เข้าสู่ระบบSierra’s POV
The lake house was a skeleton. Big and dark with empty windows like eye sockets. The wind made a moaning sound as it blew through broken glass. I grabbed Louis’s hand. His fingers were cold. “We shouldn’t be here,” I whispered. “We have to be,” he whispered back. But he didn’t let go of my hand. We walked up the creaky steps to the big front door. It was hanging open, like someone left in a hurry a long time ago. Louis pulled a flashlight from his pocket. The beam cut through the dark, showing a big room full of shadows and dust. Everything was broken. Chairs tipped over. A rug ripped up. It smelled like wet wood and memories. “This is where we played,” Louis said quietly. His voice echoed. “Over there was the big table for puzzles. The fireplace… we roasted marshmallows.” I tried to picture it. Little Louis, running around with other rich kids. A quiet boy named Lyle watching from the corner. We walked through the room. Our feet kicked up dust. It made me want to sneeze. “What are we looking for?” I asked. “I don’t know. Anything. Something that says he was here.” We went into the kitchen. Old cans were on the floor. A rusted sink. Louis’s light moved over the walls. Then it stopped. On the wall, near the back door, was writing. Not old writing. New. Spray paint. Red, like the paint on our picture. It said: **MY ROOM WASN’T INSIDE. IT WAS UNDER.** “Under?” I said. “Under the house?” Louis didn’t answer. He turned and walked fast back through the house, out the broken door, and down the steps. I followed him. Around the back of the big house was a smaller, rougher building. Like a shed. Its door was small and low to the ground. “The old storm cellar,” Louis said. “For hiding during bad weather. Or… for storing stuff.” The door was padlocked. But the lock was new. Shiny, not rusty like everything else. Louis looked around and found a big rock. He hit the lock once, twice, three times. It broke with a loud *crack* that made me jump. He pulled the door open. It was dark inside. And it smelled weird. Like old leaves and something else. Something sweet and bad. Louis pointed the flashlight down. There were steep, wooden steps going into the ground. “Stay here,” he said. “No way,” I said. I wasn’t staying alone up here. We went down the steps. They creaked under our weight. The air got colder. The cellar was one small room. Dirt floor. Stone walls. And in the middle of the room, under Louis’s shaking flashlight beam, was a bed. A real bed with a dirty mattress and a rumpled blanket. And the walls… the walls were covered. Not with spray paint. With pictures. Hundreds of them. Printed out, cut from magazines, taped up everywhere. Pictures of Louis. From newspapers, from business magazines. Old pictures, young pictures. Pictures of me. From charity events, from shopping, from just walking down the street. Some were so close up they must have been taken with a big zoom lens. And pictures of Katie. School pictures, park pictures, eating ice cream pictures. It was a shrine. A creepy, awful shrine to our family. In the middle of all the pictures, right over the bed, was one picture bigger than the rest. It was a photo of this house. The lake house. But from a long time ago. In the photo, a bunch of kids were playing on the lawn. I could see a young Louis, laughing. And off to the side, barely in the picture, was a blurry figure of a skinny boy sitting alone under a tree. “Lyle,” Louis breathed. I felt like I was going to throw up. This was where he lived. Where he *dreamed*. About us. Louis’s light moved to a small wooden box sitting on the bed. He picked it up and opened it. Inside wasn’t a weapon. It was… treasures. A cheap plastic bracelet I lost last year. One of Katie’s hair ribbons. A golf tee of Louis’s. A napkin from a restaurant we ate at. Little pieces of our life, stolen and kept. At the very bottom of the box was a folded piece of paper. Louis opened it carefully. It was a letter. Handwritten. *Dear Louis,* *You don’t remember me. But I remember you. You had everything. The house, the friends, the future. You gave me a comic book once. You said “Here, kid.” That was the best day of my life.* *Then you left. You all left. My mom lost her job because your mom thought she stole a spoon. We lost everything.* *I watched you. All these years. I saw you build your empire. I saw you marry her. She’s so pretty. Like a princess. You have a princess and a castle and a perfect little girl.* *It should have been mine. Not the castle. The feeling. The feeling of being you. Of having a family that wants you.* *I tried to take the feeling. But you fight so hard. You love them so much. It makes me hate you. And love you. And hate you more.* *The game is almost over. I’m tired of watching. Now I want to play inside the house. With my family.