Mistakes... I remember when I was a kid and I 'mistakenly' stole my mom's car... God! That day. I knew what a hiding was and I instilled in my mind what 'mistake' meant. My father explained to me that taking something knowingly without permission wasn't a mistake... a mistake was tripping and falling... because I don't think anyone plans on that. So... for Valentia Louw to fucken stand in front of coach and say kissing me was a mistake! That was absurd. She kissed me more than once and she knew what she was doing. She didn't trip and caught her lips on mine.. she leaned over and kissed me knowingly... so her saying that was a mistake was just fucken bullshit!I was fucken hurt... I mean I couldn't even explain why it hurt like this because me and Ms Louw were nothing or we didn't even label what we were...but that didn't make it hurt any less. It actually hurt more. So she was dating coach and didn't feel the need to tell me.. we

Have you ever been told something but then later felt like an idiot because what you've been told was a fucken lie..I was so mad when I took a shower later on after the match.So they think I'm fucken stupid.. wow.. if they were hiding their relationship they fucken shouldn't be so affectionate in public. Fuck theeeeem!I was feeling very gayish for tonight's party and in order to forget what I saw earlier I planned on getting wasted and hopefully fucking someome... So I put on my black ripped jeans, white shirt and white sneakers..and then a black straight cap on to avoid my hair being all over my face and put on my leather jacket.I wrote a tiny letter for the folks when they come back..Hello parents.. Okay so Sandra, captain of the team invited me to her party.. not just me, the rest of the team to actually celebra

I spent the weekend at home with my little sister as promised. We drew a lot of pictures since she's seen that picture from Jasmine..Talking about Jasmine, she and I have been talking on Facebook and she's really been great company to me. I found out that she was an idiot just like me.. she could draw and dance and loved soccer. She wanted to be a dancer or a soccer player. Which was cute.Some of our conversations went like..OLWETHU LIN: And why the fuck are you 'Jazztine Bieber..?' do you want to be him?JAZZTINE BIEBER: No, he's just a twin of mine.. I can introduce you guys if you want...Yep I know, she was an idiot."That girl is looking at us.." my sister said taking a few fried to her mouth. She was pointing behind me so I didn't even bother to actually look. I just stared at Lizzie, "Don't you th

She pushed me against wall, it was just sexy how we were both naked and just entered her amazing bedroom."It smells so fucken nice in here...." I said as she kissed my neck."You smell nice.." she sucked on my caller bone."Mhm... Baby."She hugged me and lifted me up by my ass and put my legs around her. God I could feel her muscles in my body and it just made things worse..."You are so sexy..." I said and she sighed on my ear while walking to her bed, "not as sexy as you.."She slowly laid us down on her bed, with me underneath of course. Then she connected our lips and kissed me so hard."I want you.." I whispered and she smiled, "you do?""So fucken much you have no idea...""Can I eat you again...?"I laughed, she was so fucken cute when asking for permission.She sucked o

CHAPTER NINETEENMy mind was all over the place and my whole body felt so numb. She told me she loves me.. she fucken told me she loves me.. what the fuck!I was mad. Really mad.But then I started to laugh at myself. Ms Louw was abover 25, fucken hot, beautiful, smart, amazing... why wouldn't she be married or even be in a committed relationship. Why the fuck didn't I think of that?God! I felt so stupid and so dumb.I quickly walked behind coach as we made our way to the ground. A hand suddenly pulled me and I turned to.... "Susan?""It's actually me..." Jasmine said next to my friend. I gave Susan a 'what the fuck' look and she shrugged, "she insisted""Hey..."I smiled a bit, "hey.."She checked me out without even being discreet about it. From my toes up to my face, she smiled when she saw me lookinh at her, "you always this h