Alle Kapitel von Dance Of The Black Swan: Kapitel 11 – Kapitel 20

"First posistion, Second position, Third posistion, Fourth posistion, Fifth posistion... one, one two four. one, one two five. one, one two lift" I spin using my one foot extending the other one. I do it continuously until I reach the barre.I inhale and exhale and hold the barre tightly, bending my body extending my legs on my back trying to reach my toe with my hand before I turn around lifting my body with my haft bend feet after a successful move. And then I collapsed on the floor breathing heavily because of exerting too much energy.I groaned because of the muscle ache on my legs. I've been practicing since this morning. I gained weight a littl maybe because I ate a lot lately so I need to burn some fats, also my mind is in chaos right now. I still can remember the last time I saw Vicenzo, it's been two days now. My father is not talking to me, he is mad obviously but then I don't understand.Why would he get mad at me? It should be the other way around be

"What if I am force to trust him?" I whisper when the car stop in front of the coffee shop."Then you must find a way to protect yourself Young Lady, because everyone are watching you now" he utter making me fall into silent.I heard him unfasten his seatbelt but I remain not moving. I just realize that, if things get out of control I'll end up trusting Vicenzo neither I like it or not because that's the least thing I could do for myself. That's the only way for me to protect myself.We are not in control of everything. And no matter how I tried to resist the fate that they wanted me to have, if that was really meant to be, then I'll end up losing because that was bound to happen."I wanted to understand the reason behind the action. I wanted to validate Dad's reason because he is my father. As much as possible I wanted to seek an answer even if it was just a lie, for me to believe him" I mumble under my breath " If they were struggling because I keep on

I wave my hand to Gianni and he also did the same thing. I watch him leave while I'm standing on the balcony of my room. I grip the coat he gave me, it is indeed cold. The weather is gloomy, the wind is cold . All the broad sky was grey indicating of coming rain.I raised my hand on the air and stared at the bracelet Gianni gave me. It is really beautiful and fascinating. My lips curved into a haft smile but I stop when I notice someone is watching me across the street. I stood straight when I saw a man and narrowed my eyes trying to recognize him but then he's too far from me and I can't even figure out the detailed of his face. I watch him as he turn around and walk away until he disappear on my sight."What was that?" I mumble to myself and walk inside my room.I stumped across the window-seat pulling my legs up and covering it with Gianni's coat. I stared out the beautiful flower garden of Mommy Adeline while listening to the soothing sound of piano keys com

"Dad!" I called my father walking fast towards him.I glance at Aliah and Mommy Adeline who's sitting beside my father. I don't know this house and they surprisingly here already talking in the living room."You should go upstairs and rest Svanna, the maid will led you to your room. I already prepare it for you" my father said calmly not bothered if at all.I licked my lower lip and shake my head. I have a lot of questions and I wanted to demand an answer from him."I wanted to know what's happening" I confront him following his gaze as he reach the wine glass."Nothing, so go to your room and rest" he replied in low toneless voice."Your father is right Anna, you're just paranoid hija" Mommy Adeline seconded and then she gave a glass of wine to Aliah who's smiling at her.I sighed still not convince. I am not a fool, although they don't explain everything in detailed still I know there is something wrong happening."I know the

Hugging my curled legs I burried my face between my knees while leaning on the side of the bed. My room is filled with darkness and the only thing that brought light is the light from the post light on the backyard.I've been on this posistion since this afternoon and didn't budge a little although I keep hearing the soft knocks on my door. I wanted to visit my mother because I feel so suffocated right now. I wanted to run away but then my legs are chained because I'm Svanna Rose Zeneca and I am now Vicenzo's wife.I sob louder remembering that fact. I just signed the marriage contract a while ago and I can't do anything to undo it. I grip the hem of my clothes tightly hearing an unfamiliar sound of a clock. I slightly lift my head resting my chin on my knees wondering where that sound came from but then after a couple of seconds it just disappear.Sighing I hug my legs more and get back on my previous posistion with my head burried between my knees. The silent