The dream

I still remember the smell of rain, the feeling of being completely immersed in it.I keep telling myself that I need to escape, that I have to leave, but my body doesn't move. I feel the heartbeat slowing down, it will stop as slow as it's going.Then suddenly I hear a voice calling me, whispering my name."Isaac, come to me, I can give you what you want. You just need to reach out, you just need to truly want me.""What are you?""Don't you remember me, Isaac?"It's not raining anymore, and I find myself in the house where I grew up. The feeling of danger keeps rising, every cell in my body wants to disappear."I hate this place," I say out loud."Why do you hate this place, Isaac? It seems to me like you're laughing, don't you think?"I hear the laughter of children running, they must be my friends, but they sound more like cries. The sound gets louder, it's unbearable."Take me away from here, please.""What troubles you, Isaac?""I don't want to hear, I don't want to hear.""Okay

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Divided

I take the pen, with the intention of writing down everything that's swirling in my head, but I end up staring at the blank sheet.I hear the clock ticking away, sensing its needles piercing through time, making me realize that my life is slowly slipping through my fingers. I feel like I'm losing control.I slap myself, trying to jolt myself into action, but all I get is a desperate cry. Maybe I should lie down, perhaps I can calm down a bit. But as soon as I look at the bed, the fear grips me that I might return to that nightmare that has been haunting me for days.There's a strong smell of something gone bad, "it almost makes me want to vomit."I hug myself, trying to appease the sensation.There's a body on the ground, but I can't see the face."Wait a moment! But it's dressed like me.""Say it, Isaac, say it.""It can't be, it can't be."I scream until my throat hurts, until I feel it burning with pain.I wake up in my bed, feeling that something in my head isn't working. "Am I a

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Piece

I hear a moan coming from my head; I feel it comes from within me."Where are you, where are you, tell me who you are?"I'll end up going crazy; I light a cigarette as I try to clear my mind, but the crying doesn't fade. So, I smoke even faster until I feel my throat on fire."I can't breathe.""Why do you hurt yourself, Isaac?""Who are you?""I don't want to disappear.""Neither do I."I'm crying again, sitting huddled in the bathroom.I think I had a daydream, or at least I hope so. Otherwise, it would mean I'm going mad.It's late; I have to go to university; maybe I'll see that girl again. A smile appears on my face, but immediately, I feel like tearing my skin off."What's wrong with wishing for someone, Isaac?""I'm not that kind of person.""Really, and what kind are you?""I'm not like..."I bite my hand in an attempt to regain clarity, "not yet, not yet."I've almost drawn blood.I arrive at school; she is in front of the entrance, seeming impatient."You're always so late?"

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Two halves

I stayed up all night again; now, how do I face Lilith? "How foolish I am.""Do you like her, right?""Even if I do, it's none of your business. Go away!""Sorry, I didn't mean to make you angry."I didn't see him anymore.I spent an hour looking at myself in the mirror, hoping that it wouldn't be noticeable that there's a child with me. I think I'm forgetting something; I should think about what I saw. But now I can't; my head hurts too much, and I have to go to university; I'll be late again."Why are you stopping in front of the car?""Good question, kid. I don't even know."I get into the car, but I can't start it. "I think, I believe that thing might appear again.""Then look.""It's not that easy.""Yes, I'm behind there."I look slowly behind, and I see only Liam, who, even though I don't know exactly who he is, is somehow more reassuring.I'm in front of the university, but I feel that something is wrong. I feel something inside me desperately wanting to come out; I hold on as

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A whisper

I try to sleep a bit, maybe at my place, I can get some rest.But that child won't leave me alone; he keeps pacing back and forth in the room, sighing."Stop it, you're getting on my nerves.""Finally, you're talking to me.""Why don't you go away?""Because I am you.""What do you mean?"Someone knocks on the door. It's my mother, who, as usual, is super quiet."Isaac, who are you talking to?""No one.""Okay, try to get some sleep."She closes the door.I love my parents, but I don't want them to think I'm going crazy. I certainly can't tell them that there's a child with me that apparently only I see.I finally manage to close my eyes, but a wet sensation makes me reopen them. "It can't be; this is blood; I'm losing blood," I start screaming at the top of my lungs.My parents rush into the room."Isaac, calm down!""I'm losing blood, I'm losing blood.""Sweetheart, open your eyes! You're not losing blood; it's just a dream."She hugs me, and after a while, I calm down. I see the co

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Lahat ng Kabanata ng On the surface of water: Kabanata 1 - Kabanata 5

The dream

Divided

Piece

Two halves

A whisper