* There was no signature. Just a small drawing at the bottom. A stick figure standing outside a big house. Looking in. Louis’s hand was shaking so bad the paper rattled. “He’s not trying to hurt us,” he said, his voice hollow. “He’s trying to… to *join* us. To *be* me.” “That’s crazy,” I said. “It’s crazier than wanting revenge,” Louis said. He looked at the walls of pictures. At our faces, watching him in the dark. “He doesn’t want to destroy my life. He wants to *wear* it.” A noise came from above us. A soft *creak*. We both froze. Our eyes met. We hadn’t made that noise. Someone was upstairs. Louis shoved the letter in his pocket. He turned off the flashlight. Pure darkness swallowed us. I couldn’t see my own hand in front of my face. I heard Louis move. Then I felt his arm around me, pulling me close. His lips were right by my ear. “Don’t move,” he breathed, so quiet I almost couldn’t hear. We stood there in the pitch-black cellar, holding each other. I could feel his heart hammering against my back. I could hear my own blood rushing in my ears. Another creak from above. Closer. Right at the top of the cellar stairs. Then a voice. Soft, humming. *Rock-a-bye baby.* My legs almost gave out. Louis’s arm tightened around me. A flashlight beam cut through the darkness from the top of the stairs. It swept across the dirt floor, just missing our feet. The humming stopped. “Louis?” the voice called. It was a normal voice. A man’s voice. It sounded almost friendly. “Are you down here? I saw your car.” We didn’t breathe. “I’ve been waiting for you to come,” the voice said. It was moving. Coming down the steps. One creak at a time. “I left the door unlocked for you. I wanted you to see.” The beam of light swung wildly as he came down. It hit the wall of pictures, lighting up my own face, smiling in the sun. He reached the bottom step. In the back-glow of his flashlight, I could see his shape. Average height. Wearing a dark coat. He stood there, looking at his wall. He sighed, a happy sigh, like he was looking at a beautiful painting. “Do you like it?” he asked the empty room. “I made it for us. So we could remember.” He took another step into the room. He was now between us and the stairs. The only way out. Louis’s body was a tense wire against mine. I could feel him getting ready to spring. The man’s light slid over the bed, over the empty box. He stopped. He went very still. “You touched my things,” he said. His voice changed. It got flat and cold. “You shouldn’t have touched my things.” He turned slowly, raising his flashlight, ready to shine it right on us hiding in the dark corner. Louis moved. He shoved me behind him and lunged forward, a low growl tearing from his throat. The two men crashed together in the dark. The flashlight flew, spinning crazy lights and shadows. I saw a fist. I heard a grunt. They were just shapes, rolling on the dirt floor. I scrambled on my hands and knees, trying to find the flashlight. My hand closed around it. I pointed it at the fight. The light fell on the ghost’s face. He wasn’t a monster. He was a man. Maybe in his thirties. He had plain brown hair and wide, crazy eyes. He was on top of Louis, his hands around Louis’s throat. “You ruin everything!” the ghost—Lyle—screamed. Spit flew from his mouth. “You had it all and you didn’t even care! It should have been MINE!” Louis grabbed Lyle’s wrists, trying to pull his hands away. His face was turning red. I didn’t think. I just ran. I swung the heavy metal flashlight as hard as I could and hit Lyle in the side of the head. *Thwack!* He cried out and fell off Louis. Louis rolled over, gasping for air. Lyle scrambled away from me, holding his head. He looked at me, and for a second, his crazy eyes looked hurt. Like I’d betrayed him. “You… you hit me,” he said. “Stay away from my family!” I yelled. My voice was shaky but loud. He looked from me to Louis, who was getting to his feet. The hurt on his face melted into something ugly and angry. “It’s not *your* family,” he snarled. “It’s *his*. And he doesn’t deserve it.” Then he turned and ran, stumbling up the cellar stairs and into the night. Louis started to run after him, but I grabbed his arm. “No! Don’t! He could have a weapon! He’s crazy!” Louis stopped, chest heaving. We listened to the sound of footsteps crashing through the woods outside. Then nothing. We were alone in the cellar again, surrounded by our own faces. Louis looked at me. There was dirt on his face. Red marks were already forming on his neck. He pulled me into a hug, so tight it hurt. “You saved me,” he whispered. “We saved each other,” I whispered back. We climbed out of the cellar, into the cold night air. We didn’t talk. We just got in the car and locked the doors. Louis drove us away from the lake house, away from the ghost’s secret room. We had seen him. We had touched him. He wasn’t a ghost anymore. He was a man named Lyle. And he thought our life belonged to him. And we had just started a whole new game.Sierra's POVThe first trimester hit me like a truck. A big, smelly, nausea-filled truck.I forgot how awful this part was. With Katie, I was young. Twenty-seven. I bounced back from everything. This time? Forty-two felt very, very old.The smell thing got worse. Coffee was enemy number one. But then it was also eggs. Then chicken cooking. Then Louis's cologne. Then the cleaning stuff the housekeeper used. Then the garbage can in the kitchen. Then flowers. Flowers!"I can't smell anything," I moaned, lying on the bathroom floor at 3 a.m. "Everything smells like everything."Louis sat beside me, looking helpless. Men always look helpless when their wives are puking. It's kind of funny, if you're not the one puking."Do you want water?" he asked."No.""Tea?""NO.""A cracker?""Louis, if you say one more word, I will divorce you."He shut up. Smart man.---The tiredness was worse than the puking.With Katie, I worked through my pregnancy. I was busy. I had energy.Now? I couldn't kee
