Alexis  Secrets have a way of coming out ; if you don't cover your tracks properly , trust the wrong people , or have a forgetful nature. If we all kept a diary full of every little thing we did and didn't want the world to know, it would be worth finding once you're gone from this world and moving on to the next. There is a rule with secrets. You have to come clean to the person you love about what you did and pray that they get that it was your past; you don't live there anymore, You have changed, and the same behavioral pattern wouldn't repeat itself because you learned your lesson. Some secrets you cannot tell . For the longest of times I had kept a childhood secret from my own blood . I told that to the father of my unborn baby ... but not everything .I didn't want to hit stone walls every time we have to get intimate. I swore to myself when I was a kid that; what had happened to me as a kid then will stay under lock and key in my brain a

 Aaron This by far has been the longest week and I am so glad it ended on an epic high. I had Tina cancel all of my appointments for the day. Even though he was married to Gavin she was contracted to work for us until the end of the year.  She was being a drama queen lately; she even changed her hair color and bought an expensive car, and by that I mean she made Gavin buy her a sports car that had to be imported. I knew his account would have taken a knock because; I couldn't afford it myself. Caleb had moved out of our offices the day Lexi and I found out we were having a baby. Gavin and I were both sad to see him leave but on the bright side I didn't have to worry about butting heads with him about Lexi.When I canceled on our date plans on Wednesday ; Lexi became passive aggressive towards me. The whole of Thursday ... Until I tracked her down to Amy's office on and found out about the baby . As eventful as the we

 Alexis✔ This morning I woke up early like every morning. I woke up next to Abro .I kissed his forehead before I went to take a shower and get cleaned up . After brushing my teeth and getting into a pair of dark blue jeans , Aarons grey sweater and white leather boot sneakers . I kissed Aaron on the lips before I left he smiled and whispered; don't go stay. He drifted back to sleep after he said the last word... so I left him a voice message . I managed to make him and Caleb breakfast before I left, and called Caleb who was on his way too. I told him to be kind to him. The last thing he needs is doubting the people around him. The storm wasn't severer ; when I drove to the bakery , but going back home the rain started pouring in buckets . Aaron's car was built for every condition it was safe , however I wasn't feeling okay . The thunder storm scared me so I pulled over on the shoulder of the highway and deci

 Alexis Letting go hurts; but it's necessary. I have something I call the quad-factor . Balance has always been important to me and with my moon rising being a cardinal sign with scales; fairness in all things is mandatory. Even though I feel my way through life because my sun sign is also a cardinal water sign there is a point where you have to let go, no matter how hard it hurts you will feel better once you let go completely. The quad-factor is what I call; body, mind , heart, and soul balance. Your body has a way of releasing what it doesn't need , so does your heart, mind and soul. I remember falling Ill one day after work ; because I didn't take time to rest , I was constantly in stress mode, and I couldn't switch off. When I arrived home out of the blue I started running a fever . Simon Nathan had prepared dinner for us and he was concerned . I could've blamed the weather but it was winter. The house had under floor heati

 Alexis✔ There is something comforting about surety … Knowing that someone will come through for you no matter what; having a friend who always has your back , having a shoulder or shoulders to cry on , Knowing that if you’re in trouble there is nothing that the person you trust wouldn’t do for you , and the surety of knowing no matter how many times you fight the person you love … They will always come back because your know deep down in your heart that , home is wherever they are. I had a fight with Aaron . It wasn’t because he found out he was a Massa , but he was pissed off that I hadn’t told him about Carl, and his face showed it . I surprisingly had a call from my favorite person yesterday. He looked so happy and he was worried. He called me mom which made me smile . I went to sleep and woke up a bit better the next morning. I was still hurt. I didn’t even fe