, thank your stars you can walk, leave!!!!!, My inner voice screamed at me, but I couldn't get myself to move an inch, I just wanted him to say something in return.
I waited for a reply but it seems he won't reply, maybe I should just give up I am so disappointed, I would have listened to my conscience and left, but my heart wouldn't let me, it's a losing game anyway.
Hmm I bowed my head in disappointment as I made attempt to leave the car…" please, wait for me" he said without looking at me, does he mean I should wait outside the car or something?.
what does he mean by wait for me,?, before I could process the word,he leaned close to me and gave me a slight kiss on the lip, I leaned in for more, but he was gone like he wasn't there at all
the door was opned in a swift, he stood there with a poker face signalling me to leave, I hesitated at first, is this a good bye?, I should just leave, I am home now and that's all that matters.
I came out of the car, walking slowly and hesitantly towards the front door, I could hear his pitapat movement, he really wanted to get rid of me that badly, get a grip of yourself lily, just ring the bell and everything will come to end, I said to myself
I rang the bell severally but no one responded, I guess they were all out, it's already 1pm, that means the spare keys were under the carpet, Mr grumpy, already left and I didn't have the chance to ask him his name.
I need to call Kate, I hope she's ok, I tried calling her but it diverted to a voice message, " hey Kate, where have you been, I have been trying to reach you for ages, what happened last night, please return my calls, I am really worried".
I hope she's ok, I haven't seen her since yesterday,when she left with the strange guy at the club, I need to take a cold shower, it's been a long weird day, hmm these clothes would help me remember Mr grumpy, I need to keep it safe, he might come to me after a millions years Asking for the money back.
After taking a cold bath, I felt relaxed, and my conscience was at ease, I could start all over, first I need to eat something, I am famished, luckily there were leftovers in the refrigerator Mac and cheese.
I could eat a whole bowl right now, it's been twenty minutes and Kate hasn't returned my calls, maybe she's busy, with her newly found friend, or maybe she's in trouble the Kate I know would never get into trouble,she learnt judo, and loved fighting.
She has a black belt now, I have seen her fight a park of hefty men that were armed, with no bruise sustained, with her I am totally invisible, so maybe I should just sleep over it, she's ok, nothing can happen to the almighty Kate.
If she doesn't respond when I wake up, I would visit her to know if she is ok, I guess I need a little sleep, I took my plate to the sink, as usual there's a torn of dirty dishes to attend to.
I wouldn't dare leave them unattended, I had to tidy the dishes before going to bed, " izzy pizzy" taking care of the dishes is the most easiest chore so far, compared to laundry, I volunteered to take care of the dishes, while my mom does the laundry.
In no time I was done with the dishes, and I guess it's to hit the bed next, I hope to feel allot more better, when I wake up, I changed into a loose cloths while I folded the clothes, Mr grumpy bought for me, it's the only thing left of him.
Though he is scary sometimes, but I enjoyed his company and silly jokes, his cute face when he's said , it felt like I have known him for a long time,, hmm I wished he hugged me before he left
"Please wait for me", what does he mean by 'wait for me', wait that mean he would come back for me?, If he would, I would probably wait for him, ever since I met him at the club I knew it was love at first sight, I would love to see him again.
What have I gotten myself into, I am only sixteen years, and just finished highschool, it's just the beginning of my journey and I am already falling apart he would never want me, he probably kissed me, since we didn't have sex, that's just men for you
He's a gangster, and his is a fine looking man, every woman would tremble just by looking at him, elegant and beautiful woman would fall at his feet I am no match for him.
I have zero percent chance of being with him, I should just appreciate the fact that I am alive, and my first kiss was with a man that fits my list of a perfect boyfriend.
I always fantasize a fine looking man beside me, who was calm, sweet and romantic when he was with me, and when he's outside, he's a bad boy, with a leather jacket, I adore men with long hair, and Mr grumpy had a very beautiful brown hair.
Oh my goodness, sleep lily I grabbed a pillow, as a cuddle buddy, For the main time as I pictured my Mr perfect, in my mind, indeed you don't know how important a person is until you loose them, I hope I haven't lost him.
