Lilith Addiction(A mafia book) のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 61 - チャプター 70

~VITTORIA~My thoughts did not stop jumbling together after North visited the previous day. And even as I lay on Roman's chest the next morning, for some reason, I couldn't bring myself to ask him about it. I knew I had grown to trust him no matter what. Or so I thought. Because now, at the very bottom of my heart, I was feeling a cold fragile sense of doubt, which seemed to be growing more sturdy as the time went by.I pretended to be fine though, swallowing down the bitter taste of my suspicions and acted like every normal day; greeting him with the morning kisses just like we did every morning, having breakfast together and even going to work together, with him dropping me off first. And promised to pick me up whenever I was done.I texted Gio immediately to get my car from the house since I would be needing it later in the day and called on Nicole to get me the paperwork and updates for the day. If anything, I needed to get my mind occupied to prevent it from drowning in my though

~VITTORIA~I was in Ontario again. In a hotel room, a box of tissues is almost finished, lipstick, mascara and wine stains all over the white rumpled bedsheets. The room was barely lit because I had had the blinds down ever since I got here blocking off any light from creeping into the room. And at night, I usually just sat in the dark when I cried, and when I was not crying, I was sleeping. This was my third day here and the only person who knew I was here was Yara. That was before I turned my phone off and ghosted everyone.Me running away from everything and just coming to bask in my own sorrow and darkness was the only way I saw I could get through this, at least for a while, before going to work. And I hated that the Costa Nostra rule of business couldn't just let me divorce him right away. Because I mean, we had married out of business, in front of everyone. Everyone knew it wasn't a marriage whose foundation was based on love. So what face did I have in the presence of Tiziano

~ ROMAN ~I had her beautiful face that I missed as h*ll burned into my brain like a scar I couldn’t stop touching.Vittoria.The way she had looked at me when I walked into her office still sat with me. It was not her being angry at me that killed me. It was the absence of love and distrust she had for me. Being cold, numb, detached.I did not want to believe I had lost her already. But I knew I had broken her. And that I was an assh*Le for itAnd whatever she was doing to me now, that… I deserved.“You’re zoning out again, Rio.”Diego’s voice snapped me out of my thoughts. He was seated across from me in the dimly lit meeting room in the nightclub, leaning back lazily in his chair with a half-eaten croissant forgotten on the plate in front of him and a new cup of coffee he had just gotten.“To be fair,” Cleto muttered from beside him, his arms crossed as he stuffed his face, “He has a lot to zone out about. It'll feel so shitty if I were in his position also."I glared at Cleto. “I’

~VITTORIA ~I laid lazily on the hotel bed that evening, arms stretched out and my face upwards facing the ceiling, staring at the dimly lit crystal chandelier. I couldn't stop thinking about North and Isabelle. And I couldn't help but wonder if Roman had been aware of their relationship all along but had decided to add it to the not-so-short list of things he lied to me about.I sighed, turning around, stuffing my face into the duvet on the bed, feeling my oversized t-shirt roll up to my waist. I screamed into it, letting out my frustration as best as I could while digging my fingers into the duvet.Just then, a knock came on my door.I wasn't expecting anyone and I had told Nicola I didn't want to be disturbed for like the next four hours since I needed rest. I certainly hoped it wasn't going to be Roman either because I was definitely not in the right head space to entertain him at the moment. Not with the whole North Discovery.The knock repeated. This time harder and more impatie

~VITTORIA~There was silence for a while, with just me and Roman staring into each other's eyes. "I'm sorry. I want to make it up to you however I can. I - I can never do anything to hurt you and I want you to believe me again, starting now." Roman told me. His face was apologetic, and his eyes softened as he spoke, letting me see whatever raw emotions he felt through them.I bit my lower lip slowly, and in the next second, I grabbed his chin and pressed my lips on his, deepening the kiss as the seconds flew by. He pulled himself closer to me and cupped my face in his hands gently, moaning into the kiss. When we pulled away, he planted some kisses on my lips, cheeks and forehead, "I love you, Vittoria. You're like a drug that got me addicted and I've never been able to pull away. Not that I wanted to either. I'm just saying you're an amazing woman.""I love you too, Roman," I replied to him with a smile. In a flash, he pulled me into a hug, spreading his hands over my back and clo