Waldo's familiar smell quickly hit my nose despite the distance between us. The woody and amber smell of his perfume that was mixed with sweet and citrus became familiar with me. And I can't help admit that I somehow got used to it. "What do you want to eat?" Waldo asked sweetly after entering the room where I was staying. I was lying on my back on the bed, against his direction so I couldn't see his face. I can't count the minutes that have passed since I left her downstairs. Be what time it is. I could feel my hunger but I have no power to help myself go down. I fell asleep immediately after they left me. I have no idea how long I slept, but based on what I could see from the window, it was almost midnight. I felt him approach and after a while he was sitting on the edge of the bed. The bed was a king sized one but with him sitting just a few inches away from me made it feel like it became smaller. 

"Ready?" he asked while patiently waiting for me. "Where are you taking me?" I asked full of curiosity while adjusting the light yellow shirt paired with a pair of denim pants. It was her sister's clothes which he made me borrow. I didn't want to because his brother seemed to hate me but he made sure it was okay. I had no other choice because I had nothing else to wear especially and he was taking me somewhere. I woke up earlier that he was the one I bumped into. He woke me up and made me take a bath early saying that we have somewhere to go within the hacienda. Whether I prefer to lie down all day, sleep, or maybe let myself be swept away by the current of dark thoughts, I prefer to just drift away. It was as if he waited exactly three days to pass before taking me out of his house. I'm all better now with my wound almost seventy percent healed. I finished what I was doing and faced

"Look ahead," he commanded behind my ears.I bit my lower lip with the sudden surge of awkwardness I felt when his warm breath touched the small part of my neck. I have no idea how long we have been riding his horse. Some were too dominant for me because Waldo's and my bodies were almost no distance apart. He's only wearing a thin white shirt so I can feel the steam from his body. That even though the wind is cold I feel touching my skin, I still feel warm. I tried to calm down by taking several deep breaths. If I realize how close our bodies are, I won't be able to observe my beautiful view. Waldo occupied a large part of my mind so it wouldn't help if I understood even the fast beating of my heart. I blinked my eyes a couple of times to help my vision focus on the scenery ahead of me. It was a two-story barn colored maroon and was surrounded by a white wooden fence. The entire yard is large enough to fit five barns together. There is also a fountain in front and on the side there

I closed my eyes tightly as my eyes went into that habit again. A simple scrub that only takes about three minutes takes me ten minutes now. In all the years I've lived, I've never looked at my own reflection for more than a minute except when I had to put lipstick on my face. But tonight is different. I opened my eyes again and as expected, my vision was there again. Waldo kissed my lips earlier. "Get yourself together, Prescilla," I said to myself through gritted teeth. "It's just a kiss," I whispered, trying to calm myself even though it was vague. "Why did he kiss me?!" I asked in shock. I pulled out my freshly combed hair causing it to become messy again. Feeling annoyed, I found myself stomping so that somehow I could calm down. When I still didn't get anything, I decided to go out of the room I was sleeping in, a room that, if I suspected correctly, belonged to Waldo. I tried to make my every step quiet so as not to attract attention from anyone I might meet. I tried to be

I couldn't do anything else but be blown away by the darkness that enveloped me. There was nothing else I could do but remain in tears as I desperately searched for peace. I can find no light in the darkness that surrounds me. Not even a meager torch could tell that I would be able to get out of my rut. I closed my eyes again but now in a more careful way as if I could erase the images playing in my mind. I don't want anymore. I'm tired of repeating this feeling as if there is no end. I'm tired of being hurt again and again and crying even for no exact reason. I wish I had finished it then. I wouldn't have thought twice before and just let myself end all my problems. If only I hadn't let it slow me down... I wouldn't be in pain right now. I hope my life is peaceful. "I would have stayed long ago. I should have ended it so that there would be no problem," I said full of regret. I felt Waldo's violent shaking. He removed me from leaning against his body. He cupped my face using his