Wearing only my bathrobe, I went on my condo's balcony. The wind blew. It rippled my damp hair. I embraced myself in the middle of the cold night as I watch the city lights in front of me.I sighed and blinked emphatically. The coldness I am feeling was familiar. But I didn't stop myself from tasting it again.The memories of that dark night flashed on my mind again. Whenever I'm alone and embraced by the cold, I still can't help but think of all that. I still can't help but look back on what happened. The pain I went through. Those days that I lose my sanity. The nights that I spend crying. And the days I thought of ending my life.When they said that Mama was gone I did not immediately believe. Aunt Alandra even had to take me to the morgue for me to believe. I didn't accept it. I lost consciousness there because I couldn't. I was confined in the hospital for weeks because there wasn't a day that I didn't faint or hallucinate things.According to a spec

"You must be the winner, couz! That's Clarrisa, she's the daughter of a friend of the Mayor so she's probably favored! You're really the one deserving–" Before she could finish what she was going to say, I slapped her hand to stop."Don't say that. When someone hears from you, they will think we are insecure and not sport."She glared at me. Mom smiled and shook her head. I looked around. I quickly found Livius who was now walking towards us. He was smiling. Jonas, too. Only Sage remained serious. He seemed somewhat bored and uninterested. If so, why did he even come?I motioned to Mom. He immediately looked at Livius' way.. So is Brenda."Oh! Oh no, that's why it's okay for you to take the second position, ha! You've already won the heart of–" Brenda stopped when I pinched her on the side. She pouted like a kid. I glared at her."Shut up," I threatened before Livius could finally get close."Congrats, Kaia! You did well!" Livius