SarahLucas looks uncomfortable and I still love him. The connection is still there. So, I want to do everything I can to ease that feeling for him.Yet I’ve learned that sometimes people just need space. We’ll need lots of space to grow from this. So, I wait. I allow him to take his time.“Maybe we could go on a date tonight,” he says. “Just you and me. Everyone loves Fergus. We’d easily be able to find someone to watch him.“I don’t know. I think we just need to reconnect a little bit. Would you want to go on a date with me?”He looks so vulnerable in this moment. I want to hold him and never let him go. I want to assure him I’d go anywhere with him, as long as I could be with him.Pain still holds me back though. It keeps me from being my full self around him. I know it’s not his fault, but I still can’t fully let go of all he put me through.“I…” I hesitate until I look into the eyes of my mate. “I’d like that. I’d love that. Where would you like to go?”“A surprise,” he

SarahMy heart pounds as I look around. I feel so stupid, so irresponsible. I’m the worst mother and the worst mate. I let my jealousy, hurt, and fear get the best of me. That’s why I pushed Lucas even though I know he’s been traumatized by all of this. That’s why I lost sight of my son.Just the thought of her clouds my eyes in visions of red. I think of his hands on her. Her wrapped up with him. I think about all the torture I’ve been through.Yet its lingering presence is just making things worse. It’s ruining everything. I know I need release it.First, I need to find my son.I turn to Lucas, desperate and scared. “Please tell me you saw where he took off to,” I beg him. I know we should’ve been watching him more closely. I know I shouldn’t have been so distracted by the past. “I don’t know,” Lucas admits, his body growing as tense as mine is. “Let’s focus. We’re bonded to him. We should be able to find him.”I try to look past the worry to focus on that. I’ve never l

SarahThere’s something about the fairies that awakens something different within me. I can’t quite pin down what that is. I don’t understand how creatures so different from us could affect me the way they did.Yet it heals something within me that’s been broken. I feel closer to my mate. I feel more alive again. I feel like the Alpha I am.“Do you think we should tell them?” Lucas asks, as we see some of the pack members going about their day. “I’m sure they might want to know about the fairies surrounding our land. They might at least be curious about it.”At that, I feel oddly defensive. Usually, I share everything with my pack. I am the leader after all. That’s how it should be.Yet this is something I feel like I want to keep to myself. Or at least something I just want to share between Lucas and me. I can’t explain why. It just seems special.“Why don’t we wait a little while before doing that,” I suggest. I hope he doesn’t ask too many questions about it. I’m not sure I

LucasIt’s easy to see how passionate Sarah is about the fairies and trying to help them. I care too, of course. But seeing how much it affects her makes me even more motivated to do what we can to solve the mystery of Leena’s disappearance.Too bad it seems like most of the pack doesn’t feel the same way. The search feels like a half-hearted one, without a lot of enthusiasm behind it. And I worry about the lack of progress.Regardless, I try to focus. Sarah and I work together to search the forest and sniff out any clues. Still, we come across nothing. And when we all reconvene at the end of the night, we learn that no one else has made much progress either.“We’ll have to try again tomorrow,” Sarah decides.Many members of the pack sigh. And I wonder if it’s my fault. Has her absence made them more disobedient? Would they be more willing to listen to her if she never left? Did I cause this strife?A familiar guilt haunts me and I wish I could go back. I wish I could fix every

AbigailAs I watch Lucas and Sarah run off on their mysterious date, I can’t help but smile. It’s so nice to see our pack leaders getting along again. It feels like we’re growing, we’re powerful. We’re being led into the future and I can’t wait.I think of my little one at home with Dustin. My mate is so good with out daughter. I know they’re having the time of their lives together.Of course, I always want to be with them. And I promise myself that I’ll return home soon. But first, I need some time to enjoy the moonlight.I run, the wind curling through my thick, chestnut fur. I feel alive. I feel like I can escape the troubled past that haunts me.I remind myself I’m safe here. I’m safe within this pack. I’m safe with Dustin. And I love my life. It’s everything I’ve ever wanted.As I come across a stream, I stop. I see the image of myself reflected upon the water. I see a powerful wolf. I see a strong warrior.This isn’t how I always feel though. So, I shift back into my hum