Lahat ng Kabanata ng Never To Be Loved Again: Kabanata 91 - Kabanata 100

Alicia looked at him with questioning eyes.Afraid of his mother?What did he mean by that?“I’m not sure I follow…” she trailed off.“When a person’s mind is traumatized beyond repair, they’re left with extreme methods. And that’s when you’re given two choices… take your own life or take the lives of others.”Alicia’s face hardeTed. She was reminded of her past choices.“Killing one’s own self is a sacrifice itself, but when that trauma and anger is directed towards others, it doesn’t end with one sacrifice. What follows is a terribly horrid and endless cycle of death. Sometimes, the person who you think is incapable of doing it might…” Ivan bit his lip and choked on his words, “Anyway, we’ll never know the result of one’s action till it’s all over.”Purple eyes looked at her like it was peering through her soul, asking her which side she had chosen. Those purple eyes seemed to know that she had chosen the first, that she had taken her own life because she was mentally incapable of l

Alicia immediately denied it but the Queen’s words echoed in her mind.No.It can’t be.“I have a question too, Ivan.”Ivan gave a nod, an indication to ask away.“Her Majesty said to me that every time I came to the palace when we were just kids that you were always there at a distance looking at me. She said you wanted to get away, but it’s not true, right?”A while ago, he had driven her to the corner as if a hunter chasing a rabbit, but now the tables have turned.His face hardeTed immediately.“As you know, I won’t ever lie to you,” he looked at her nervously and sighed quietly, “Heh. I didn’t think a counterattack would happen so quickly, but yes. She’s right.”“…Why?”“I wanted to see you again.”“Me? Why…?”“I liked you. I ended up liking the girl who interrupted my rest in the garden. Even after finding out you were the daughter of my mother’s friend and my mother’s goddaughter, I couldn’t stop liking you.”‘And I only realized too late that I did like you… and horridly terri

“Alicia, my father once told me that there is nothing greater in life than a woman. He’s right. You look beautiful, my dear niece.”Alicia was a gorgeous bride, the most beautiful in the world and no one could dispute this, but he knew how disarmingly unaware she was of her prettiness. Her silver-colored crown decked with jewels and her traditional bridal robe embroidered with silver and gold thread reminded him of the time when her mother married.The marquis sighed, eyes overwhelmed with emotion. “I’m reminded of the time when I sent my sister to Ehrlich. I took her hand during the ceremony on behalf of my father who was not feeling well at the time… funny isn’t it? Seems like I’ll be holding her daughter’s hand as she marries a man from Ehrlich.”Alicia smiled and stroked his hand gently. She heard that when her mother married, her uncle had much to say and objected to the marriage. She’s sure that this was not the marriage her uncle hoped for.“Uncle, where’s Dimi? He didn’t come?

“His Majesty will be here soon.”That night, in the Queen’s Palace, Alicia was changing her robes as she sat on the bed listening to the Mrs. Cessley talk about Ivan.He’d make his way to this room at any second and Alicia knew fully well that a series groups of aristocratic men would bear witness to their consummation.She’d been silent since earlier and Mrs. Cessley took notice of it and held her hands. “My Queen, do you remember what I spoke of yesterday?”Alicia nodded, her smile bitter.Yesterday morning, Mrs. Cessley spoke in great detail what would occur on her and Ivan’s first night. It was her mother’s duty to instruct her, but she had long passed, so the Duchess stepped in and took the mother-like role for Alicia.Her former Maid of Honor had, too, been instructed to teach Alicia what to do on her first night, but she was no help, only telling her to remain still and follow her husband’s instruction.Alicia was ignorant of what occurred during the consummation process, only

As she talked to him, the prior nervousness and tension corroding her body faded. She extended her glass to him.“Don’t worry. I know we’ll argue sooner or later, but I’ll do all my duties faithfully as your wife during this one-year-contract,” Alicia smiled, waiting for another glass of drink.Ivan took back her wine glass.Her icy-blue eyes immediately widened. “Why’d you take it? I wanted to drink some more.”“I gave it to you to relax, not to get drunk.”“I wasn’t nervous. And I’m not drunk.”“You’re not now, but one more drink will send you to the edge. Besides, you’re freer to talk to and you’re open to talking about your thoughts when drunk. It’s not bad, but not tonight.”He set down the glass on the table and approached her.“It’s time,” she thought.Though, originally, drowning in carnal pleasure should have begun as soon as he entered the room, but it had been delayed due to their conversation.He’ll soon entangle his body with hers. She knew what it was now and the fears s