I woke up to a ton of messages and calls from Kate, how did I sleep all theough,? Luckily, she's ok. She lost her phone last night in the club, hmm careless as ever, well that's not my problem anymore, thank goodness she is ok, I had imagined the worst with time . But I need to return her call, to ask how her night went, then find out Mr grumpy's location, she must know his whereabouts, if there's on thing I know Kate for, it's her questioning spirit. my heart is really aching, it's weird to crave danger , I just need to look at him one last time, even if it's the last, I hope it's not, all I could see was his perfect body in my dreams, and the time we spent together, " baby girl be running crazy for" my inner girl danced while snapping her finger.. damn she's on fire today. But I guess it's my fate, I would be admitted into the university this year, and I guess meeting Mr grumpy would be fatal, the devil doesn't bargain anyway, it's a losing game, after all, a
I have two months, to search for Mr grumpy, before I go to the university, and I want to make this happen, I walked outside my room in search of food, , my dream sex drained me. Had I not woken up in my room, it would be hard to believe I didn't have sex, I woke up feeling different, my lips were a little bit swollen like I kissed him for real,or maybe this is as a result of imagining to hard I grabbed an apple from the dinning table, mom never misses it from the grocery list, she always say this with her fingers on the air, " an apple a day keeps the doctor away". Accompanied by my favorite bland fruit I headed out of the kitchen strawberries has this Bland taste I really admire,not to sweet neither bitter . I don't want to get all fat from excess food, I just wish I could eat everything I crave for at any time not minding if it's 11pm in the night or minutes past 6. if wishes were horses, sigh, I would accomplish alot, so back on Mr grumpy, what can
I hurried down the stairs, and out of the house, I have never been this anxious about anything, neither have I been this stupid, going out with a mafia on the second day of meeting him, I stoped at the front door Finally catching my breath. It would be weird meeting him while panting like I just ran away from a lion chade, " you can do this" I walked out the door , just to be escorted by a man, with a tattooed neck, in suits. He looks handsome, with his dirty blonde hair, the wrinkles on his face showed he hasn't smiled In a while. He held my hands,in his manly palm, as he led me to the black oddly shiny car, just down the stairs. I was so nervous, and surprised Mr grumpy actually invited me to a ball, and he bought me clothes, do I need to pay for that as well I got to the car, and the gentleman beside me opened the door for me as I climbed into the car. The way he bowed sent chills down my spine. He is probably older than me, so why is he bowing? Weird I entered the car, hoping
" Pervert", I said as I giggled slightly, I could see Bridges forming on his head he withdrawed his hands immediately, then walked back to his seat, like nothing happened, what have I done this time? Lily keep your mouth shut, for ones, I sat on the seat provided for me opposite him, say something grumpy just anything will do, I cleared my throat, maybe i would distract or provoke him. But he still maintained a poker face, he wasn't affected at all. What do I do now, I can't tolerate the silence anymore, and it seems we are too early, the auction won't start now. I stood up from my seat. To explore the artworks around, though I knew I won't be able to afford any of them anyway, I ran my hands through some art work. It would be nice to have one of these in my room. " Hey, pretty" strong hands pulled me from behind, I turned to meet a bearded man with messy hair. He looked weird and he reeked of alcohol and cigarettes. He held my face with his right hand. As he drew me closer by my
He held my hand in his. I felt really emotional. I really need to leave before I burst out in tears, then I won't only prove that I am a teenager, but someone who is emotionally unstable. I looked towards the window, we were miles past the Shooting stampede, could this day get any worse than it already has. I have no idea where we are heading to, well I know it's not my house nor Kate's, it might be his house. I really don't want to talk or spend the night with him, i might not be able to control my emotions for long, i made an attempt to protest, but I couldn't, he looked worried enough. I didn't want to anger him, more than it already did. We almost lost our life's back there, he still held my hands firmly, like he would never let go, I felt goosebumps all over my body. I made a fool of myself, telling him my feelings, he might find it uncomfortable, maybe that's why he isn't talking to me, the air is really tense, i need to air things out to him, maybe my conscience would stop j
There was another knock at the as I was about to leave the restroom, I know I stayed longer than I should, but why is he panicking, nothing will happen to me, well for now at least. if only he knew I am a different person with him. He is making me a wide cat, " lily are you ok, in there", there's no assassin in the bathroom, why is he worried, if I stay in here too much he might break the door down, I walked out of the restroom with a towel around my chest, as I let my hair fall on my shoulder. I glared at him, he has become so different, he looks bothered than usual, I could see sweat beads on his head, and his fingers knotted tightly " sorry, just that I thought I would never see you again " he said, leaving me shocked. We just met today, is he ok? " Uhm, sorry, just nervous, get a grip of yourself Lucian, uhm bye, get dressed" he said before leaving the room, now I am convinced he's a psycho Mafia, everything has gone south, in 24 hours, I guess that's the best thing to say, I n
I stared at the ceiling for ages, thinking of what life had turned into in twenty four hours. I would have been normal if I stayed at home, Kate dragged me to a club, and here I am, in an ancestorial house with a stranger And now I am drowning in an emotional pool. Should I ask Lucian questions, I have trillions of questions I would love to ask, maybe I should just keep it to myself, it's just teenage foolishness, maybe if I become older I would understand life a little more, I will have everything figured out I am too desperate for love, and it's now catching up with me, there's no way I would fall in love in twenty four hours, and want to be with him for eternity, maybe It is lust not love, I must have the carnal desire to have sex with him, Kate infused this trash in my head now I am a mess. Maybe that's why, I had such erotic dream, I need to focus more on my studies, rather than an impossible love, I sighed in fraustration as I dig my head in-between a pillo
The moment I have been waiting for, "yes " I replied, still holding my breath, can't believe I am married to a mafia, I knew he was holding his breath. It a challenge for both of us, " Lily, if we can't make this work we would never see each other again" he said, Finally, let out the air he has been holding for a long time. Thank you Lucian, for accepting me. He pulled me in for a long and passionate kiss . I am married to a mafia, he unhooked the necklace on his neck, looks like a ring was used as a pendant. He removed the ring then raised my right hand up. He inserted the ring on my finger. I looked majestic, there was a word engraved on it. My love . I was swept by emotion. " It belongs to my mother it was the last piece of her,I could keep to remember her I want you to have it because I know it's safe with you, looking at you I finally accepted that I haven't gotten over my pain and my past but please I don't want to stain your future lily I wa