Sierra's POVI was forty-two years old when my body decided to play the biggest joke of my life.Katie was fifteen. Fifteen! She was already talking about college and boys and how embarrassing we were. Louis and I were finally at the easy part. The "we survived parenting a teenager" part. The "we can sleep in on weekends" part.Or so I thought.It started with the smell. Coffee. I'd loved coffee my whole life. But one morning, Louis made his usual pot and the smell hit me like a wall.I ran to the bathroom. Threw up. Came back pale and shaky."You okay?" Louis asked, concerned."Fine. Just... coffee smelled weird."He looked at me funny but didn't push.The next morning, same thing. And the next. And the next."You're not fine," Louis said on day four. "I'm calling the doctor.""It's probably a virus.""For four days?""Viruses can be long."He gave me The Look. The one that said he wasn't buying it.---Dr. Patel was young and nice and very professional. She ran tests. She asked ques
Sierra's POVMeeting the Crofts was one thing. Building a relationship with them was another.After that first coffee, we didn't see them for a few weeks. Life got busy. Katie had school projects. Louis had work. I had foundation meetings. The usual chaos.But they sent cards. Little notes. Margaret had beautiful handwriting, old-fashioned and careful. Edward's was shakier, but you could tell he tried.*Dear Louis, Sierra, and Katie,**I saw the most beautiful flowers today at the garden store. Purple ones, like Katie's sweater. Made me think of her. Hope you're all well.**Love,**Grandma Margaret**P.S. Edward is learning to use email. It's not going well. Send help.*Katie loved the cards. She taped them to her wall. She started writing back, little notes in her messy kid handwriting.*Dear Grandma Margaret,**Thank you for the card. My sweater is still sparkly. Mom washed it and it didn't die. School is boring but art class is fun. I drew a horse. It looked like a dog but that's o
Sierra's POVThe months after Margaret died were strange. Not sad exactly. More like... quiet. Like a door that had opened and closed again, leaving us different on the other side.Louis read all the letters. Every single one. He took his time, like he was saving them. Some made him laugh. Some made him cry. Some he read to me at night, his voice soft in the dark.*Dear Louis,**Today I saw a little boy at the park who looked just like you. He was maybe three, with dark hair and serious eyes. He was building a sandcastle all by himself, so focused. I sat on a bench and watched him for an hour. I pretended he was you. I pretended I was just a normal mom, watching her son play. It was the best hour I've had in years.**Love always,**Mom*"She watched other kids," Louis said after reading that one. "For years. Just to feel close to me.""She loved you so much.""I know. I just wish..."He didn't finish. He didn't have to. We both wished for more time.Katie handled it better than I exp
Sierra's POVThe second photo changed everything.We couldn't just wait anymore. We had to do something. Louis spent hours on the phone with lawyers and private investigators. I spent hours staring at the photos, trying to see something we missed.The woman in the pictures. Louis's birth mother. She had my eyes. My dark hair. My smile. It was like looking at a ghost version of myself from thirty years ago."Is it weird?" I asked Louis one night. We were in bed, both too wired to sleep. "That she looks like me?"He was quiet for a minute. Then he said, "Maybe it's not weird. Maybe it's... I don't know. Fate? Something?""Do you believe in fate?""I believe in us." He turned on his side to look at me. "I believe that somehow, through all the mess, we found each other. And we stayed. That's enough for me."I wanted to believe that too. But the photos made everything feel complicated.The next morning, Louis's investigator called with news. They'd traced the postmark on both letters to a
Sierra's POVSix months after the beach house. Six months of normal, happy, boring life.I say boring like it's a bad thing. It's not. Boring is good. Boring means no ghosts. No trials. No fear. Boring means waking up and knowing the day will be full of small things. Grocery lists. School runs. Dinner with the people you love.I've learned to love boring.Katie was in eighth grade now. Almost done with middle school. She had a little group of friends who came over on weekends and ate all our snacks and giggled about boys until midnight. Louis pretended to be annoyed, but I caught him leaving extra snacks outside her door."She needs to eat," he said when I raised an eyebrow."She needs to sleep.""She can sleep when she's dead.""Louis!""Too dark?""Way too dark."He grinned and kissed my forehead. "I'll work on my dad jokes."The foundation was going well. Really well. We'd helped over two hundred kids in the last year. Kids with absent parents. Kids who needed someone to believe in







